Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after having a light lunch,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only did a few things today.I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a couple of things for dinner and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After having a light dinner,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and watched it.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after several days of not having any problems with temptations,I gave into temptation early this morning upon getting out of bed.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after them and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked for forgiveness and I also begged him to be merciful to me as I was sorry for sinning against him.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall into sin and I prayed for forgiveness.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the day feeling a little bit better,but I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I can't let these terrible and unnatural sexual desires that I have own me.I have to show them that I own them and not the other way around.SSA can really wear anyone who struggles with it down.I need to stay focused on what is right and ignore what is wrong.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.It is just that when people visit and leave nothing in the comments section,I feel alone in my struggles as far as being on Earth goes.I know that my Heavenly Father is there and he does listen and helps me,but I also still need support from my fellow man as well.This is why I keep asking that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.It really makes my day when I read that someone among my fellow man is there for me and still supports me.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ