Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship after the service,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and decided to go out and get some much needed grocery shopping done.
I went to three different stores to do my shopping.I went to two local supermarkets and the local Super Wal-Mart.After I was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I fixed my evening meal.While eating and after I was done,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I ask my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me endure through all of the negative affects and they both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last long.I sat up and proceeded to head for the bathroom and that made my genitals start to soften.When I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted through the day,though minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.But today,it wasn't much of a problem as I kept myself busy with what I had to do.I simply did my grocery shopping and that took my mind off of anything sexual.It didn't cloud my mind and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am still going to ask that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need your positive words of encouragement in the comments section.They both help in many positive ways.Please pray for me and leave me some words of encouragement in the comments section.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ