Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.The pick-up went well today.I did not have any messes to clean up at the pick up point today and that was great.After I dropped off and sorted out the laundry,I made a couple of stops on the way home.I visited a friend of mine who I do not talk to very much.We had a very good conversation today as we talked about a lot of things,mostly about a couple of documentary films that I picked up on DVD about a week ago.I have not watched them as of yet but I plan to.I have a few movies that I have not watched as of yet but I plan on watching them every Friday night until I am caught up.I have just been so busy as of late that I have not been able to really watch anything.I did manage to see a movie in the last two weeks and I enjoyed that.But again,I need to catch up on some movies that I have been meaning to watch but have not had the chance.I am going to watch another movie on Friday night before I go to sleep.
Today,weatherwise,the weather was "HAZY,HOT & HUMID!"The temps were in the low 90's again.Tonight,we are supposed to get a thunderstorm and afterwards,some cooler temps stating Thursday.
My meeting with my sexual abuse support counselor went great.I talked with her a lot of what has happened over the past two weeks.I told her the problem about my attempts to reach this certain guy that I have been meaning to patch things up with for quite a while.I also pointed out that I understood why he possibly has not been returning my calls.She understood how I felt but she did point out that if I am not careful,I could lose my temper again before I know it.She also told me that I have been letting my frustrations pile up on top of each other and I am already on the verge of exploding in a rage if I keep this up.The only advice she gave me is to simply let it go for now.She also advised me that if I do call him again,simply tell him to "call me whenever he can and when he gets a chance." I said okay and that was it.Again,she said afterwards,simply move on and let it go for now and to continue exercising patience regarding this.She also said that if he is truly serious about wanting to fix things,he will call me at an opportune time when he does have the time.I am still going to try but I will let it go if I do choose to call him again.
She made me realize that this is why I am saying angry things to myself.I have been doing that as of late and I now realize why I have been doing so lately.I am going to take her advice and I will let it go.The ball is now in his court.I am also going to continue exercising patience regarding this.I do not want to lose my temper again.I have been doing pretty good regarding this and I do not want to do so.Because I could ruin myself if I do this time.That is a chance that I am not willing to take.
My support group meeting tonight at the church went great.It was great to finally let go of all the emotional baggage that I had.It was also great to hear what the other men in the group had to say as well.I also shared with them what I shared with my sexual abuse support counselor today as well.Again,it was a great meeting and I am looking forward to the 4th of July when we are going to get together at a park out in the country.I am hoping that this is a fun thing.I can hardly wait.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ