Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was the start of the weekend.I didn't have too much to do.I started the day by having a quick breakfast and a couple cups of coffee.I also did my personal PC work after doing that.
When the afternoon hit,I had to run a few errands.Firstly,I paid a visit to the newly opened Wal-Mart to check it out and buy a few things that I needed.There was a lot of peopel there taking advantage of the newly opened store and filling up their shopping baskets with a lot of things.It was just wonderful to be there and to shop.After paying for my items,I went directly to the supermarket across the street to continue my errands.
Before going over there,I went to a nearby hair place to get my hair cut.The best thing was that I didn't have to wait very long to get it cut.They took me in right away and my hair was done within a few minutes.I simply walked right over to the supermarket to complete what I had to do.After paying for the stuff that I got at the supermarket,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to buy something there.
When I got there,I almost changed my mind regarding buying the item that I was going to buy.I kept putting it back on the shelf and proceeding to leave but I went and bought it anyway.It is something that the nurse practitioner wants me to try but I am unsure if I want to try it.I have been going through withdrawal from stopping my previous medication and I think that it's the reason why I have been in a depressive funk.I am just hoping to be out of this funk really soon and that the withdrawal period will end.I really don't like the effects of this withdrawal and I am hoping that it is over soon.I will have to talk with the nurse practitioner again and I am hoping to get some insight from her as to how long this withdrawal period will go on.I am just hoping that it ends soon.
After finishing my errands,I headed straight home to try and take it easy,but couldn't.I was feeling restless and jittery as a result of the medication that I am currently taking.Why do medicines have to have side effects?Will they ever create a medication that will have no side effects when you take it?I hate that I have to put up with all of these side effects while taking a medication that is supposed to help me.Again,I have to talk with the nurse practitioner when I get the chance to tell her about the withdrawal effects of my previous medication and how I can deal with the side effects of the medication that I am currently taking.I hope to gain some insight.
As stated,I tried to take it easy but couldn't.I was pacing back and forth and feeling jittery.Plus,I was feeling cold and I did have clothes on.While mom heated up a couple of frozen pizzas for dinner,I bathed and got cleaned up for tonight.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I also watched a Time-Life infomercial about the Ultimate Oldies Collection.It was really neat to hear all of these snippets of the songs from the 1950's because these songs are the reason why the music I grew up with was around.Plus,I used to hear them on the radio when I was growing up when my mom's boyfriend used to play the all oldies station thet he and my mom used to enjoy.
After watching all of that,I decided to post my day on here and share what I had to do to try and make myself feel better by just being out in the community.It was good to be out and about and also to save on gas having the Wal-Mart that I like to shop at almost nearby.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I also have no temptation to watch any pornography online.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
I will be going out tonight to sing and hang out with the gang at the place where I entertain.I am hoping that the night goes well.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and after I was finished,I simply bagged the clean laundry and dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed for home after that.
On the way home,I stopped at the bank to cash my paycheck and I bought a couple of things that my mom needed at the local Dollar Tree store.Since it was raining,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered all the bills that I had gotten on the Where's George site.It was quite a bit to register.I also decided to do some more personal PC work after doing so.
My brother in-law stopped over for a bit and my mom and him talked for a while.I don't know much of what they were talking about because I was too busy on the computer to eavesdrop and I also believe that eavesdropping is rude.So,I let them have their talk and I continued on registering the dollar bills at the Where's George site.
Today,I was still in the depressive funk that I have been in for a little over three weeks.I am feeling good right now but for most of the day,I was feeling sadness.I don't know what could be causing this but I am hoping to be out really soon.I will just have to keep talking about this until the funk subsides.Any advice would be appreciated.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news and I did some more personal PC work.
I also had a talk with my father for a while.I was supposed to have heard from him earlier in the week but he informed me that he had some urgent work calls that he had to take care of and that he had completely forgotten.But I did talk with him for a while tonight and it was a pleasant conversation.I am still looking forward to his upcoming visit.He doens't know when he will be here but he still plans on coming up.He also informed me that he has some stuff that he has to take care of first before he can leave anywhere for anything.Still,I am feeling hopeful that he will be up here soon and I am still planning on spending as much time as possible with him.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I can report that I am having no cravings to watch any pornography at the moment.I am also not having any cravings nor desires to act out in any way,shape or form.I am feeling good as a result of me not having any temptation to watch any of that unhealthy eye candy that will not get my needs fulfilled nor make me feel any closer to what I am trying to accomplish.I am hoping that this continues for a long time.
Tomorrow is the start of the weekend.I am hoping that the weekend goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and when I was finished,I simply dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center and I headed for home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy while my mom was getting ready to go to an eye doctor's office to have her eyes checked out.When she left,I proceeded to go on my computer and do some more personal PC work.Since my mom was going to be gone for most of the afternoon,I decided to use the quiet time the best way that I knew how by working on the computer.My sister,who lives locally,took our mom to the eye doctor's office.
When she got home later in the day,she told me the news that she has to have surgery on her eyes in the Fall of this year and I am hoping that the surgery,though it is two months away,goes well.My mom has been lamenting on her eye condition for quite some time and she is relieved that the doctor can work with her eyes and fix them so she will see better.I am also hoping that this can be so as well.
Today,the situation that I am currently going through didn't affect me as much as it has been.I am still feeling the frustration of waiting for the "prior authorization" to come from the insurance company and I can get the medicine that I need so I can start to function and feel better.I am also still feeling hopeful that this can be resolved soon.As stated,I am still feeling the frustration of this whole insurance hassle and I am hoping that the situation can be resolved.This whole thing has really been a chore on my struggles with depression and SSA that I am feeling the temptation to do things that are wrong.But I am resisting the temptation and I am feeling better as a result of this avoidance.
After eating,I once again watched the evening news for a while and I decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as stated,I am having the temptation to watch pornography but I am not going to watch it.I am just going to choose to view something else online rather than porn.The temptation is still going to remain with me even if I don't watch any pornography but I know that I can make a choice not to view it.In the past,watching porn was a "false coping mechanism" when I felt that there wasn't anything that I can do or watch.But today,with me a little bit wiser,I can now say NO to pornography and NO to acting out.Still,I need to take this as a "One Day at a Time" thing.If I can get through one day or moment without giving into any temptation,Good.There is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.But as stated,I have chosen not to watch any pornography and I am going to continue battling this temptation every time it comes around.I am glad that I have a choice and that is one of the best things about being human.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a so-so day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly as there were no messes to clean up.After sorting out the laundry,I had lunch and I headed for home.
Before I did any of that,I first did my personal PC work and I also ran an errand for my mom.I had to withdraw money for my mom from the bank and I also went to get some gas in my tank.I headed for work to do the laundry pick-up.
I really did not have too much to do today,with the exception of going to a local post office to mail out some important stuff that needed to be mailed out.I simply took it easy for most of the afternoon and I tried to take a nap because I was feeling tired and a little sleepy.I was yawning as well but I couldn't even take a nap.I was feeling tired and sleepy but couldn't get any Z's.Plus,I was also feeling a little restless and I was pacing a little.I simply went on the computer and did a little bit more research on prescription drugs and even that is starting to get boring.I also did some research on depression and its causes.I am struggling with some depression at the moment and I wanted to get some knowledge on the condition.The only thing that I am hoping is that I can get out of this really soon.I am slowly getting out of it and I am still feeling hopeful.I am also thinking of calling one of those hotlines again just to talk about the feelings again.
For most of the afternoon,I simply hung out at home and tried to relax,but couldn't.
The reason I am feeling mixed emotions is the whole rigamaroo about trying to get the medication filled and always hoping that the "prior authorization" will go through so I can finally get this and I will be fine.This whole thing has been frustrating and nerve-wracking.I haven't had this problem before and I am hoping that this problem cann get resolved soon so I will get the medication and start using it to help me.It is also contributing to why I am feeling down in the dumps.Again,I am hoping that this issue will get resolved soon and I am also hoping that this situation doesn't happen again.I am also hoping that I will be alright once the situation is finally over.I will have to continue to hang in there until the whole thing is finally resolved.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I decided to share my day on here.Overall,a pretty so-so day.
This whole thing that has been happening is also taking a toll on my SSA struggles.I am now having the temptation to watch pornography.Though I am tempted,I am not going to watch that garbage.Why?Becuase watching porn is not going to fulfill any needs and it's also not going to help in the end.Pornography is nothing but unhealthy eye candy and most of all,it is mental poison as well as garbage.This whole thing regarding the medication situation has really blown my emotional make-up out of proportion and I am almost at my wits end.I really need some encouragement,support and prayers.The more I can get.The better I will hopefully feel.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly despite a minor setback.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and when I was done,I bagged everything that was clean and I dropped it all off at the rehab center.I had to do a lot of linens because that is what the rehab center needed more than anything.Again,I dropped everything off and I headed for home.
When I got home,I laid down and tried to rest for a bit when the phone rang.It was the nurse practitioner returning my phone call.There is a problem with obtaining the medication that I need.Apparently,the insurance company didn't approve the filling of it and now,I have to wait a little more time to get it.I told the nurse practitioner about the problem that I am currently having and she informed me that she is aware of the whole thing and that she is hoping that the prescription will be filled soon.She also couldn't understand the delay in filling the prescription because she prescribed me with a common drug that has been on the market for a long time and that there shouldn't be a problem.But I am hanging in there and I am hoping that this problem can be resolved soon.I really hate that this is happening but it's life.You just have to hang in there until the problems get resolved.
After talking with her,I returned to laying down and tried to rest.But it was hard for me to do so.All of these problems trying to get one prescription filled coupled with me always feeling tired but not being able to relax when I would really like to.But I am still feeling hopeful that all of this can be resolved soon.
I also did some more personal PC work,which consisted of checking e-mails and doing a lot more research on prescription drugs and their side effects,especially the one that I received as samples from the nurse practitioner yesterday,which I haven't even started taking yet because of the hassles with getting the medication that I really need.I am still taking the current medication that she has me on and because of the interactions,I have chosen to not take it due to some questionable risks.Again,I am hanging in there until this whole thing gets resolved.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,despite the setbacks,it was a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am having the craving to watch pornography online.But I am not going to watch any porn and when I am done here,I am going to do visit a non-porn website and hope for the temptation to die down.If it doesn't work,I will simply close off the internet and get off the computer.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
When I got up out of bed,I ate a quick breakfast and despite some issues with the internet browswer,I did my personal PC work.I also managed to do a little bit more research on some prescription medication.
After doing all of that,I still had some time in the morning,so I went to my insurance agent to pay my auto insurance for the month.After that,I headed straight home to get ready for my appointment with the nurse practitioner over at the local hospital.
While getting ready,I watched the noon news and I took it easy.I still had plenty of time so I felt that I should relax for a bit while waiting for the time for me to leave.
When I left,I stopped over at my work to pick up my paycheck that I didn't get on Friday due to the picnic.I headed for the hospital after that.
The session with the nurse practitioner went better than I expected.I told her everything from the way that I felt and the funk that I have been in.After telling her these things,I felt better and I got a new prescription and some med samples to try out.The only drawback was that the practitioner put the wrong date on the script paper.I now have to wait for her to give the okay on the prescription so I can start taking it because I really need it.I am hoping that she can tell the pharmacy that it is okay to fill the prescription right now so I can start taking it immediately.Again,I hope that this can happen soon.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and waited for dinner to get done.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I did some research on some more prescription drugs.As stated,I need to gain some knowledge on prescription drugs so I will know what's what on prescriptions and their side effects and their benefits.I did a little bit of research on the samples that I got today.I read them and the side effects are almost the same as the medication that I am currently taking.Boy,I wish that there wasn't so much side effects to these drugs.I know that these things are made by man and anything made by man will be as imperfect as man.But I do wish that there wasn't so much and that each and every drug was safe.I guess that you can't have everything.I am just hoping that everything works out for the better and that I will get the new medication that I really need to help me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have nothing negative to report.
Tomorrow is a work day.I hope that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
After getting out of bed,I ate a quick breakfast and I did my personal PC work.There weren't too many e-mails to read so I finished it within 1/2 an hour despite some issues with the internet browser.I also did a little bit more research on prescription drugs to gain some more knowledge.
After doing all of these things,I had a light lunch and I went to the local laundromat to do my underwear.There was an awful lot of it to and it took me a little over an hour to get it done.After folding the laundry,I bagged it all and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had realized that I had forgotten my little bag over at the laundromat and I had to call them to make sure that they would hold it for me so I could pick it up and take it home with me.I was relieved to have gotten it back and I am going to make a resolution with myself to try and not forget my personal property when I go to places like a laundromat.I headed back home after that and the bag is here in the house where it is safe.I also checked it out and everything was in there that I had put in there.There was nothing missing.
When I got home,I tried to relax and take it easy by registering a few more dollar bills on the Where's George database.After registering all of those bills,I ate dinner.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went well.I got a lot of positive responses from the crowd and I felt pretty good when I left to go home.I am looking forward to next week.
Tomorrow afternoon,I have an appoitment with the nurse practitioner over at the local hospital.I am hoping that the sesion will go well.I am going to tell her everything that I was going to tell her when I wanted her to call me on the telephone.I am going to tell her about the depressive funk that I have been in and I am hoping that she can give me some helpful advice on how I can get out.I am slowly getting out of it but I feel that I still can get some additional help in this area.Today,I didn't feel as much depression as I have been feeling but I still would like to get out of this funk.I am hoping that the nurse practitioner can help out in this respect.The only thing is that I hope that she feels that I need to take an extra prescription drug to help out.I have also been losing sleep as a result of this.I have been waking up in the early morning hours to use the bathroom but have a hard time getting back to sleep when I get back into bed.Again,I am hoping that I can get some helpful advice from the nurse practitioner.
The only positive thing is that this is having no impact on my struggles with SSA.
For the rest of the evening,I am just going to stay home and enjoy the evening.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ