Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.I did another Holy Bible reading in front of the congregation and we also had Holy Communion.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into some casual clothes.I headed over to a friend's place and we both went out to a flea market in the next county.I didn't buy anything as I didn't have an awful lot of money,but my friend bought a few things.After that,we headed for home.
On the way home,we stopped somewhere to grab a bite to eat.After that,we headed straight home.
I dropped him off at his place and hung out a few extra minutes with him.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did my personal PC work.Though I did have a light snack on the way home,I had a small bowl of soup as I still felt hungry.I relaxed for the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also still managed to get some more recommended Holy Bible reading as well.Even if I didn't get out to have some fun today,going to church today would have still made the day eventful for me.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions,for which I have one this Friday.I also continue to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have.I also ask for strength to deal and endure through it all.They both help in sustaining me and also,help keep me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk and that made my genitals soften.I didn't lay back down until my genitals were fully soft.I also went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Throughout the day,since I was out in the community and having fun,I didn't think about my struggles all day.I just went through the day without anything negative happening.Nothing crossed nor clouded my mind.I had fun and that was great.Still,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in prayer for me and also,don't hesitate to leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.They both help keep me going,They also strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the holiday tomorrow,I am just going to relax and take it easy.It is going to rain tomorrow and I will simply stay home and watch a few movies.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ