Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local restaurant to have a light lunch and when I was finished,I went to a local supermarket to buy a gallon of milk.After that,I bought a Subway sandwich for dinner.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I sat down to eat my sandwich after putting my milk in the fridge.After eating,I watched a couple of Halloween cartoon DVD's that I didn't get to watch last night due to me getting tired early.I then started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I can report that I am starting to feel a lot better emotionally.For quite a while,I was feeling down in the dumps and I just didn't know whether I was coming or going.I was sad and feeling even more sad as the days went along.Tonight,I am starting to finally feel better.I actually prayed to my Heavenly Father tonight and I unloaded everything onto him.I prayed in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father exactly how I was feeling and that I wanted to feel the opposite of how I was feeling at that time.I left nothing out.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much more at ease emotionally.Though I do feel better,I know that there are still the days ahead and I have to continue drawing closer to my Heavenly Father day after day.I haven't been doing that lately as during the dark days,I didn't communicate with my Heavenly Father as I felt too down and out to talk about anything.Tonight,I finally approached my Heavenly Father and I let it all out.While I was talking to him,my eyes were starting to tear and I felt that an enormous weight had been lifted off of me.I am going to make it my resolve to draw even closer to my Heavenly Father and try to establish a personal relationship with him.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would really some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both types of your support daily and often.Your support is also still very important to me.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance too y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I went to a couple of local stores to pick up some things that I so desperately needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and after that,I relaxed while watching a few Halloween themed DVD's.I then prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I enjoyed some more Halloween themed DVD's while also enjoying some candy that I bought for myself.When they were all done,I did some more personal PC work.As the night was getting darker,I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery is still at a standstill.Why is that?I am still in a very deep and dark emotional place right now.I am feeling depressed and down and I really don't know why.I have been feeling this way for quite some time and I really don't know when I will be snapping out of it.I was feeling really good for a while,but now I am down and feeling not so good emotionally.I feel good physically,but not so good emotionally.Again,I really don't know why,but I am hoping that it lifts pretty soon and I will be back to my old self again.I hate being in this dark place where I am at now.I really hate it.I am just hoping that this lifts soon and I can feel and be myself again.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I really need the support of all of you right now,especially the prayerful support.But again,your positive verbal support also helps as well and is just as important.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee.I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After my breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda.I first went to the bank to withdraw a little money.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered a little bit of the money on Where's George and after that,I headed back out to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After that,I headed to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up one more thing that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare to turn in for the night when I got really sleepy.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Right now,I am still in a very dark place emotionally right now,so I can't share anything in regards to my struggles at this certain time.I am still looking for that much needed right therapeutic method that I need.I need the right therapy to help me let go and transcend from the unresolved issues that I have been trying to get resolved.I really don't know how to go about this.If anyone has any idea,please let me know and share it.I will try anything.All that I ask is that you all continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be both reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished.I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things that I needed.After that,I went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few more things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away in their proper places.After that,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I watched another one.After that was over,I proceeded to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I popped another DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After it was over,I did some more personal PC work.As it was getting late,I proceeded to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.Though right now,it is at a standstill.Last night,I reported that I was in a very dark place as far as my emotions go.I am still in that dark place and I don't know when I am going to get out of it.I have been taking my meds and trying to keep up with my therapy,but I still need more.As I have also previously reported,I still have some unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues that I would like to get resolved.I want to be able to let go and transcend from these issues.I have not been successful at this and I still need more help.I don't know what I am going to do in the meantime,but I am going to continue trying to find a way and the right therapeutic approach.I want to heal and I want to overcome,but I haven't been too successful in my goals.Every time I turn around,I am back at square one having to start all over again.I want to heal.I want to overcome,but I am having terrible difficulties in wanting to do so.I feel like I am stuck in the middle still searching for the right and true way.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your support.Your support really matters and is very important to me.Your support does help in more ways than one.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I washed my hair over the sink and I shaved.After that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a couple of things on my agenda for today.I had to get a few important things that I needed.I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to get a couple of things.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the things that I bought away and I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I headed back out again to a local supermarket to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a cartoon on DVD.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I am again going to hold off on discussing my struggles until I feel ready and up to discussing them.I am in a very dark place right now emotionally and I really can't talk a lot at this juncture.Please try to understand that this deep and dark place I am at right now is just interfering with my train of thought and I just can't talk a lot about my struggles yet.All I ask is that all of you continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need the support of all of you daily and often.Your support is very valuable to me and also,very important.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one important thing on my agenda for today.I had to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.I headed over there so I could be there on time.
The meeting with her went well.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my casual clothes and into a sweatsuit.I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I got dressed back in casual clothes and I headed out to get a take out meal.
When I got home,I ate my take out meal and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I know that for the past several days,I have been holding off talking about my struggles with SSA.Tonight,I want to share with you some things about my other struggle,which I don't talk about very much.It is my struggle with BPD/Schizophrenia.With the stress of the previous week,my emotions have not been the way that I would like them to be.I am back at square one in regards to where I am at.I am now back to saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there,but there is no one there.I am also hallucinating again.I have been hearing loud voices calling my name and when I turn around,there is nobody there.I also hear things like footsteps walking and other various sounds,but when I turn around,nobody and nothing is there.I feel like I am climbing the walls and bordering on hurting myself,though I haven't attempted to do so as of yet.I guess that I still have some of my sanity with me.I don't want to start hurting myself or I might be forced against my will to check into the mental health ward at the local hospital.I have never been in that ward and I don't want to nor do I plan to check in there.I have been looking into seeing how I can acquire a service that will help me let go and transcend from all the unresolved issues that I am currently struggling with.These issues have been holding me back from growing and becoming the man that I am meant and intended to be.They are also holding me back from the healing that I desperately need to help me finally heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please pray that I find the right therapy so I can finally let go and start transcending from these unresolved issues so I can finally discover the real healing that I need to help me heal and overcome.I really do want to heal and overcome and I really need to find the right therapy to finally let go and transcend from these unresolved issues.I want to finally discover and experience real healing.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Please pray that I find that right therapy.I also ask that you continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and when I was finished with that,I popped a movie into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work and after that,I went out to pick up some dinner for me.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for the rest of the evening.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.Right now,I am in a very difficult place as far as my emotions go and I really don't feel like talking very much in regards to where I am at in my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.I am still not feeling any relief right now as a result of the stressful situations that happened within this past week.Please continue to pray for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ