Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only one important thing on my agenda for today.I had to see the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.I headed over there so I could be there on time.
The meeting with her went well.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my casual clothes and into a sweatsuit.I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I got dressed back in casual clothes and I headed out to get a take out meal.
When I got home,I ate my take out meal and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
I know that for the past several days,I have been holding off talking about my struggles with SSA.Tonight,I want to share with you some things about my other struggle,which I don't talk about very much.It is my struggle with BPD/Schizophrenia.With the stress of the previous week,my emotions have not been the way that I would like them to be.I am back at square one in regards to where I am at.I am now back to saying angry things to myself pretending that there are people there,but there is no one there.I am also hallucinating again.I have been hearing loud voices calling my name and when I turn around,there is nobody there.I also hear things like footsteps walking and other various sounds,but when I turn around,nobody and nothing is there.I feel like I am climbing the walls and bordering on hurting myself,though I haven't attempted to do so as of yet.I guess that I still have some of my sanity with me.I don't want to start hurting myself or I might be forced against my will to check into the mental health ward at the local hospital.I have never been in that ward and I don't want to nor do I plan to check in there.I have been looking into seeing how I can acquire a service that will help me let go and transcend from all the unresolved issues that I am currently struggling with.These issues have been holding me back from growing and becoming the man that I am meant and intended to be.They are also holding me back from the healing that I desperately need to help me finally heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please pray that I find the right therapy so I can finally let go and start transcending from these unresolved issues so I can finally discover the real healing that I need to help me heal and overcome.I really do want to heal and overcome and I really need to find the right therapy to finally let go and transcend from these unresolved issues.I want to finally discover and experience real healing.I really want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Please pray that I find that right therapy.I also ask that you continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ