Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone out there.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day holiday today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed real quickly and I headed over to church for the morning's Christmas service,which I was looking forward to with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The service was terrific.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed from my suit into my casual clothes.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed while listening to some Christmas music and after that,I headed over to my sister's house for dinner.
The dinner was wonderful.After some nice talk with a few of my family members,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a holiday themed DVD into the DVD player.I did watch a few more holiday themed DVD's before the day was through and also,listened to some more Christmas music.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's subsequent emotional roller coaster ride.It is never an easy thing to deal with as my moods and/or emotions very on a day to day basis,or at times,from a minute/moment to minute/moment basis.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with both God and his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in my struggle and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this particular temptation.I sat up for a while and didn't lay back down and back asleep until the erection softened.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted to act out by fantasies and masturbating during the time that I was alone after all the holiday things were over with.But during the time that I was at my sister's house,I wasn't tempted to do anything of that sort and that was good.I enjoyed myself and that was good.It is just that when I am alone,I do get the cravings to act out by fantasies,masturbating to them or for emotional reasons and to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I get tempted to do all of these things throughout the day and believe me,it is never an easy thing to fight or struggle with.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog and again,I ask that you all put encouraging words or two in the comments section.Why?Because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome this terrible SSA.It is just that my blog gets many visitors,but they usually don't leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please continue in prayer for me and also,leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks to all of you in advance for all of your positive words of encouragement and prayers.Thanks also to to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ