Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Since I had the day off from work today,I had a few errands to run.I first went to have some lunch at a local pizzeria.After that,I dropped off some money to help a charity drive at my church.After that,I turned in some bottles and cans that I had in the back seat and after that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree and bought a few important things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I need to get something out of me.I need to vent tonight.Why?Because last night,when I checked my e-mail,I received an anonymous message from somebody that didn't have the audacity to leave their name nor their identity.I felt that this was hopefully an encouraging word,but it was a negative personal attack.This anonymous person said that there was no such thing as Bipolar Depression/Disorder and that mental illness is fake and a lie.Fellow blog followers and readers,this anonymous person is the one who is wrong.Mental illness is real and there are people who are living with mental illness all over the world.No matter where you go,there will be people who are mentally ill.I myself am one of these and I know that it is very real.My moods vary day by day.One minute/day,I can be up and feeling good.The next minute/day,down and feeling not so good.I do get depressed and yes,it is a part of the territory of having Bipolar.Aside from Bipolar,I also have Schizophrenia and that makes this even worse.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of Bipolar Depression/Disorder,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia at the same time.At times,I hear voices calling my name and at other times,I hear other things,such as footsteps and whenever I turn around,I see nobody there.I also hear voices talking to me and at times,I am talking to myself like if I am carrying on a conversation with somebody else.This is why I am therapy and I am taking medication daily.The therapy and the medication helps,but it isn't a cure.The anonymous person even said that psychiatry and psychology are pseudo sciences and that those who practice them are liars.The thing is that psychiatry and psychology don't claim to be exact sciences and that all science,no matter what type of science it is,it isn't perfect as humans created science and their opinions do change from time to time.No science is exact and it changes from day to day.I feel that the anonymous person who left me that negative personal attack,which I rejected and didn't have posted in the comments section,is possibly somebody who is also mentally ill,but is living in denial and refuses to accept the hard reality that they are mentally ill.Me,it was a very difficult thing for me to accept,but I had to learn to accept that hard reality and learn how to live with my mental illness diagnosis and live my life as such.It wasn't an easy thing for me to do,but since I have been in therapy and have been taking medication,I have it under control and managing it very well.I am continuing my therapy and continuing my medication treatment.As for that anonymous person,I do feel sorry for them that they possibly live in denial and can't accept the heard reality of their situation.I am hoping that one day,they stop their possible denial and start getting the help and therapy that they need.Fellow blog followers and readers,mental illness is real.Yes it is.People with mental illness are all over.They live and work around others.I work myself and I try to spend as much time as I can with others.I try to blend in and try to fit in the best way that I can.I look for support and positive upbuilding.I look for encouragement and acceptance,which includes affirmation.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to support me by your prayers and your continued positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to support me in both of these areas.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good and busy day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed in work clothes and headed for work.
The work day went well.After work,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a while and showered again.After that,I got dressed and headed for the bank to cash my check and when that was done,I bought a sandwich for dinner at a local Subway.
When I got home,I ate my sandwich and after registering some bills at the Where's George site,I headed for the Celebrate Recovery group,which was also wonderful.After it was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Denny's to have a sundae and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good and busy day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Regarding my struggles,I will talk about them tomorrow as I am really tired tonight.Please continue praying for me and please leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I postponed my shower to do some reduction in my e-mail accounts and after that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After some relaxation and doing my personal PC work,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I did some more personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I only made a couple of trips out today.I first went to get some gas and after that,went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a small thing.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store and bought another small thing there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I headed over to my usual Thursday night Holy Bible study group,which went as wonderful as expected.After it was over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after a few days of sobriety,I gave into temptation again.I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind causing me to fantasize and lust after the images and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out and I did feel better after that as I knew that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems.I have said it before and I will say it again,I need to really get tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I need to also show to my Heavenly Father that I am very serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA,but habitually falling into sin is not the way to show him that.I really need to stop this spiral of sinning habitually and going in repentance to my Heavenly Father.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support right now.I am in a rut in regards to giving into sin habitually and going to my Heavenly Father in repentance and asking to be forgiven,which is something that I really need to stop and nip in the butt permanently.I need your prayers and your positive verbal support in the comments section.Please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of going to work and hopefully,the Celebrate Recovery meeting,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few errands to run.I first went to a photography studio to pick up a picture that was processed at my request.After that,I dropped off a few free newspapers and after that,I did a little bit of shopping at the local Salvation Army thrift store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and listened to a little bit of music.Later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.I again relaxed while listening to some music and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I had no problems with temptations today.No,I didn't.I simply just stayed busy with what I had to do and that took my mind off of the unwholesome sexual stuff that is connected with SSA.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time with all sorts of temptations.Fellow blog followers and readers,I continue to ask that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now and I need all the support,both prayerful and positive verbal,that I can get.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday evening Holy Bible study group,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I read for a while and after finishing that,I got dressed to run an important errand.
I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is.I had no problems with temptation today.I wasn't tempted to act out in any way,shape or form.I went through the day with no problems and that was great.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I feel alone when none of my fellow man who visits doesn't any verbal encouragement to me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section and also,please continue to keep me in your prayers.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I headed for my mechanic's garage to get one of my tires fixed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I had a light lunch.After that,I watched a movie that I popped into the DVD player.When that was over,I headed out to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation for a second consecutive time I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after other men and again,I wound up ejaculating.I really felt miserable after that and after washing my hands,I pleaded to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness and for his mercy upon me.I prayed real hard as I really wanted him to forgive me and be merciful to me.When I was finished,I felt much better and I truly believed and knew that I was forgiven.I really need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to really start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist all of these terrible temptations in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am really serious about wanting to heal and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I really am.I want to heal and I want to overcome this terrible SSA.I can't keep going on this constant and destructive spiral of falling and asking for forgiveness.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.As I said,I need both of these types of support every day and often.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I relaxed for a while.I also did my personal PC work while relaxing.Later on,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after being sober for a while,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the opposite.I need to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I don't want to fall into the trap and habitually sinning and asking for forgiveness after doing so.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle as a result of not getting the positive verbal support that I need alongside the prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ