Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I had plenty to do.First,after eating breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I made my bed.I had a long day ahead of me and I needed to get some important things done.
When I did get out,I had a late but light lunch at a small Chinese restaurant,which was a small bowl of chicken soup.After that,I went and I had my hair cut.I also bought a new pack of CD-R's and a bowl of cereal at a local Big Lots.The last thing on my agenda was that I had to go to a local supermarket and buy a few things that my mom needed.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I bathed and I ate a light dinner.I also got a phone call from a friend of mine saying that he wanted to go out tonight and that he wanted me to pick him up.I said that this would be no problem and we hung up.
After all of that,I registered a dollar bill at the Where's George site and I also did some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good but busy day.
I will be entertaining the crowd tonight.I am looking forward to doing that.I always look forward to singing each and every week because it moves me to do that and all the positive responses that I receive.I really enjoy what I do.I am hoping that the evening goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell this morning.I masturbated while still in bed.I was playing with my genitals until I was at the point of orgasm and I masturbated to finish it.I felt miserable after that.I did ask for forgiveness from the creator,which made me feel better.I am hoping that I can conquer this habit and these SSA struggles that I am currently battling.I don't want anything sexual with men.I want to have healthy,non-sexual relationships with men where sex has no place.I am hoping that I can find some real male friends soon.
As for the rest of the weekend,I haven't made any plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it benefits me in a positive manner.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I also did not have too much to do.I simply did my job and after it was done,I dropped everything off and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and to withdraw some money that my mom needed.I also turned in a few bottles that I had in th eback seat of my 4X4.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I had to head back out again.My mom needed a box of herbal tea and I wanted to get a bottle of duck sauce to have with dinner.I headed back home and I am staying there for the rest of the night.
After eating,I registerd all the bills at the Where's George site.They are now on there and I will start speninging them tomorrow.I will be going to get my hair cut and I will also be buying more CD's at the local Big Lots.I am out and I need to get some more.I am also hoping to go the nearby Old Navy store to buy a few pairs of jeans.I hope that they still have a good selection there.
I can't believe that the weekend is finally here.I am hoping that tomorrow goes well.I will be going out to sing tomorrow night and I am hoping that the evening goes well.I am also looking forward to it.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had another brief episode this morning.Yes,I was playing with my genitals again and I was also lusting after men as well.But I stopped myself before it went too far.But I still felt miserable because I really want to overcome SSA.I need help and advice and if anyone has any advice,please share.Thanks.
That was ny day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I had a pretty good day on teh job and everything went according to plan.After having lunch,I bagged everything and dropped everything off at the rehab center before heading for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby drug store to buy a box of herbal sleep tea.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I had a cup of coffee while relaxing and watching a little bit of TV.I laid down for much of the afternoon while reading an article that I printed off the internet.I took a nap for about 1/2 an hour.
When I got up,I finished my personal PC work.I also managed to leave some feedback on Ebay for recent purchases that I made.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before turning in for the night.It was a pretty good day and I have quite a bit to be greatful for.Nothing really negative happened except that I got a little disgusted with a social club member when they mentioned some untrue tabloid stuff regarding former Beatle Paul McCartney.It was about the lies that Heather Mills,his then wife,told the press about him beating her very violently.Of course,they were later revealed to be,of course,lies.But apparently,these people didn't buy that they were lies.I didn't say anything to anyone but I did have a look of disgust on my face that lasted until I left for the day.I was fortunate that the day was winding down for me anyway and I was just relieved that I was leaving soon at that time.This really made me angry because I know that all the stuff that Heather Mills said was completely false.But there are always people who would rather believe the tabloid trash over the truth.I am not angry anymore.I am over this.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had another brief episode whiel laying down.I was playing with my genitals whiel lying in bed.It was pretty miserable but I stopped it before it went too far.I also had images of naked men with erections surrounding me while I was in the middle of them feeling weak.Fortunately,it didn't carry over while I was napping but it was a struggle.I don't want to play with myself or think of sexual activity with men.I want to view men as brothers in a very healthy and clean way.I don't want to think of men as possible sex partners or even blow buddies.I want to have healthy,non-sexual relationships with men and not sex.If anyone out there can share with me any effective ideas,please share them here because I don't know whether I am coming or going.Any helpful advice would be appreciated.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good but busy day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and that really gave me some good time.After dropping the laundry off,I went to a couple of stores on the way home to pick up a few things.
I bought a gallon of milk at one store and I also bought a 1/2 gallon of orange juice at another store.I also bought some Rolaids.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I relaxed a bit by taking a nap for an hour and after that,I cleaned myself up because I had a lot of stuff that I had to do.
I went back to the Best Buy store to return the amplified antenna that I bought and they credited my account.I bought another package of CD-R's and I headed for home.It was a long drive there and I made sure that I filled my gas tank so it would be full on the way down and back.
On the way home,I stopped at a supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and cans.After that,I headed straight home and I stayed there.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work,including some e-mail work.I still have one more thing to do before I sign off for the night.Overall,a pretty good but busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had yet another brief episode.I played with my genitals for a few seconds but realized what I was doing and I stopped.I am hoping that I can overcome this dirty habit for sure.I am still feeling hopeful and optimistic and I am not going to let this setback get me down.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.Despite that I had to clean up a minor mess at the rehab center,the day went well.I did what I had to do in the period of time that I had and when I was done,I simply bagged everything that was clean and dropped it off.I headed home after that.
When I got home,I headed back out to run a few errands.I picked up a couple of things that my mom needed and I even got a few things for myself.I headed straight home and that is where I stayed.
I had a stomach ache for most of the day.It was really hurting.I took Alka Seltzer and laid down for a while while listening to some music.It did help my stomach ache somewhat.Most of the queasiness is gone.I am still feeling a little.But I am hoping that it passes.
After having dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.It was only a small bit that needed to get done and I am happy to have done that.Again,I am hoping that I am feeling better soon from some of the ailments that I am going through.My stomach is hurting and I am stuffed up nasal wise.But again,I am hoping that I am feeling better soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode.It was a minor one.I did a little bit of playing with my genitals but it didn't last.I stopped when I realized that I was doing something wrong.I am hoping that I can get some support soon.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes well.I have the rest of the day off tomorrow.I don't know what I am going to do after the pick up as I have not made any plans.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off and it was also a pretty busy day for me today.I had to go to the local hospital for a health screening and that went better than expected.After my screening,I left the hospital and I headed for home.Before going to the hospital,I did my personal computer work and I went to the bank to withdraw some money for my mom.I only went home because I wanted the register the bills at the Where's George site before spending them.After that,I went to a nearby supermarket to get the stuff that my mom needed.
Before finishing my errands,I went to my mechanic's garage to pay him the money that was due to him that I promised.After that,I finished my errands.I went to a nearby Dollar General store to buy a few boxes of hot cereal and a bottle of laundry detergent.After making a stop at the local Sakvation Army thrift store,I went straight home and that is where I am.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and I decided to do some catching up on some much needed computer work.I also registered some more bills at the Where's George site.
I am now relaxing.I am now anticipating the next day.I had a pretty good and busy day and that was really something.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode this morning.I was still feeling a little tired and I played with my genitals and I was almost at the point of orgasm when I stopped.I felt miserable.I would really like to stop doing that.If anyone out there reading these posts has any ideas,I would like for you to share what you did to contain this habit for good.That would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today was a not too eventful day.I did manage to finish my personal PC work and I ran a few errands.During that time,I went to a local Chinese take out place and had a bowl of chicken soup.I have a few cold symptoms that I am trying to get rid of that started when we had the latest snowfall in the city where I am living and that was the main reason for the soup.After eating my late lunch,I went to a nearby supermarket to finish my errands.
I had to pick up a few more things for the home and I also bought a few things that I needed.After paying for them and getting a tank of gas,I headed straight home.
After getting home,I watched another episode of Friday The 13th: The Series.I watched an episode this morning when I woke up and after that,I did my personal PC work.I watched another one tonight just before eating dinner and while eating,I watched the local news and afterwards,NBC news.I had to hear some more about the promising FLU vaccine that medical science is trying to develop and they feel that they are getting close.I am hoping that this is approved soon because that means that the dreaded infectious disease will be a thing of the past if it does.
After all of that,I decided to do some catching up on some much needed computer work.I might watch a cartoon or two after that on YouTube.
My night of entertaining the crowd went great.It started out pretty slow but then,it got pretty good.There weren't too many people when I got there but there were quite a few as the night was winding down.I got lots of positive responses and it made me feel good.
As for the rest of the night,I really don't know what I'll do.I might go out and have at least one drink or maybe,because of the cold symptoms that I have,I might just stay home tonight.If I do go out,I'll do it early because I have to get up in the morning.I have to go to the local hospital for a health screening.I am hoping that it goes well.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I masturbated this morning and it made me feel miserable.It was over a lustful fantasy with a guy that I once had something sexual with.I did ask for the creator to forgive me afterwards but I still felt a little depressed after that.I do feel better because I managed to go out and do a few things and again,it made feel a little bit better.I guess that I may have to start going back to church when the weather gets warmer.I juts have to make myself get up in the morning for that.I still have some nervousness about it but in time,I hope to get over that hurdle and restart.Prayers would be appreciated.
Tomorrow is my day off.I am hoping that the day goes well.As stated above,it is a big day tomorrow and I am hoping that everything works out for me.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ