Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things planned.Today,the weather snowing and a minor wind was blowing.I had to really be careful driving as I went to Wal-Mart to bring something back that wasn't needed.After getting a refund,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was doing.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still on my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I still never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply bring this struggle to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and put it in their hands and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this struggle or any struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning hours when I masturbated an erection away.I really felt miserable and ashamed of myself for giving into this temptation.I immediately asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for giving into this temptation and asked that God showed his mercy on me as I prayed and I felt better after praying.Throughout the day,I kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and kept asking for strength whenever the temptations came back around.I prayed hard and kept up asking for strength throughout the rest of the day and tried to keep my mind clear of everything immoral and degrading,though this isn't a very easy thing in itself either.I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the blog posts that I write.I am also asking for words of encouragement in the comments section by everyone as well.My blog gets many visitors,but rarely,encouraging comments are left.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me on my blog in the comments section.Don't be shy.Please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Please keep up in prayers for me as well.It is because both your prayers and encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do,too.
Tomorrow,it will be church as usual,including the morning's Holy Bible study class an hour and a half before the worship service.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ