Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work as I had the day off from work today.
I relaxed for much of the day as I had the day off.I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I headed over to the scheduled church picnic.
The picnic was wonderful.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had to reduce some of my e-mails as I had no time to review them.I only kept the important stuff and deleted the rest.After I was finished with that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.Later in,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.No,I wasn't.I guess that staying busy with work and having fun at the church picnic took my mind off of the negative sexual stuff that is connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike any time when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,means a lot to me.I need it daily and often.Yes,it both reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your support also helps keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that that do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But Hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work day went well.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a few minutes and I showered again to clean up.After that,I went and cashed my paycheck and headed back home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while again before having a light evening meal.When I was done eating,I headed back out to a Celebrate Recovery group,which went wonderful.I had a talk with a minister a little bit more about my SSA struggles and after sharing with the group,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare for my evening retirement as I was tired.Overall,a very good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can report another day of not having any problems with temptations.I guess that staying busy with work and going to the recovery group helped.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support daily and often.Your support helps keep me going.Your support also helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since I have the day off from work,I will relax for much of the day before attending the scheduled church picnic,I will simply relax and take it easy at home when that is over.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and it was a lot.After that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I stayed at home for much of the day.I did get out in the late afternoon to pick up a few things.After I did that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had myself a light dinner and I after I was finished,I headed over to my usual Thursday night Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderful as expected.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I had no temptations.I went through the day with no problems.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with their terrible temptations.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured constantly that I am not alone in the SSA struggle.I know that there is my creator,my Heavenly Father,and his son Jesus Christ,but I still need the support of my fellow man daily and often.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of work and going to a Celebrate Recovery meeting,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I reduced some of my e-mail and when I was finished with that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
Since we had a high percentage chance for rain,I decided to get out and do some much needed shopping.I first went to a local supermarket to buy something there and when I was finished,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy something else.After that,I headed straight home as I wanted to get home before the storm hit.
When I got home,I hurried into the house and put the stuff that I bought away.After that,I did some more personal PC work and also had a visit with my caseworker,which went well.After that,I finished what I started to do online and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I listened to some music while relaxing and doing some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
By the way,the storm that we were supposed to get bypassed and went elsewhere.Still,it was better to be safe than sorry.
While my rocky road to recovery to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't hit by any temptations of any kind.I went through the day without any serious or not too serious problems.I guess that staying busy throughout the day kept my mind off of the negative sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though i escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I still struggle immensely and I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday night study group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
I first went to a local photography studio to pick up a disc with my senior year pics on them and after that,I headed for home to drop the disc off and I headed back out again and went to a local supermarket to turn in some empty bottles and after that was done,I headed the public library to print something that I had to print.After that,I headed back to that same local supermarket to turn in more bottles that I had collected at a park.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar tree store to pick up a little something for dinner and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the dinner stuff away for the time being and after that,I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I guess that staying busy with what I had to do kept my mind off of the negative and unwholesome sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time to try and tempt me into breaking my Heavenly Father's perfect law,including,but not limited to,his perfect law in regards to sexuality.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since it looks like that it might rain,I have made no plans,but I just might stay home and simply take it easy.If the weather changes,I might go out.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after having a light lunch,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only did a few things today.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a couple of things for dinner and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After having a light dinner,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and watched it.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after several days of not having any problems with temptations,I gave into temptation early this morning upon getting out of bed.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after them and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked for forgiveness and I also begged him to be merciful to me as I was sorry for sinning against him.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and I prayed for forgiveness.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the day feeling a little bit better,but I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I can't let these terrible and unnatural sexual desires that I have own me.I have to show them that I own them and not the other way around.SSA can really wear anyone who struggles with it down.I need to stay focused on what is right and ignore what is wrong.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.It is just that when people visit and leave nothing in the comments section,I feel alone in my struggles as far as being on Earth goes.I know that my Heavenly Father is there and he does listen and helps me,but I also still need support from my fellow man as well.This is why I keep asking that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.It really makes my day when I read that someone among my fellow man is there for me and still supports me.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee.I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Big Lots to buy a small thing and after that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few more things and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and had a light lunch.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.When that was over,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched another DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,I decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I wasn't tempted in any way,shape or form.I wasn't tempted fantasize nor lust after other men and I wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals nor watch and look at porn.I guess that staying busy by going to church and doing a little bit of shopping kept my mind occupied by keeping my mind off of the negative sexual stuff connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They will try to tempt me to sin and I have to show them that I am strong in my weakness and that I own my desires and not the other way around.Please continue praying for me.I would really appreciate that.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both types of support,prayerful and positive verbal,daily and often.I really want to heal and overcome this terrible SSA and I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ