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Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
The most important thing on my agenda was that I had to see my therapist today.I went over to my therapist's office as I had a some things that I needed to talk about.
The sessions went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I would have for dinner.After that,I headed over to the post office to mail out something important.After that,I headed over to the local Sears to pay a bill.After that,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up a few things.After that I headed over the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and paid another bill over the phone.After that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I just put into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.It is a very difficult struggle in itself and the ups and downs of this are never pleasant at all.After praying,I feel much better as I feel sustained and on a much calmer and level plain.It does make me feel a little bit better that I am not alone here in this particular struggle.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk and that made the erection soften.Though it was slow going,my genitals fully softened and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to fantasize about and lust after other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men tried to cloud my mind.I had to really keep up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father when these images kept coming at me mentally.I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these images and also,I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges as they kept coming at me from all sides.I prayed real hard as I didn't want to fall into sin by giving in to these overwhelming urges.I did feel much better and much stronger after I was finished praying and I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time.Yes,I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and it is getting more difficult by the day.Please keep up in prayer for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both work wonders in many ways.Your prayers and words of encouragement both help keep me going in this particular struggle and also,they also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA,and my my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Both your prayers and your words of encouragement both help out in many ways than any of you can think.The words of encouragement that you give anyone who struggles with SSA can be vital to that particular person's survival and even the prayers that you say on their behalf can also do the same for them as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a men's meeting that I will be attending,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went well.After the group was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have some lunch and after eating,I decided to head for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a few places to see if there were any empty bottles and cans,which there were.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.II am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and didn't lay back down until my genitals softened,which they did,but it was pretty slow going.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently too sleep.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted,though minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I simply kept busy with things that I had to do and that kept my mind off of sexual things.I went through the day just doing what I had to do.Though I did escape today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that all of you please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both help in many big ways.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen both my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of an appointment with my therapist,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only one important thing on my agenda for today.I had to see my general doctor for a follow-up on a few things and to get some much needed prescriptions.After the sessions,I headed for a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things to eat.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and after that,I headed over to a nearby car wash to pick up some bottles.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to heat up a can of soup and heat up some breaded mushroom snacks that I bought at the Dollar Tree store.After eating that for dinner,I headed over to a neighbor's house to pick up something that they had for me and I headed back home once that was completed.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father.I throw it on him as a burden and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but they also help keep me on a calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I had to use the bathroom.I headed over there and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but I stayed out for much of the day and that kept my mind off of anything sexual.I simply kept my mind focused on the day as I went through it.I was mostly at the doctor's office and though it was stressful waiting to be called,it took my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you please continue praying for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I am also in need of some positive verbal encouragement.Please leave some encouraging words in the comments section.I need those as much as I need prayers.They both do help me in extraordinary ways.They both help keep me going.They also help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
The main thing this afternoon that I had on my agenda was that I had to see my urologist in regards to the problem that I had in my groin area before I started to take Proscar for the problem.He simply asked some questions and he said another appointment for six months.After I left the doctor's office,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner tonight.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put a few things away and I started to heat up a can of soup for dinner.I also had a half a submarine sandwich as a side dish and that was my meal for the night.After I had my meal,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also finished my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I pray real hard and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last long.I simply sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and the erection started to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft.I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep after that.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted a few times throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I kept busy by simply being out in the community and that took my mind off of sinful sexual thoughts of other men.I simply kept my mind on the activities of the day and that kept me occupied.Though I did escape unscathed today,there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am again asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need some words of positive encouragement as I am going through this.They do help me in many ways.They both help keep me going.They also both help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with my general doctor,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.Since today was a holiday and it rained the entire day,I stayed home and watched a few movies in my DVD player while relaxing.It is just that I have an eventful week planned with appointments with a urologist tomorrow,my general doctor tomorrow afternoon and my therapist on Friday.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPS struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They help in both sustaining me and keeping me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk,which made the erection soften,though it was slow going this time.I walked for a while and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but this time,it wasn't too bad.I kept busy by watching movies all through the day and try not to have the negative sexual images of men cloud my mind.It actually did help keep the negative images at bay.I was also much happier as a result.Still,I am continuing to ask that y'all who follow my blog and read the posts to please keep up in prayer for me.I also need your words of encouragement as well.I am still going through a very rough emotional period and I need your prayers and encouraging words day after day.Please continue in both of these things.They both help keep me going.They also help to strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help to keep my motivation strong in continuing my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my urologist appointment,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.I did another Holy Bible reading in front of the congregation and we also had Holy Communion.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I headed over to a friend's place and we both went out to a flea market in the next county.I didn't buy anything as I didn't have an awful lot of money,but my friend bought a few things.After that,we headed for home.
On the way home,we stopped somewhere to grab a bite to eat.After that,we headed straight home.
I dropped him off at his place and hung out a few extra minutes with him.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Though I did have a light snack on the way home,I had a small bowl of soup as I still felt hungry.I relaxed for the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also still managed to get some more recommended Holy Bible reading as well.Even if I didn't get out to have some fun today,going to church today would have still made the day eventful for me.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions,for which I have one this Friday.I also continue to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I also ask for strength to deal and endure through it all.They both help in sustaining me and also,help keep me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk and that made my genitals soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.I also went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Throughout the day,since I was out in the community and having fun,I didn't think about my struggles all day.I just went through the day without anything negative happening.Nothing crossed nor clouded my mind.I had fun and that was great.Still,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me and also,don't hesitate to leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.They both help keep me going,They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the holiday tomorrow,I am just going to relax and take it easy.It is going to rain tomorrow and I will simply stay home and watch a few movies.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ