Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and I relaxed for a while.I also did my personal PC work while relaxing.Later on,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,after being sober for a while,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I wound up ejaculating.After washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.When I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the opposite.I need to work on going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to heal and wanting to overcome this terrible SSA.I don't want to fall into the trap and habitually sinning and asking for forgiveness after doing so.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I don't want to feel alone in this particular struggle as a result of not getting the positive verbal support that I need alongside the prayerful support.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ