Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and watched a little TV.I had trouble getting to sleep last night and I went back to sleep for a couple more hours.After getting up,I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things to do today.I stopped in on a friend to see how he was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few hygienic stuff that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I watched a movie that I placed into the DVD player.I also at dinner while watching the movie.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help me endure through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation late last night when I masturbated.I had a difficult time getting to sleep last night as the anxiety that I have been feeling as a result of not being able to land a job as of yet.My job search has been making me anxious and my self confidence is getting very low.I have been getting the same old cold reception.I have had four interviews,but nobody has hired me as of yet.All of this made me lose sleep and I wound up giving into temptation bu masturbating.I also gave into this again during the mid morning again and on both occasions,I felt pretty miserable.On both occasions,I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him.I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ as I was really miserable for sinning against him.I really felt bad and I poured my sol out to him and after praying,I did feel better as I knew and truly believed that I was truly forgiven.I went on with the rest of the day feeling better knowing that I was forgiven for my sins.I really need to work really hard in fighting and resisting these overwhelming urges.I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in same sex fantasies and lusting after other men.I decided ti stay busy through the day as I ran all of my errands and kept busy with them.Fellow blog followers and readers of my posts here,I am asking for all of you to please continue praying for me.Please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.My SSA struggles,combined with my lack of success in trying to find a job,have really been taking a toll on me and have been giving me a very rough emotional time and also,stress has also been building up within me.Please continue praying for me as I really desperately need your prayers.I also need your positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Please leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayers and words of encouragement.I am in desperate need of both.They both help keep me going in this fight and struggle.They also continue to help strengthen both my determination to overcome this SSA and my determination to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Friday, September 13, 2013
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed quickly and headed over to my Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for some lunch and after eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I did a little bit more of bottle and can hunting.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Since it rained for much of the day,I stayed home and watched a DVD or two in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched a movie of two that I popped into the DVD player.I also did some more personal PC work afterwards.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength,in the name of his son Jesus Christ, to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for the bathroom.This made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft once I was finished.I went right back to bed and to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men clouded my mind and that created the temptations to lust and fantasize.I simply turned to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges that were very overwhelming.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I threw everything on him and asked for that strength to help me fight and resist these urges.After I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I had asked for.Though I have been doing this.I am asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive words of encouragement.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA,and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed quickly and headed over to my Thursday morning spirituality group.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for some lunch and after eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I did a little bit more of bottle and can hunting.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Since it rained for much of the day,I stayed home and watched a DVD or two in the DVD player.
After eating,I watched a movie of two that I popped into the DVD player.I also did some more personal PC work afterwards.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him for strength,in the name of his son Jesus Christ, to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when yet another erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,so I got up and headed for the bathroom.This made the erection start to soften.My genitals were fully soft once I was finished.I went right back to bed and to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men clouded my mind and that created the temptations to lust and fantasize.I simply turned to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges that were very overwhelming.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I threw everything on him and asked for that strength to help me fight and resist these urges.After I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.I knew and truly believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I had asked for.Though I have been doing this.I am asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive words of encouragement.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They both strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA,and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I was out of the house for much of the day.I had so many errands to run.I first headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up several other needed things.After that,I headed over to another Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that,I dropped off several free newspapers at a few people houses.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a bit.It was a very hazy,hot and humid day and I had the fans going while relaxing to cool off.
After eating,I watched a few classic TV episodes from one of my DVD sets and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD,including it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride,on a one day at a time basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help me in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection had softened.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men as sexual images of men clouded my mind.Fortunately for me,it wasn't too bad as I was out running my errands for the day and that took my mind off of my SSA struggles.I didn't think about these struggles for the whole day as I kept busy with my important personal stuff.It was wonderful.Though I escaped unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal encouragement.Prayers and positive verbal support help out in many ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I was out of the house for much of the day.I had so many errands to run.I first headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up several other needed things.After that,I headed over to another Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that,I dropped off several free newspapers at a few people houses.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a bit.It was a very hazy,hot and humid day and I had the fans going while relaxing to cool off.
After eating,I watched a few classic TV episodes from one of my DVD sets and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD,including it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride,on a one day at a time basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help me in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection had softened.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men as sexual images of men clouded my mind.Fortunately for me,it wasn't too bad as I was out running my errands for the day and that took my mind off of my SSA struggles.I didn't think about these struggles for the whole day as I kept busy with my important personal stuff.It was wonderful.Though I escaped unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal encouragement.Prayers and positive verbal support help out in many ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I had to go to a local garage and get my oil changed.After that was done,I headed to the local city school district office to vote in the primary today.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I decided to do more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I also ask him for the strength to help get me through it all.They both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften,though it was slow going.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men kept clouding my mind repeatedly.I really had to pray really hard to my Heavenly Father for the strength to fight and resist these urges as they kept coming at me from all sides.I asked him for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked for strength to help me fight and resist as these urges kept coming at me.After I was finished,I felt better and also,much stronger.I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and that he gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep in praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue to pray for me as I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,please leave some encouraging words in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They strengthen my determination to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I had to go to a local garage and get my oil changed.After that was done,I headed to the local city school district office to vote in the primary today.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I decided to do more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I also ask him for the strength to help get me through it all.They both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften,though it was slow going.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men kept clouding my mind repeatedly.I really had to pray really hard to my Heavenly Father for the strength to fight and resist these urges as they kept coming at me from all sides.I asked him for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked for strength to help me fight and resist as these urges kept coming at me.After I was finished,I felt better and also,much stronger.I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and that he gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep in praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue to pray for me as I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that you please leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.Please pray for me and also,please leave some encouraging words in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They strengthen my determination to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, September 09, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since today was a chilly day,I decided to simply stay home and take it easy for much of the day.I also managed to get some much put off cleaning up around the house done.
I relaxed for much of the day.I decided to simply put in a few more job applications online and I am still hoping for the best.After that,I decided to watch a couple of DVD's.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPS struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask for strength to help me through.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I had to really use all of my strength to help me fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I got up out of bed and proceeded to head for the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.After I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men throughout the day.I had to contend with sexual images of men clouding my mind and trying to envelope me.Yes,they were coming on strong and the urge to act out on them was very overwhelming.I had to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and pray for strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked him for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed very hard for that as I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father by giving into these terrible temptations.After I finished,I felt much stronger and I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.While I did that throughout the day today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need your encouraging words in the comments section.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive encouraging words in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting an oil change done,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since today was a chilly day,I decided to simply stay home and take it easy for much of the day.I also managed to get some much put off cleaning up around the house done.
I relaxed for much of the day.I decided to simply put in a few more job applications online and I am still hoping for the best.After that,I decided to watch a couple of DVD's.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPS struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask for strength to help me through.They both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I had to really use all of my strength to help me fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I got up out of bed and proceeded to head for the bathroom and that made the erection start to soften,though it was slow going.After I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men throughout the day.I had to contend with sexual images of men clouding my mind and trying to envelope me.Yes,they were coming on strong and the urge to act out on them was very overwhelming.I had to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and pray for strength to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.I asked him for that strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed very hard for that as I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father by giving into these terrible temptations.After I finished,I felt much stronger and I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.While I did that throughout the day today,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need your encouraging words in the comments section.Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive encouraging words in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of getting an oil change done,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, September 08, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and decided to go out and get some much needed grocery shopping done.
I went to three different stores to do my shopping.I went to two local supermarkets and the local Super Wal-Mart.After I was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I fixed my evening meal.While eating and after I was done,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me endure through all of the negative affects and they both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and proceeded to head for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted through the day,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.But today,it wasn't much of a problem as I kept myself busy with what I had to do.I simply did my grocery shopping and that took my mind off of anything sexual.It didn't cloud my mind and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still going to ask that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need your positive words of encouragement in the comments section.They both help in many positive ways.Please pray for me and leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and decided to go out and get some much needed grocery shopping done.
I went to three different stores to do my shopping.I went to two local supermarkets and the local Super Wal-Mart.After I was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I fixed my evening meal.While eating and after I was done,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me endure through all of the negative affects and they both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and proceeded to head for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted through the day,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.But today,it wasn't much of a problem as I kept myself busy with what I had to do.I simply did my grocery shopping and that took my mind off of anything sexual.It didn't cloud my mind and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still going to ask that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need your positive words of encouragement in the comments section.They both help in many positive ways.Please pray for me and leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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