Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I had a pretty good day on teh job and everything went according to plan.After having lunch,I bagged everything and dropped everything off at the rehab center before heading for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby drug store to buy a box of herbal sleep tea.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I had a cup of coffee while relaxing and watching a little bit of TV.I laid down for much of the afternoon while reading an article that I printed off the internet.I took a nap for about 1/2 an hour.
When I got up,I finished my personal PC work.I also managed to leave some feedback on Ebay for recent purchases that I made.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work before turning in for the night.It was a pretty good day and I have quite a bit to be greatful for.Nothing really negative happened except that I got a little disgusted with a social club member when they mentioned some untrue tabloid stuff regarding former Beatle Paul McCartney.It was about the lies that Heather Mills,his then wife,told the press about him beating her very violently.Of course,they were later revealed to be,of course,lies.But apparently,these people didn't buy that they were lies.I didn't say anything to anyone but I did have a look of disgust on my face that lasted until I left for the day.I was fortunate that the day was winding down for me anyway and I was just relieved that I was leaving soon at that time.This really made me angry because I know that all the stuff that Heather Mills said was completely false.But there are always people who would rather believe the tabloid trash over the truth.I am not angry anymore.I am over this.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had another brief episode whiel laying down.I was playing with my genitals whiel lying in bed.It was pretty miserable but I stopped it before it went too far.I also had images of naked men with erections surrounding me while I was in the middle of them feeling weak.Fortunately,it didn't carry over while I was napping but it was a struggle.I don't want to play with myself or think of sexual activity with men.I want to view men as brothers in a very healthy and clean way.I don't want to think of men as possible sex partners or even blow buddies.I want to have healthy,non-sexual relationships with men and not sex.If anyone out there can share with me any effective ideas,please share them here because I don't know whether I am coming or going.Any helpful advice would be appreciated.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ