Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed immediately as I had a few things planned and I also did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to do some necessary stuff.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I put my home suit on and relaxed.I also watched a DVD while relaxing.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have to deal with schizophrenic tendencies,alongside the BPD and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows me that I don't have to go through this struggle alone and that is very good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I really had to use all of my strength to fight this overwhelming urge.I sat up in bed and wouldn't lay back down until the erection softened,which it did after several minutes.I went back to sleep after that.Though I escaped this episode,I did give into a later temptation after getting out of bed and sitting up in a chair,which was manipulating my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect or to the point of orgasm and stopping.I felt really bad after doing that and I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for doing that unclean and impure thing,which is actually a habit of mine that I would like to give up.There are times when I do that particular thing and it leads to ejaculation.I really would like to stop manipulating my genitals as I know that this is an unclean and impure habit.If anyone out there has had this problem and has succeeded in stopping,please share what has helped you in stopping this habit and what has also worked for you.I am open to anything that can and will help.I would really appreciate some answers and advice.Please share what has worked for you and how it worked.I am also continuing to ask for prayers and for some helpful encouraging words in the comments section from those who follow and read my blog posts.It is just that I get many visitors,but they don't leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Please do so as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this struggle and even more determined to continue in my journey out of SSA and become the man that God intended me to be.Please pray for me and also,please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans for the weekend ahead.FJ