Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things planned.Today,the weather snowing and a minor wind was blowing.I had to really be careful driving as I went to Wal-Mart to bring something back that wasn't needed.After getting a refund,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still on my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I still never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply bring this struggle to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and put it in their hands and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this struggle or any struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated an erection away.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself for giving into this temptation.I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into this temptation and asked that God showed his mercy on me as I prayed and I felt better after praying.Throughout the day,I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept asking for strength whenever the temptations came back around.I prayed hard and kept up asking for strength throughout the rest of the day and tried to keep my mind clear of everything immoral and degrading,though this isn't a very easy thing in itself either.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the blog posts that I write.I am also asking for words of encouragement in the comments section by everyone as well.My blog gets many visitors,but rarely,encouraging comments are left.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me on my blog in the comments section.Don't be shy.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please keep up in prayers for me as well.It is because both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do,too.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Friday, December 28, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed immediately as I had a few things planned and I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some necessary stuff.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I put my home suit on and relaxed.I also watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have to deal with schizophrenic tendencies,alongside the BPD and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows me that I don't have to go through this struggle alone and that is very good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight this overwhelming urge.I sat up in bed and wouldn't lay back down until the erection softened,which it did after several minutes.I went back to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation after getting out of bed and sitting up in a chair,which was manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I felt really bad after doing that and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for doing that unclean and impure thing,which is actually a habit of mine that I would like to give up.There are times when I do that particular thing and it leads to ejaculation.I really would like to stop manipulating my genitals as I know that this is an unclean and impure habit.If anyone out there has had this problem and has succeeded in stopping,please share what has helped you in stopping this habit and what has also worked for you.I am open to anything that can and will help.I would really appreciate some answers and advice.Please share what has worked for you and how it worked.I am also continuing to ask for prayers and for some helpful encouraging words in the comments section from those who follow and read my blog posts.It is just that I get many visitors,but they don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please do so as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this struggle and even more determined to continue in my journey out of SSA and become the man that God intended me to be.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed immediately as I had a few things planned and I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some necessary stuff.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I put my home suit on and relaxed.I also watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have to deal with schizophrenic tendencies,alongside the BPD and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows me that I don't have to go through this struggle alone and that is very good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight this overwhelming urge.I sat up in bed and wouldn't lay back down until the erection softened,which it did after several minutes.I went back to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation after getting out of bed and sitting up in a chair,which was manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I felt really bad after doing that and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for doing that unclean and impure thing,which is actually a habit of mine that I would like to give up.There are times when I do that particular thing and it leads to ejaculation.I really would like to stop manipulating my genitals as I know that this is an unclean and impure habit.If anyone out there has had this problem and has succeeded in stopping,please share what has helped you in stopping this habit and what has also worked for you.I am open to anything that can and will help.I would really appreciate some answers and advice.Please share what has worked for you and how it worked.I am also continuing to ask for prayers and for some helpful encouraging words in the comments section from those who follow and read my blog posts.It is just that I get many visitors,but they don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please do so as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this struggle and even more determined to continue in my journey out of SSA and become the man that God intended me to be.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good,but stressful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed,alongside my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I was hoping to go to my Thursday spirituality group,but to unforeseen circumstances beyond my control,such as heavy snow and being snowed in my driveway,I couldn't go to the group and I even called them to let them know of my situation.After that,I did much of my personal PC work and got dressed to do what I had to do.
There was a big mountain of snow at the end of my driveway and I went out to shovel all of that and I knew that it would take me several hours to do.I bundled up in warm clothing and headed outside to do my shoveling.
I was just starting to shovel,but fortunately,my across the street's neighbor's brother in-law was driving his plow and he offered to plow the driveway for me at no cost to me.I let him and he cleared everything within a matter of minutes.After he was done,I thanked him and started to shovel the sidewalk right next to my house and after that was done,I warmed up my car and proceeded to get the snow and ice off that was covering it.It took a bit of doing,but I managed to get the vast majority of it off.I also had to shovel a big hill of snow in the back of my car so I would be able to back-up out of the driveway to go places.After I was finished cleaning off my car,I went in and started to drive off,but I had a really difficult time backing up.I had to really fight the elements as I was trying to get out.I got stuck a few times,but I persisted and persevered and finally,I got out and I headed over to the bank to deposit some money and I did a little shopping at the nearby Dollar Tree store.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After talking with him for a few minutes,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and went back out to do some more shoveling.I shoveled the sidewalk in front of the house and I also did the sidewalk in front of my next door neighbor's house and the sidewalk leading right up to her house and I even shoveled her steps.After that was done,I went back into the house.
When I got in the house,I fixed a light lunch and I finished my personal PC work.I also went over to my sister's house to pick up something that she had for me.After that,I headed back home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got back home,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good,but stressful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In my neck of the woods,Winter is back.We had a snow storm overnight and it gave us a very thick,but wet,blanket of snow.We are supposed to get really cold tonight and some freezing drizzle,which I hope won't be that bad.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still battling and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.It is a very complex struggle that I am going through and it never gets and easier.I also continue to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me at an even keel.It shows that I don't have to go through this struggle alone and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation by masturbating in the wee early morning hours.I had a throbbing erection and I gave into the urge to masturbate and while I did that,sexual images of men clouded up my mind.I asked God to forgive me for sinning and I asked for that forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better as a result.I even Thanked God for sending me that person in the snow plow to help me out and eased my stressful work load in shoveling all of that snow.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ all day as I went through the day as temptations kept coming at me left and right.I kept throwing every temptation on God in the name of his Christ Jesus and I felt better.I kept asking for strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me.I didn't want to sin against God anymore today.I have to admit that there are times that I want to throw in the towel and fulfill all those lustful and sinful sexual cravings for men,but I have willfully chosen not to do that.I choose to continue fighting these terrible unnatural desires that I have and keep throwing every temptation on God in the name of his son Christ Jesus.I stay in the fight and continually tell the enemy,Satan,the devil,that I am not throwing in the towel.I may fall short at times,but I am staying my ground and sticking to my guns(so to speak)by continuing on this journey out of this terrible SSA.I am also again asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read the posts that I write on here and also,I again ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.I also will keep praying myself.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed,alongside my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I was hoping to go to my Thursday spirituality group,but to unforeseen circumstances beyond my control,such as heavy snow and being snowed in my driveway,I couldn't go to the group and I even called them to let them know of my situation.After that,I did much of my personal PC work and got dressed to do what I had to do.
There was a big mountain of snow at the end of my driveway and I went out to shovel all of that and I knew that it would take me several hours to do.I bundled up in warm clothing and headed outside to do my shoveling.
I was just starting to shovel,but fortunately,my across the street's neighbor's brother in-law was driving his plow and he offered to plow the driveway for me at no cost to me.I let him and he cleared everything within a matter of minutes.After he was done,I thanked him and started to shovel the sidewalk right next to my house and after that was done,I warmed up my car and proceeded to get the snow and ice off that was covering it.It took a bit of doing,but I managed to get the vast majority of it off.I also had to shovel a big hill of snow in the back of my car so I would be able to back-up out of the driveway to go places.After I was finished cleaning off my car,I went in and started to drive off,but I had a really difficult time backing up.I had to really fight the elements as I was trying to get out.I got stuck a few times,but I persisted and persevered and finally,I got out and I headed over to the bank to deposit some money and I did a little shopping at the nearby Dollar Tree store.After doing that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After talking with him for a few minutes,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and went back out to do some more shoveling.I shoveled the sidewalk in front of the house and I also did the sidewalk in front of my next door neighbor's house and the sidewalk leading right up to her house and I even shoveled her steps.After that was done,I went back into the house.
When I got in the house,I fixed a light lunch and I finished my personal PC work.I also went over to my sister's house to pick up something that she had for me.After that,I headed back home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got back home,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good,but stressful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
In my neck of the woods,Winter is back.We had a snow storm overnight and it gave us a very thick,but wet,blanket of snow.We are supposed to get really cold tonight and some freezing drizzle,which I hope won't be that bad.
While my rocky road to recovery continues onward,I am still battling and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.It is a very complex struggle that I am going through and it never gets and easier.I also continue to put up with the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Christ Jesus and they both help in sustaining me and keeping me at an even keel.It shows that I don't have to go through this struggle alone and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation by masturbating in the wee early morning hours.I had a throbbing erection and I gave into the urge to masturbate and while I did that,sexual images of men clouded up my mind.I asked God to forgive me for sinning and I asked for that forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better as a result.I even Thanked God for sending me that person in the snow plow to help me out and eased my stressful work load in shoveling all of that snow.I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ all day as I went through the day as temptations kept coming at me left and right.I kept throwing every temptation on God in the name of his Christ Jesus and I felt better.I kept asking for strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me.I didn't want to sin against God anymore today.I have to admit that there are times that I want to throw in the towel and fulfill all those lustful and sinful sexual cravings for men,but I have willfully chosen not to do that.I choose to continue fighting these terrible unnatural desires that I have and keep throwing every temptation on God in the name of his son Christ Jesus.I stay in the fight and continually tell the enemy,Satan,the devil,that I am not throwing in the towel.I may fall short at times,but I am staying my ground and sticking to my guns(so to speak)by continuing on this journey out of this terrible SSA.I am also again asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read the posts that I write on here and also,I again ask that you please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA.I also will keep praying myself.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed with my usual 2 cups of coffee that I drank during my morning meal.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing planned for today.I went over to my sister's house to do my laundry and it was a lot to get done.It took quite a while and when it was finally finished,I bagged everything and headed straight home.
When I got home,I put off folding everything up and decided to go to my room and fix my bed.After doing that,I relaxed and popped a DVD in to watch it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how I will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It's bed enough having BPD,but I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside that and that makes my struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I don't have to endure this struggle alone and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.This was a really overwhelming urge.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was really starting to envelope me.I tried tossing and turning,but the erection kept throbbing.I sat up and decided to get out of bed and walked.While I walked,the erection started to soften and when it was fully soft,I went back to bed.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to act out with fantasies and masturbation throughout the day.I kept up in prayer to God and asked him in the name of his son Christ Jesus for strength to fight and resist every temptation and I felt better.I kept it up throughout the day as I didn't want to sin against God and try to stay within his good graces.It is a very difficult thing to resist when one struggles with the terrible condition known as SSA.It is easier to give into the unnatural desires connected with SSA than it is to resist them.I simply kept up in prayer all day to God and I felt better after that.I am also continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog posts.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that when you visit the blog,I would really like an encouraging word or two from you.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and they both give me strength.It is just that my blog gets visitors,but the visitors don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I would really love some encouraging words and some loving advice in the comments section.As I said,both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and make me even more determined to overcome it.Please say something that is encouraging to me and will help me.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,if the weather isn't too bad,as my region will be under a "Winter Storm Warning" starting at 4:00pm today and will end tomorrow at 1:00pm,I am hoping to attend my spirituality group and have lunch at a local kitchen.If the weather is really rough,I will simply go home and stay there and watch a DVD or two.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed with my usual 2 cups of coffee that I drank during my morning meal.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing planned for today.I went over to my sister's house to do my laundry and it was a lot to get done.It took quite a while and when it was finally finished,I bagged everything and headed straight home.
When I got home,I put off folding everything up and decided to go to my room and fix my bed.After doing that,I relaxed and popped a DVD in to watch it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how I will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It's bed enough having BPD,but I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside that and that makes my struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I don't have to endure this struggle alone and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.This was a really overwhelming urge.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was really starting to envelope me.I tried tossing and turning,but the erection kept throbbing.I sat up and decided to get out of bed and walked.While I walked,the erection started to soften and when it was fully soft,I went back to bed.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to act out with fantasies and masturbation throughout the day.I kept up in prayer to God and asked him in the name of his son Christ Jesus for strength to fight and resist every temptation and I felt better.I kept it up throughout the day as I didn't want to sin against God and try to stay within his good graces.It is a very difficult thing to resist when one struggles with the terrible condition known as SSA.It is easier to give into the unnatural desires connected with SSA than it is to resist them.I simply kept up in prayer all day to God and I felt better after that.I am also continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog posts.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that when you visit the blog,I would really like an encouraging word or two from you.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and they both give me strength.It is just that my blog gets visitors,but the visitors don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I would really love some encouraging words and some loving advice in the comments section.As I said,both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and make me even more determined to overcome it.Please say something that is encouraging to me and will help me.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,if the weather isn't too bad,as my region will be under a "Winter Storm Warning" starting at 4:00pm today and will end tomorrow at 1:00pm,I am hoping to attend my spirituality group and have lunch at a local kitchen.If the weather is really rough,I will simply go home and stay there and watch a DVD or two.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone out there.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day holiday today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed over to church for the morning's Christmas service,which I was looking forward to with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The service was terrific.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into my casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed while listening to some Christmas music and after that,I headed over to my sister's house for dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.After some nice talk with a few of my family members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a holiday themed DVD into the DVD player.I did watch a few more holiday themed DVD's before the day was through and also,listened to some more Christmas music.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's subsequent emotional roller coaster ride.It is never an easy thing to deal with as my moods and/or emotions very on a day to day basis,or at times,from a minute/moment to minute/moment basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with both God and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this particular temptation.I sat up for a while and didn't lay back down and back asleep until the erection softened.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted to act out by fantasies and masturbating during the time that I was alone after all the holiday things were over with.But during the time that I was at my sister's house,I wasn't tempted to do anything of that sort and that was good.I enjoyed myself and that was good.It is just that when I am alone,I do get the cravings to act out by fantasies,masturbating to them or for emotional reasons and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I get tempted to do all of these things throughout the day and believe me,it is never an easy thing to fight or struggle with.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog and again,I ask that you all put encouraging words or two in the comments section.Why?Because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets many visitors,but they usually don't leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please continue in prayer for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks to all of you in advance for all of your positive words of encouragement and prayers.Thanks also to to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day holiday today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed over to church for the morning's Christmas service,which I was looking forward to with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The service was terrific.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into my casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed while listening to some Christmas music and after that,I headed over to my sister's house for dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.After some nice talk with a few of my family members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a holiday themed DVD into the DVD player.I did watch a few more holiday themed DVD's before the day was through and also,listened to some more Christmas music.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's subsequent emotional roller coaster ride.It is never an easy thing to deal with as my moods and/or emotions very on a day to day basis,or at times,from a minute/moment to minute/moment basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with both God and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this particular temptation.I sat up for a while and didn't lay back down and back asleep until the erection softened.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted to act out by fantasies and masturbating during the time that I was alone after all the holiday things were over with.But during the time that I was at my sister's house,I wasn't tempted to do anything of that sort and that was good.I enjoyed myself and that was good.It is just that when I am alone,I do get the cravings to act out by fantasies,masturbating to them or for emotional reasons and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I get tempted to do all of these things throughout the day and believe me,it is never an easy thing to fight or struggle with.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog and again,I ask that you all put encouraging words or two in the comments section.Why?Because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets many visitors,but they usually don't leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please continue in prayer for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks to all of you in advance for all of your positive words of encouragement and prayers.Thanks also to to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, December 24, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,my personal PC work followed and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things planned.I first had to sign some important papers at the place where the groups are held and after that,I headed for a local restaurant to pick up a sandwich and after eating it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a couple of holiday themed DVD's.
I ate dinner early as a result of the planned Christmas Eve candlelight church service,which I attended.
The service was a wonderful delight.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my PJ's and relaxed while watching a couple more holiday themed DVD's.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I even managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still battling and struggling with the symptoms of BPD daily and still enduring that constant emotional roller coaster ride associated with it.It is never easy and it varies from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that does make my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I don't have to struggle alone and that is pretty good.I also feel a tad better knowing that they are there.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for being there for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for about a couple of minutes and waited for the erection to soften and when it did,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still on a daily battle with these terrible SSA desires and they are really a difficult thing to fight against.I get tempted to manipulate my genitals for teh purpose of getting them near/fully erect or at the point of orgasm and stopping,but at times,a climax does happen and it makes me sorry that I did that.When that happens,I do ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and I do feel better after that.But still,I am going to really need all the prayerful support from everyone who follows and reads my blog and also to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your positive words of encouragement and prayers help keep me going in this struggle and even more determined to continue fighting and also to continue to try and overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's Christmas church service and having dinner at my sister's house later on in the day.After that,I am just going to go home and take it easy and watch a few more holiday themed DVD's.
That was my day today and my plans for the holiday ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,my personal PC work followed and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had a few things planned.I first had to sign some important papers at the place where the groups are held and after that,I headed for a local restaurant to pick up a sandwich and after eating it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a couple of holiday themed DVD's.
I ate dinner early as a result of the planned Christmas Eve candlelight church service,which I attended.
The service was a wonderful delight.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into my PJ's and relaxed while watching a couple more holiday themed DVD's.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I even managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still battling and struggling with the symptoms of BPD daily and still enduring that constant emotional roller coaster ride associated with it.It is never easy and it varies from day to day,or at times,from minute/moment to minute/moment.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that does make my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions and I am still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I don't have to struggle alone and that is pretty good.I also feel a tad better knowing that they are there.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for being there for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I sat up for about a couple of minutes and waited for the erection to soften and when it did,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I am still on a daily battle with these terrible SSA desires and they are really a difficult thing to fight against.I get tempted to manipulate my genitals for teh purpose of getting them near/fully erect or at the point of orgasm and stopping,but at times,a climax does happen and it makes me sorry that I did that.When that happens,I do ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and I do feel better after that.But still,I am going to really need all the prayerful support from everyone who follows and reads my blog and also to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section as both your positive words of encouragement and prayers help keep me going in this struggle and even more determined to continue fighting and also to continue to try and overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I will be attending the morning's Christmas church service and having dinner at my sister's house later on in the day.After that,I am just going to go home and take it easy and watch a few more holiday themed DVD's.
That was my day today and my plans for the holiday ahead.FJ
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed and my usual 2 cups of coffee alongside that.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.The children put on a Christmas pageant depicting the story of the arrival of Jesus Christ and it was a wonderful performance that they gave.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light lunch.After lunch,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.It is a very confusing sort of thing that I am always going through.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular and it does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and stayed sitting up until the erection softened and after it did,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have were coming at me from both sides and I was fighting each and every one as it was coming at me.I kept up in prayer to God and kept asking him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me strength to fight and resist each of these terrible temptations.I always felt better after that.I am also still asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read the posts.I am also asking for some words of encouragement to be placed in the comments section at the same time.Please pray for me and please give me some encouragement as them both help keep me going in this fight and struggle against SSA and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group and later on,I will be attending the evening's Christmas Eve church service.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed and my usual 2 cups of coffee alongside that.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.The children put on a Christmas pageant depicting the story of the arrival of Jesus Christ and it was a wonderful performance that they gave.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light lunch.After lunch,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.It is a very confusing sort of thing that I am always going through.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular and it does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and stayed sitting up until the erection softened and after it did,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have were coming at me from both sides and I was fighting each and every one as it was coming at me.I kept up in prayer to God and kept asking him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me strength to fight and resist each of these terrible temptations.I always felt better after that.I am also still asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read the posts.I am also asking for some words of encouragement to be placed in the comments section at the same time.Please pray for me and please give me some encouragement as them both help keep me going in this fight and struggle against SSA and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group and later on,I will be attending the evening's Christmas Eve church service.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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