Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and before I headed out,I did some much needed cleaning up.I had to clean the kitchen sink as it was horribly dirty.I also had to clean the dish pan as well.After that,I cleaned the toilet in the bathroom and the bathroom sink.After I was finished cleaning them,I got dressed and headed out to pay a bill at the Best Buy that was located in the next county.After that,I paid a visit to a friend to see how he was doing when I arrived back into my home county.After that,I stopped at a few thrift stores and when I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away that I bought and started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and listened to a little bit of music.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can report that I have no problems today with temptation.I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I kept busy throughout the day and it was great.I guess that being out in the community did a lot of good.I was out and about and had no problems with temptations.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time to try and get me to sin against my Heavenly Father.They will use everything in their power to get me to go against my Heavenly Father and try to make me act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have in various ways.I have to show these desires that I own them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning and plans to clean my bathtub in the early afternoon,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed up in dress clothes as I went out to drop off a job application at a local business and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and listened to music.I had another thing on my agenda for today.I had a job interview for a dishwashing position at a local restaurant that was connected to a local hotel.I got dressed up in the dress clothes when the time came and headed for there with my job placement counselor and coach meeting me there and we talked for about 20 minutes and they said that they would let me know on Monday,but it sounds and looks promising according to my job placement counselor and coach.After it was over,I headed for the bank to withdraw a little bit of money and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and did a little bit more personal PC work while preparing my evening meal.
After eating,I went back out to get some important things at a local Dollar Tree store so I can do some more cleaning up around the house this weekend.When I got back home,I did some more personal PC work and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,a passing immoral thought did come and fortunately,I rejected it before it festered.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any immoral thought creeping up into my mind.I kept my mind on the job interview coming up and putting the application in.I stayed focused on that and that kept my mind off of anything sexually immoral that is connected with SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day as I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Plus,positive verbal support in the comments section builds my confidence and all.Please continue praying for me and also,please me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and after a 1/2 hour later,I showered and when I was finished,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for a while and enjoyed a little music.I then got dressed and I headed out to visit with a friend and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to head over to my usual Thursday night Bible study group,which was as wonderful as expected and I enjoyed it.After that was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I must say that I had no temptations today.I wasn't tempted to fantasize nor lust after other men and I also wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals to such things.I am hoping that this continues onward.Though I did scape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow,as Satan and his minions can strike at any time tempting me to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men by letting sexual images of men cloud my mind and tempt me to act out in that way.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left in the comments section.Am I asking for too much?Is asking for positive verbal support too much?I am hoping that it isn't.Please leave me some positive and encouraging words in the comments section.I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.I need to be continuously reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to pray for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in another application and going to a job interview,which I hopes leads to a hire,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I chose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was done showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I called back someone who called me for an interview for a job and it is this Friday in the late afternoon.I am hoping that will go well.After hanging up with him,I got dressed and I headed out to pick up another job application.After that,I did some shopping for some stuff that I needed and when I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff away and I did my personal PC work.I then started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I listened to a little bit of music and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for a while after that and prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I again gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after these images.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better and knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day and desperately.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I need all the support that I can get.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my evening Bible study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I postponed my shower and had my usual quick breakfast first as I had a little bit of cleaning up to do.After that was done,I showered and when I was finished,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed for much of the day as it was raining terribly outside with thunder and lightning.I simply relaxed and listened to a little bit of music.I also relaxed on my bed and did a little bit of reading.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I did a little bit more reading.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation yet again by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,which led me to fantasize and lust after those images of men.I managed to stop myself and go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out.I confessed everything to my Heavenly Father and asked to be forgiven.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I really need to stop this.I also have to stop it.I want to overcome my obsession with men and the male body.I am not getting anywhere in my journey to overcome this particular obsession and I really don't know why.If anyone out there who regularly checks my blog is reading this,please share some helpful advice on how I can overcome this terrible obsession.I already know that obsession leads to nowhere and can only get the obsessed person in trouble.I don't want to get into trouble.I want to overcome this terrible obsession and continue in my journey to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I need your prayerful support as I am going through a very terrible and stressful emotional period right now.I also need some positive verbal support.I need some advice on how I can overcome this terrible obsession that I have.I don't want to be obsessed with men anymore,nor do I want to be obsessed with the male body anymore.If anyone out there can help me in overcoming this terrible obsession,please share in the comments section.I am desperate for advice.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments,especially some helpful and spiritual advice on how I can overcome this terrible obsession that I have so I can continue in my journey to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA,which does nothing to enhance the lives of others,but only to lead them into destruction and other unwanted consequences later on,such as AIDS and other STD's,which is something that I don't want.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of turning in another job application and a little bit of shopping,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I held off showering and had my usual quick breakfast.After conversing with my job placement counselor/coach via e-mail,I headed out to pay my car insurance for the month and I also paid another bill as well.After that,I picked up another job application and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I showered and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I also took an assessment with a place that I applied for a job online.I also managed to finish another application that I put off for a while unintentionally,I also sent my resume via e-mail to a couple of places I learned that were listed on Craigslist.I also listened to a little bit of music and I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day as there was the possibility of some rain,but it never came.I still managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind.I also masturbated the rest of the way when orgasm hit.I felt really terrible and miserable after this happened and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him for both forgiveness and his mercy in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I threw everything on him and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall.I begged and pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy because I was really sorry for what I did.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I am beginning to ask myself "What's wrong with me?"I need to know.How can I go through a while without giving into urges and then,I give into them after that time of reprieve.I need to know how I can stop this as I don't want to fall into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask for forgiveness.I need some advice on how I can stop this cycle.I want to heal from this terrible SSA.I also want to overcome this terrible SSA.If anyone out there can help me,please do so.I would appreciate that.Please leave me any advice in the comments section of my blog.I also ask that you continue in prayer for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the support that I can get.Please leave me any advice on how I can stop this sinful thing.Please leave me some advice in the comments section.Please also continue your prayers for me as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since there is going to be rain,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was done,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in my new suit and headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed in casual clothes and headed out to a Goodwill store in another area of the county and found a few nice things.After that,I paid a visit to a friend's place out there and after a few minutes,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few more things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work and I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I can report that I had no problems with being tempted today.I stayed busy today with things and that took my mind off of anything sexual.I was out and about for much of the afternoon and that kept me tuned into what I was doing.It was great that I didn't get tempted to act out in any way,shape or form,especially in the realms of fantasizing and lusting,including manipulating my genitals to these things,as well as getting tempted to seek out other men for the purpose of acting out with them.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I need to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time when least expected.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support every day and desperately.Your positive verbal support reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Your prayerful support is also very important to me.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ