Tonight,I am feeling mixed emotions.I had a so-so day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly as there were no messes to clean up.After sorting out the laundry,I had lunch and I headed for home.
Before I did any of that,I first did my personal PC work and I also ran an errand for my mom.I had to withdraw money for my mom from the bank and I also went to get some gas in my tank.I headed for work to do the laundry pick-up.
I really did not have too much to do today,with the exception of going to a local post office to mail out some important stuff that needed to be mailed out.I simply took it easy for most of the afternoon and I tried to take a nap because I was feeling tired and a little sleepy.I was yawning as well but I couldn't even take a nap.I was feeling tired and sleepy but couldn't get any Z's.Plus,I was also feeling a little restless and I was pacing a little.I simply went on the computer and did a little bit more research on prescription drugs and even that is starting to get boring.I also did some research on depression and its causes.I am struggling with some depression at the moment and I wanted to get some knowledge on the condition.The only thing that I am hoping is that I can get out of this really soon.I am slowly getting out of it and I am still feeling hopeful.I am also thinking of calling one of those hotlines again just to talk about the feelings again.
For most of the afternoon,I simply hung out at home and tried to relax,but couldn't.
The reason I am feeling mixed emotions is the whole rigamaroo about trying to get the medication filled and always hoping that the "prior authorization" will go through so I can finally get this and I will be fine.This whole thing has been frustrating and nerve-wracking.I haven't had this problem before and I am hoping that this problem cann get resolved soon so I will get the medication and start using it to help me.It is also contributing to why I am feeling down in the dumps.Again,I am hoping that this issue will get resolved soon and I am also hoping that this situation doesn't happen again.I am also hoping that I will be alright once the situation is finally over.I will have to continue to hang in there until the whole thing is finally resolved.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I decided to share my day on here.Overall,a pretty so-so day.
This whole thing that has been happening is also taking a toll on my SSA struggles.I am now having the temptation to watch pornography.Though I am tempted,I am not going to watch that garbage.Why?Becuase watching porn is not going to fulfill any needs and it's also not going to help in the end.Pornography is nothing but unhealthy eye candy and most of all,it is mental poison as well as garbage.This whole thing regarding the medication situation has really blown my emotional make-up out of proportion and I am almost at my wits end.I really need some encouragement,support and prayers.The more I can get.The better I will hopefully feel.Thanks in advance.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ