Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.Since today was a holiday and it rained the entire day,I stayed home and watched a few movies in my DVD player while relaxing.It is just that I have an eventful week planned with appointments with a urologist tomorrow,my general doctor tomorrow afternoon and my therapist on Friday.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPS struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggles seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They help in both sustaining me and keeping me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk,which made the erection soften,though it was slow going this time.I walked for a while and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but this time,it wasn't too bad.I kept busy by watching movies all through the day and try not to have the negative sexual images of men cloud my mind.It actually did help keep the negative images at bay.I was also much happier as a result.Still,I am continuing to ask that y'all who follow my blog and read the posts to please keep up in prayer for me.I also need your words of encouragement as well.I am still going through a very rough emotional period and I need your prayers and encouraging words day after day.Please continue in both of these things.They both help keep me going.They also help to strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help to keep my motivation strong in continuing my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my urologist appointment,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ