Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.I had to run a couple of errands for my mother today.We were running low on food.I had to go grocery shopping today to stock up on some stuff for the next couple of days,including today.Before I did that,I stopped to say Hello to a friend and to see how he's doing.He told me that he was doing good.He also showed me that his picture was in the paper.He was at a Joan Osborne outdoor concert and I immediately caught him in the picture where the crowd was gathering.I also stopped there to show him a couple of DVD's that I bought at a Blockbuster Video store in my neck of the woods.After that,I went to do the grocery shopping.On the way home,it drippled a little.This was unexpected because there was no rain in the forecast today.It was supposed to be sunny and mild but a little bit of rain did come down.It only lasted about 20 minutes.
After I got home,I bathed and shaved.I also ate my dinner,which was a frozen TV dinner.
I am now at home relaxing.I am getting ready to entertain the crowd tonight.I am hoping that the night goes well.I rarely have an off night but I still hope for things to go well.You never know what might happen.But again,I am hoping for things to go well.
That was my day today and my hoped for night tonight.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a pretty frustrating start to my work shift today.When I got to the pick up place to pick up the laundry,I had a tough time trying to pack the laundry in because the majority of the bags were missing.There was only one bag filled with dirty laundry and the rest of the load was all over the place.I had a pretty difficult time trying to find the missing bags.I and the rest of the staff of the pick up place,which is a drug-alcohol rehabilitation center,tried to find the missing bags but we were unsuccessful.The thing was that time was becoming a factor because I had to get to the work site to start my job and I knew that I could not waste time looking for missing bags.This was also insane because on Thursday afternoon after lunch,I dropped off two bags of clean laundry and the bags were also clean.The staff was also baffled as to what happened to the bags.But they are hoping that they can resolve this mystery/problem when the weekend is over.I am hoping that they can find at least two bags to use to put the laundry in so I have nothing to worry about.I hope that this situation can be resolved by Monday or even Tuesday.If not,I do not know what I am going to do nor the staff.
The work shift went smoothly with no negative situations.But it did not remove my frustrations that started my day.I am hoping that the weekend wil help bring my mood down.Tomorrow night is the night that I entertain the crowd and I am hoping that a successful night will help relieve me of some of the stress of the frustration that happened today.
Despite my emotional state tonight,I am still glad that the weekend is finally here.I am looking forward to tomorrow night when I will be singing up a storm and really getting some satisfaction for doing a good job in my singing.If the night is successful and the rest of the weekend goes well,I will feel a little bit better.
Again,I hope that the mystery into what happened to those bags is solved by the start of the new week.I would hate it if they had to order/purchase new bags to use for the purposes of loading the dirty laundry into them.I know that this possibly can not be avoided and if it has to be done then it has to be done.But still,I am hoping that the mystery is solved soon.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a very smooth work shift today.Nothing negative happened today on the job nor when I left for home.I simply did my job and went home.Since I now have the afternoons off on Thursday and mornings off on Friday,I am now going to use the extra time to work on my issues,mainly emotional.I have to try and work on my sanity.I have been on the verge of losing it lately and I do want to work on keeping my cool.As stated last night,I do not want to lose my temper and I do want to keep my cool because I do not want to get in trouble again.After the trouble that I got into last year,which led me to undergo anger management counseling by order of my supervisor's supervisor in order to keep my job.Since,according to my counseling,I have been making progress,I do not want to blow my wad(so to speak)and risk getting into trouble.If I am making progress as they counselors have been saying,I want to continue progressing and doing good.Yes I do.I don't want to make mistakes that could ruin me as far as my job goes.I want to keep my job and I want to keep working.I don't want to make any terrible mistakes.I want to keep doing good and continue striving towards my goals.
After dinner and when the weather cooled,I went out because I had a whole bunch of empty bottles and cans in the trunk of my car.I wanted to turn them in so when my mother needs to do her grocery shopping,there will be plenty of room in the trunk for the grocery bags to be placed in there.I had a good sum of money from turning in those bottles.After I am done here,I am going to register the bills at Where's George.When I got done,I went to a Dairy Queen in my area and bought an ice cream sandwich.I am now at home relaxing and getting ready to turn in for the night.I had a very eventful day.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The pick-up went well today.I did not have any messes to clean up at the pick up point today and that was great.After I dropped off and sorted out the laundry,I made a couple of stops on the way home.I visited a friend of mine who I do not talk to very much.We had a very good conversation today as we talked about a lot of things,mostly about a couple of documentary films that I picked up on DVD about a week ago.I have not watched them as of yet but I plan to.I have a few movies that I have not watched as of yet but I plan on watching them every Friday night until I am caught up.I have just been so busy as of late that I have not been able to really watch anything.I did manage to see a movie in the last two weeks and I enjoyed that.But again,I need to catch up on some movies that I have been meaning to watch but have not had the chance.I am going to watch another movie on Friday night before I go to sleep.
Today,weatherwise,the weather was "HAZY,HOT & HUMID!"The temps were in the low 90's again.Tonight,we are supposed to get a thunderstorm and afterwards,some cooler temps stating Thursday.
My meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor went great.I talked with her a lot of what has happened over the past two weeks.I told her the problem about my attempts to reach this certain guy that I have been meaning to patch things up with for quite a while.I also pointed out that I understood why he possibly has not been returning my calls.She understood how I felt but she did point out that if I am not careful,I could lose my temper again before I know it.She also told me that I have been letting my frustrations pile up on top of each other and I am already on the verge of exploding in a rage if I keep this up.The only advice she gave me is to simply let it go for now.She also advised me that if I do call him again,simply tell him to "call me whenever he can and when he gets a chance." I said okay and that was it.Again,she said afterwards,simply move on and let it go for now and to continue exercising patience regarding this.She also said that if he is truly serious about wanting to fix things,he will call me at an opportune time when he does have the time.I am still going to try but I will let it go if I do choose to call him again.
She made me realize that this is why I am saying angry things to myself.I have been doing that as of late and I now realize why I have been doing so lately.I am going to take her advice and I will let it go.The ball is now in his court.I am also going to continue exercising patience regarding this.I do not want to lose my temper again.I have been doing pretty good regarding this and I do not want to do so.Because I could ruin myself if I do this time.That is a chance that I am not willing to take.
My support group meeting tonight at the church went great.It was great to finally let go of all the emotional baggage that I had.It was also great to hear what the other men in the group had to say as well.I also shared with them what I shared with my sexual abuse support counselor today as well.Again,it was a great meeting and I am looking forward to the 4th of July when we are going to get together at a park out in the country.I am hoping that this is a fun thing.I can hardly wait.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty smooth work day today.Since it was smooth,the day went by pretty fast with nothing negative to write about.I also had some pretty interesting conversations with some of my colleagues while having lunch.Again,a pretty smooth work day.It was a little bit easier now that I have a four door car to help with the laundry loads.It makes hauling the laundry back and forth a little bit easier.I am glad to have this.It is wonderful to have a little something to make the days go by easier.
The weather for most of the day was very HAZY,HOT & HUMID.It was in the lower 90's for most of the day.Fortunately,I had air conditioning where I work and it was cooler inside.But when I got outside,it was HOT.Right now,it has cooled down somewhat but it still feels warm.We are supposed to get rain tomorrow and then the temps are supposed to cool down a little starting Thursday.A little rain is better than nothing and I do hope that it does get a little cooler.
Tomorrow is simply a pick up day.All I have to do is pick up the laundry and sort it out at the work place.I do have a couple more things on my agenda tomorrow.I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor in the afternoon.Tomorrow evening,I have my support group meeting at the church.I am hoping that both of these go well.The meeting have been going well with me but I still hope for things to go well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling very good.I had a very good day today.I finally have my new car on the road and that is the best thing to happen all day.I drove it around for most of the day.I had to get the feel of it.I also celebrated by getting a cassette adaptor for my portable CD player.It was great to listen to some CD's in my new car and that was awesome.I also bought the car to make my work a little easier.Now,my work is a little easier.I now have plenty of room for all the laundry bags and that is something.
Today,weather wise,was sunny,hazy,hot and humid.The fans were going on all day where I am living.It was a chore trying to keep the house cool.But I think that we did good.I was just enjoying the weather and enjoying my new car.It was a great day today.I had a blast and I was really enjoying life today.I know that I will be enjoying my life a little more now.But still,I have to take life one day at a time and always keep a straight face.I also have to continue keeping on guard because you never know what might happen.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes by smoothly.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.It was a not too exciting day today.I simply took a drive around town today.It was a nice sunny day today so I felt that a nice cruise around the town was appropriate.Much of the day,I took a trip around the town and stopping at video stores to see if there was anything new to buy in the previously viewed DVD sections.I really did not find anything too interesting nor did I have any real money with me to buy anything anyway,but I did get a chance to look around and it was great.I did see some things but not enough to arouse my interests.Before I did that,I simply went to pick up a few slices of pepperoni pizza as a late lunch.Again,not too exciting but I did get out for some air and I did have a pretty decent time even though the day was not too exciting.
Last night,my entertaining of the crowd was very successful.The crowd enjoyed everything I did and I even had some laughs with a few guys at the bar.I had a wonderful time and I the crowd enjoyed me.There were not too many people there last night because of a carnival that was in town at one of the local churches.I figured that most of the people were there and did not feel like coming to the place where I sing.Thanks goodness that this happens only once a year and that the people will come back next week,which is usually the case.Still,I had a great time and the crowd,though it was small,enjoyed me.A small crowd is better than no crowd.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping to finally get my new car on the road.I have been putting it off for far too long.Again,I hope that I can get it on the road.
That was day today,my night last night and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ