Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I was out of the house for much of the day.I had so many errands to run.I first headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up several other needed things.After that,I headed over to another Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple more things.After that,I dropped off several free newspapers at a few people houses.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed for a bit.It was a very hazy,hot and humid day and I had the fans going while relaxing to cool off.
After eating,I watched a few classic TV episodes from one of my DVD sets and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD,including it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride,on a one day at a time basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.They both help me in keeping me sustained,but also on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I didn't lay back down until the erection had softened.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing of other men as sexual images of men clouded my mind.Fortunately for me,it wasn't too bad as I was out running my errands for the day and that took my mind off of my SSA struggles.I didn't think about these struggles for the whole day as I kept busy with my important personal stuff.It was wonderful.Though I escaped unscathed,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me.I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful support and positive verbal encouragement.Prayers and positive verbal support help out in many ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ