Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had two cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that,I proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
I first went to the public library to type up that letter that I needed to do and I also printed something from my e-mail.After that,I headed for a nearby restaurant to have a quick lunch and after that,I headed for a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed for a local Dairy Queen for a dessert.I then went to the local Big Lots to pick up something else that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched a little TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.This morning,I once again gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and at the moment of climax,I masturbated the rest of the way.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ,and I accepted full and total responsibility for my sins.I confessed all and I left nothing out.I bared my soul and pleaded for forgiveness and when I was finished,I felt much better and believed that I was truly forgiven.I still need to be tough on myself.I have to change my game plan for the mornings when I wake up out of bed first thing.I don't want to start falling back into the trap of sinning and repenting of it constantly.This practice is abusing the my Heavenly Father's gift of forgiveness and I want to avoid abusing that.Again,I need to be tough on myself and change my game plan for the morning upon arising.I have to upon arising jump into the shower and clean up and then,have my morning meal and coffee and also,get dressed in my casual clothes so I can avoid the trap of manipulating my private parts.I also really need to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer often and ask my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible sinful urges that keep coming at me when I least expect them to come at me.I need to habitually ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again that you continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Please pray for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ