Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things on my agenda for today.
The most important thing on my agenda was that I had to see my therapist today.I went over to my therapist's office as I had a some things that I needed to talk about.
The sessions went well.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I would have for dinner.After that,I headed over to the post office to mail out something important.After that,I headed over to the local Sears to pay a bill.After that,I stopped at a nearby supermarket to pick up a few things.After that I headed over the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff that I bought away and paid another bill over the phone.After that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I just put into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.It is a very difficult struggle in itself and the ups and downs of this are never pleasant at all.After praying,I feel much better as I feel sustained and on a much calmer and level plain.It does make me feel a little bit better that I am not alone here in this particular struggle.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up and walk and that made the erection soften.Though it was slow going,my genitals fully softened and I went right back to bed and subsequently to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to fantasize about and lust after other men.Throughout the day,sexual images of men tried to cloud my mind.I had to really keep up in prayer all day to my Heavenly Father when these images kept coming at me mentally.I asked my Heavenly Father in the name of his son Jesus Christ to give me the strength to fight and resist all of these images and also,I asked for strength to help me fight and resist these overwhelming urges as they kept coming at me from all sides.I prayed real hard as I didn't want to fall into sin by giving in to these overwhelming urges.I did feel much better and much stronger after I was finished praying and I truly believed that my Heavenly Father heard me and gave me what I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am going through a very difficult emotional time.Yes,I am still going through a very difficult emotional time and it is getting more difficult by the day.Please keep up in prayer for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both work wonders in many ways.Your prayers and words of encouragement both help keep me going in this particular struggle and also,they also help strengthen both my determination to overcome this terrible SSA,and my my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Both your prayers and your words of encouragement both help out in many ways than any of you can think.The words of encouragement that you give anyone who struggles with SSA can be vital to that particular person's survival and even the prayers that you say on their behalf can also do the same for them as well.Thanks in advance to all of you for both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of a men's meeting that I will be attending,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ