Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed with my usual 2 cups of coffee that I drank during my morning meal.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one thing planned for today.I went over to my sister's house to do my laundry and it was a lot to get done.It took quite a while and when it was finally finished,I bagged everything and headed straight home.
When I got home,I put off folding everything up and decided to go to my room and fix my bed.After doing that,I relaxed and popped a DVD in to watch it.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how I will be from day to day or from minute/moment to minute/moment.It's bed enough having BPD,but I also have schizophrenic tendencies alongside that and that makes my struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I don't have to endure this struggle alone and that is great.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.This was a really overwhelming urge.I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist this temptation as it was really starting to envelope me.I tried tossing and turning,but the erection kept throbbing.I sat up and decided to get out of bed and walked.While I walked,the erection started to soften and when it was fully soft,I went back to bed.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to act out with fantasies and masturbation throughout the day.I kept up in prayer to God and asked him in the name of his son Christ Jesus for strength to fight and resist every temptation and I felt better.I kept it up throughout the day as I didn't want to sin against God and try to stay within his good graces.It is a very difficult thing to resist when one struggles with the terrible condition known as SSA.It is easier to give into the unnatural desires connected with SSA than it is to resist them.I simply kept up in prayer all day to God and I felt better after that.I am also continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows and reads my blog posts.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that when you visit the blog,I would really like an encouraging word or two from you.Both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and they both give me strength.It is just that my blog gets visitors,but the visitors don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I would really love some encouraging words and some loving advice in the comments section.As I said,both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and make me even more determined to overcome it.Please say something that is encouraging to me and will help me.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,if the weather isn't too bad,as my region will be under a "Winter Storm Warning" starting at 4:00pm today and will end tomorrow at 1:00pm,I am hoping to attend my spirituality group and have lunch at a local kitchen.If the weather is really rough,I will simply go home and stay there and watch a DVD or two.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ