Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
Since I had the day off from work today,I had a few errands to run.I first went to have some lunch at a local pizzeria.After that,I dropped off some money to help a charity drive at my church.After that,I turned in some bottles and cans that I had in the back seat and after that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree and bought a few important things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD set that I have and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I need to get something out of me.I need to vent tonight.Why?Because last night,when I checked my e-mail,I received an anonymous message from somebody that didn't have the audacity to leave their name nor their identity.I felt that this was hopefully an encouraging word,but it was a negative personal attack.This anonymous person said that there was no such thing as Bipolar Depression/Disorder and that mental illness is fake and a lie.Fellow blog followers and readers,this anonymous person is the one who is wrong.Mental illness is real and there are people who are living with mental illness all over the world.No matter where you go,there will be people who are mentally ill.I myself am one of these and I know that it is very real.My moods vary day by day.One minute/day,I can be up and feeling good.The next minute/day,down and feeling not so good.I do get depressed and yes,it is a part of the territory of having Bipolar.Aside from Bipolar,I also have Schizophrenia and that makes this even worse.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of Bipolar Depression/Disorder,I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia at the same time.At times,I hear voices calling my name and at other times,I hear other things,such as footsteps and whenever I turn around,I see nobody there.I also hear voices talking to me and at times,I am talking to myself like if I am carrying on a conversation with somebody else.This is why I am therapy and I am taking medication daily.The therapy and the medication helps,but it isn't a cure.The anonymous person even said that psychiatry and psychology are pseudo sciences and that those who practice them are liars.The thing is that psychiatry and psychology don't claim to be exact sciences and that all science,no matter what type of science it is,it isn't perfect as humans created science and their opinions do change from time to time.No science is exact and it changes from day to day.I feel that the anonymous person who left me that negative personal attack,which I rejected and didn't have posted in the comments section,is possibly somebody who is also mentally ill,but is living in denial and refuses to accept the hard reality that they are mentally ill.Me,it was a very difficult thing for me to accept,but I had to learn to accept that hard reality and learn how to live with my mental illness diagnosis and live my life as such.It wasn't an easy thing for me to do,but since I have been in therapy and have been taking medication,I have it under control and managing it very well.I am continuing my therapy and continuing my medication treatment.As for that anonymous person,I do feel sorry for them that they possibly live in denial and can't accept the heard reality of their situation.I am hoping that one day,they stop their possible denial and start getting the help and therapy that they need.Fellow blog followers and readers,mental illness is real.Yes it is.People with mental illness are all over.They live and work around others.I work myself and I try to spend as much time as I can with others.I try to blend in and try to fit in the best way that I can.I look for support and positive upbuilding.I look for encouragement and acceptance,which includes affirmation.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to support me by your prayers and your continued positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to support me in both of these areas.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ