Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did most of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I had only one important thing on my agenda for today.I had to see my general doctor for a follow-up on a few things and to get some much needed prescriptions.After the sessions,I headed for a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things to eat.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and after that,I headed over to a nearby car wash to pick up some bottles.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to heat up a can of soup and heat up some breaded mushroom snacks that I bought at the Dollar Tree store.After eating that for dinner,I headed over to a neighbor's house to pick up something that they had for me and I headed back home once that was completed.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father.I throw it on him as a burden and ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but they also help keep me on a calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and I had to use the bathroom.I headed over there and that made the erection start to soften.When I was finished in the bathroom,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but I stayed out for much of the day and that kept my mind off of anything sexual.I simply kept my mind focused on the day as I went through it.I was mostly at the doctor's office and though it was stressful waiting to be called,it took my mind off of anything sexual.Though I escaped today unscathed,I am again asking that all of you please continue praying for me.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and I need all the prayerful support that I can get.I am also in need of some positive verbal encouragement.Please leave some encouraging words in the comments section.I need those as much as I need prayers.They both do help me in extraordinary ways.They both help keep me going.They also help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ