Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,my usual quick breakfast followed and my usual 2 cups of coffee alongside that.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed over to the church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.The children put on a Christmas pageant depicting the story of the arrival of Jesus Christ and it was a wonderful performance that they gave.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my home suit and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I had a light lunch.After lunch,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.It is a very confusing sort of thing that I am always going through.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also still taking my medication as directed.I am also still relying more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.I am not alone in this particular and it does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another throbbing erection.I sat up for a while and stayed sitting up until the erection softened and after it did,I laid back down and went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was still tempted throughout the day as the temptations to act out on these unnatural desires that I have were coming at me from both sides and I was fighting each and every one as it was coming at me.I kept up in prayer to God and kept asking him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me strength to fight and resist each of these terrible temptations.I always felt better after that.I am also still asking for prayers by those who continually follow my blog and read the posts.I am also asking for some words of encouragement to be placed in the comments section at the same time.Please pray for me and please give me some encouragement as them both help keep me going in this fight and struggle against SSA and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance for all of your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Tomorrow,I have my usual building and improving self esteem group and later on,I will be attending the evening's Christmas Eve church service.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ