Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that,I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I first went to the public library to type up that letter that I needed to do and I also printed something from my e-mail.After that,I headed for a nearby restaurant to have a quick lunch and after that,I headed for a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed for a local Dairy Queen for a dessert.I then went to the local Big Lots to pick up something else that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.This morning,I once again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and at the moment of climax,I masturbated the rest of the way.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ,and I accepted full and total responsibility for my sins.I confessed all and I left nothing out.I bared my soul and pleaded for forgiveness and when I was finished,I felt much better and believed that I was truly forgiven.I still need to be tough on myself.I have to change my game plan for the mornings when I wake up out of bed first thing.I don't want to start falling back into the trap of sinning and repenting of it constantly.This practice is abusing the my Heavenly Father's gift of forgiveness and I want to avoid abusing that.Again,I need to be tough on myself and change my game plan for the morning upon arising.I have to upon arising jump into the shower and clean up and then,have my morning meal and coffee and also,get dressed in my casual clothes so I can avoid the trap of manipulating my private parts.I also really need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer often and ask my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible sinful urges that keep coming at me when I least expect them to come at me.I need to habitually ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again that you continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, March 15, 2014
Friday, March 14, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.When that was done,I headed out to run a few errands.
As my errand running was winding down,I paid a visit to a friend to see how he was doing.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
For a change of pace and a break from cooking,my family invited me out to dinner as many of my family were also going.It was great.The dinner was wonderful and I had a pretty good time.On the way home,we stopped at a local Dairy Queen for a Blizzard treat.I was then dropped off at home and when I got into the house,I prepared for my evening retirement while doing some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,as a result of the events of the day,I didn't have many problems.I just kept my mind on the tasks that I had to do and also,the time spent with my family going out to dinner.It was great.Nothing passed through my mind and I didn't have any problems with temptations.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.Though I escaped unscathed today,I still need prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.When that was done,I headed out to run a few errands.
As my errand running was winding down,I paid a visit to a friend to see how he was doing.After spending some time with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
For a change of pace and a break from cooking,my family invited me out to dinner as many of my family were also going.It was great.The dinner was wonderful and I had a pretty good time.On the way home,we stopped at a local Dairy Queen for a Blizzard treat.I was then dropped off at home and when I got into the house,I prepared for my evening retirement while doing some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,as a result of the events of the day,I didn't have many problems.I just kept my mind on the tasks that I had to do and also,the time spent with my family going out to dinner.It was great.Nothing passed through my mind and I didn't have any problems with temptations.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.Though I escaped unscathed today,I still need prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and I cleaned up around the house.After that,I showered in the early afternoon and after getting dressed,I headed out to the local Denny's for a light lunch and after that,I left to go to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for a light dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I went over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which was as wonderful as ever and I learned a great deal from it all.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two and at times,my worst struggle of the two.Today,I gave into temptation twice in the same day by fantasies and lusting after other men and on both occasions,I manipulated my genitals and when I was at the point of climax,I masturbated the rest of the way.On both of these occasions,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ,but with the second occurrence,I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me and I begged and pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy on me.I was really sorry for that second fall within the same day and I asked for mercy and I admitted my shortcomings to him to the point where tears were coming down from my eyes.I really poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father and repeatedly begged for mercy.It was terrible that I fell short twice in the same day.After I was finished praying,I felt much better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I moved on with the rest of the day.I must admit that there are times that when I do fall short into sin in regards to this terrible SSA struggle,I feel trapped within the realm of Homosexuality/SSA because I always hate it when I fall short of my Heavenly Father's perfect law and will and wished that I didn't have this struggle to deal with each and every day.Not only that,my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia also make the SSA struggle even more difficult for me because I hear things and voices in my head to do these terrible wrong things,such as fantasy,lusting and to inappropriately touch my genitalia to these things.I also feel like a basket case at times when I fall short repeatedly.Fellow blog followers,please continue to pray for me.I really need your prayerful support right now.I also need for y'all to leave me some words of positive encouragement as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at the moment and this fall into sin today didn't help matters at all.Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support right now as I really need that as much as the prayerful support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having dinner at my niece's house tomorrow evening,I have really no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast and I cleaned up around the house.After that,I showered in the early afternoon and after getting dressed,I headed out to the local Denny's for a light lunch and after that,I left to go to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things for a light dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I went over to my Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,which was as wonderful as ever and I learned a great deal from it all.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my night clothes and did a little bit more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two and at times,my worst struggle of the two.Today,I gave into temptation twice in the same day by fantasies and lusting after other men and on both occasions,I manipulated my genitals and when I was at the point of climax,I masturbated the rest of the way.On both of these occasions,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ,but with the second occurrence,I begged for my Heavenly Father to be merciful towards me and I begged and pleaded for my Heavenly Father's mercy on me.I was really sorry for that second fall within the same day and I asked for mercy and I admitted my shortcomings to him to the point where tears were coming down from my eyes.I really poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father and repeatedly begged for mercy.It was terrible that I fell short twice in the same day.After I was finished praying,I felt much better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I moved on with the rest of the day.I must admit that there are times that when I do fall short into sin in regards to this terrible SSA struggle,I feel trapped within the realm of Homosexuality/SSA because I always hate it when I fall short of my Heavenly Father's perfect law and will and wished that I didn't have this struggle to deal with each and every day.Not only that,my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia also make the SSA struggle even more difficult for me because I hear things and voices in my head to do these terrible wrong things,such as fantasy,lusting and to inappropriately touch my genitalia to these things.I also feel like a basket case at times when I fall short repeatedly.Fellow blog followers,please continue to pray for me.I really need your prayerful support right now.I also need for y'all to leave me some words of positive encouragement as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time at the moment and this fall into sin today didn't help matters at all.Please continue praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support right now as I really need that as much as the prayerful support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of having dinner at my niece's house tomorrow evening,I have really no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went outside to shovel snow on my driveway and my sidewalk for the mail people to come,which took me 45 minutes to do.After that was done,I went back into the house.
When I got back into the house,I heated up water in a cup in the microwave and made hot chocolate.I also popped some popcorn in the microwave and sat down to watch a movie that I bought yesterday.I also had another cup of hot chocolate as well.After the movie was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening while I was preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,while still in bed,I gave into the terrible temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I did feel really terrible after that.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to him.After I was finished,I felt better and truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but I have to keep in mind that there is tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real desperately as I need it both day in and day out.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks so much in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of shoveling the driveway and the sidewalks again as result of the blizzard that my hometown is having now.I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went outside to shovel snow on my driveway and my sidewalk for the mail people to come,which took me 45 minutes to do.After that was done,I went back into the house.
When I got back into the house,I heated up water in a cup in the microwave and made hot chocolate.I also popped some popcorn in the microwave and sat down to watch a movie that I bought yesterday.I also had another cup of hot chocolate as well.After the movie was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and I relaxed for the rest of the evening while I was preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.This morning,while still in bed,I gave into the terrible temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I did feel really terrible after that.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer to ask him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to him.After I was finished,I felt better and truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day unscathed,but I have to keep in mind that there is tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support real desperately as I need it both day in and day out.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks so much in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of shoveling the driveway and the sidewalks again as result of the blizzard that my hometown is having now.I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do give me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was finished with that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.When I was done with that,I headed out to do some running that needed to be done.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed and after that,I picked up a few slices of pizza as a late lunch.When I was finished with that,I picked up a DVD that was being held for me by a local business.After picking that up,I bought some things at a local Dollar Tree store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed top get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitalia upon arising and sitting down and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I stopped myself before it went to far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for falling short and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my sins and falling short.I poured my soul out to him and I left nothing out.After I was finished praying,I felt better because I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I need to really buckle down and get tough with myself because I can't keep doing these things.I need to go to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these terrible temptations come around.I need to really buckle down and go to my Heavenly Father and regularly ask for strength.I can't fall back into the trap of falling short and repenting each time.I need to go in prayer to my Heavenly Father whenever these terrible temptations come around.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,I really need some positive verbal support right now.Please pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with a Winter Storm Warning in effect for my area beginning at 2:00am late Tuesday/early Wednesday morning,I have really nothing planned.If the storm gets too intense,I think that I might stay home to be on the safe side and watch a movie or two while trying to stay warm.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was finished with that,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.When I was done with that,I headed out to do some running that needed to be done.
I first went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things that I needed and after that,I picked up a few slices of pizza as a late lunch.When I was finished with that,I picked up a DVD that was being held for me by a local business.After picking that up,I bought some things at a local Dollar Tree store and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed top get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitalia upon arising and sitting down and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I stopped myself before it went to far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for falling short and I also accepted full and total responsibility for my sins and falling short.I poured my soul out to him and I left nothing out.After I was finished praying,I felt better because I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I need to really buckle down and get tough with myself because I can't keep doing these things.I need to go to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever these terrible temptations come around.I need to really buckle down and go to my Heavenly Father and regularly ask for strength.I can't fall back into the trap of falling short and repenting each time.I need to go in prayer to my Heavenly Father whenever these terrible temptations come around.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,I really need some positive verbal support right now.Please pray for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with a Winter Storm Warning in effect for my area beginning at 2:00am late Tuesday/early Wednesday morning,I have really nothing planned.If the storm gets too intense,I think that I might stay home to be on the safe side and watch a movie or two while trying to stay warm.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, March 10, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I heard from the garage and my car simply needed a tune-up and it was done quickly.After that,I showered quickly and I got dressed.I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I walked over to the garage to pick up my car and after that,I decided to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had lots of grocery shopping to do as I was running out of food.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a few packs of boneless meat steaks.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some cereal,milk,pickles and orange juice,alongside some personal stuff that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up a pack of boneless chicken breasts.After paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating a light meal,I decided to do some more personal PC work and after that,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I then proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Today,upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I also wound up ejaculating and I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself as a result.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.I left nothing out and I admitted everything.I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father and after I was done,I felt better as I knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins and I moved on with the rest of the day.I have to watch myself when I get up out of bed in the mornings.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the morning time when I wake is the weakest time for me as my mind isn't fully awake,although I am up out of bed and my eyes are awake.I need to start jumping in the shower after having my usual 2 cups of coffee.I am still working on being tough with myself and do the needful things that I need to do in the morning so I don't give Satan and his minions what they want.Fellow blog followers,I really need your prayers right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your encouraging words help out a great deal and they also motivate me to keep going,alongside the prayers.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I heard from the garage and my car simply needed a tune-up and it was done quickly.After that,I showered quickly and I got dressed.I quickly did my personal PC work and when that was done,I walked over to the garage to pick up my car and after that,I decided to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had lots of grocery shopping to do as I was running out of food.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a few packs of boneless meat steaks.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some cereal,milk,pickles and orange juice,alongside some personal stuff that I needed.After paying for that,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up a pack of boneless chicken breasts.After paying for them,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and I relaxed for a while.
After eating a light meal,I decided to do some more personal PC work and after that,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I then proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of the two.Today,upon arising,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I also wound up ejaculating and I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself as a result.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for sinning against him and I accepted full and total responsibility for my falling short.I left nothing out and I admitted everything.I left nothing out as I poured my soul out to my Heavenly Father and after I was done,I felt better as I knew and believed that I was truly forgiven for my sins and I moved on with the rest of the day.I have to watch myself when I get up out of bed in the mornings.I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the morning time when I wake is the weakest time for me as my mind isn't fully awake,although I am up out of bed and my eyes are awake.I need to start jumping in the shower after having my usual 2 cups of coffee.I am still working on being tough with myself and do the needful things that I need to do in the morning so I don't give Satan and his minions what they want.Fellow blog followers,I really need your prayers right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Your encouraging words help out a great deal and they also motivate me to keep going,alongside the prayers.Please pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, March 09, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I waited for my rode to church to come and when it did,we headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I was dropped off at home and when I got into the house,I got out of my suit and since I was still tired as a result of difficulty getting to sleep last night,I laid down for a little over 2 hours and when I got out of bed,I got dressed in my casual clothes and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went to the drug store to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop in a DVD into my DVD player and watch it.After that was over,I did more personal PC work and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being the most difficult of the two.Today,I was again tempted to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing with other men and yes,I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images of men.I threw it all on my Heavenly Father and asked for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength because I was being tempted really strongly.I threw it all on my Heavenly Father and after I was finished,I felt stronger and know that I received what I asked for.For the rest of the day,I had no temptations and that was great.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful for that.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately each and every day.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of awaiting the verdict on what's wrong with my car's engine,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I waited for my rode to church to come and when it did,we headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I was dropped off at home and when I got into the house,I got out of my suit and since I was still tired as a result of difficulty getting to sleep last night,I laid down for a little over 2 hours and when I got out of bed,I got dressed in my casual clothes and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I went to the drug store to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop in a DVD into my DVD player and watch it.After that was over,I did more personal PC work and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,with the latter being the most difficult of the two.Today,I was again tempted to indulge in sinful lusting and fantasizing with other men and yes,I was also tempted to manipulate my genitals to these images of men.I threw it all on my Heavenly Father and asked for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard for that strength because I was being tempted really strongly.I threw it all on my Heavenly Father and after I was finished,I felt stronger and know that I received what I asked for.For the rest of the day,I had no temptations and that was great.Though I escaped the rest of the day unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Satan and his minions can strike when least expected.I have to stay on guard and be watchful for that.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support desperately each and every day.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of awaiting the verdict on what's wrong with my car's engine,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
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