Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a couple of things planned.
The main thing this afternoon that I had on my agenda was that I had to see my urologist in regards to the problem that I had in my groin area before I started to take Proscar for the problem.He simply asked some questions and he said another appointment for six months.After I left the doctor's office,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner tonight.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put a few things away and I started to heat up a can of soup for dinner.I also had a half a submarine sandwich as a side dish and that was my meal for the night.After I had my meal,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also finished my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.I pray real hard and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me on a much calmer level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last long.I simply sat up and I sensed that I had to use the bathroom.I headed for the bathroom and the erection started to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft.I went back to bed and subsequently to sleep after that.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted a few times throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men.I kept busy by simply being out in the community and that took my mind off of sinful sexual thoughts of other men.I simply kept my mind on the activities of the day and that kept me occupied.Though I did escape unscathed today,there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I am again asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I need your prayers.I also need some words of positive encouragement as I am going through this.They do help me in many ways.They both help keep me going.They also both help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with my general doctor,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ