Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and when that was done,I did some much needed cleaning up and threw a lot of stuff into garbage bags.It was just mountains of paper junk that had accumulated over several months.After that was done,I began to watch a DVD,but felt tired and sleepy.I turned it off and after getting into pajamas,I laid down for a little over an hour and a half.
After getting back up,I headed back out to buy a few things for dinner.After eating,I watched another DVD and I did some more personal PC work.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two.Today,I had no problems with fantasies or lusting.I just keep busy with everything that I had to do and it was great.I didn't have nothing go through my mind nor did I have any thoughts of lusting.I simply went through the day unscathed,but there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Satan and his minions can strike and try to tempt me to act out on these unnatural sexual desires that I have.They try to get me to think that acting out is an inevitability rather than a choice.But I know that acting out is a choice and I don't want to act out any longer.Acting out will never give me what I truly want and need,which is affirmation of my gender identity and the feeling of feeling like a man.I am still hoping and praying for healthy and authentic relationships with other men where I can relate,identify and connect with them in a healthy authentic Christian way.I want to to connect with other men in a healthy and authentic way.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Please continue praying for me and please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a doctor's appointment in the mid afternoon,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ