Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
When I went out,I stopped a few yard sales to look around and after that,I headed out to see how a friend of mine was doing.
On the way there,I stopped by a Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a car wash to check and see if they had any cans and bottles to be collected.I found a few and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also,they help keep me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular psychiatric double whammy struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and since I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,I headed for there.My genitals started to soften as I headed for there and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Thought I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men.I kept busy throughout the day to get my mind off of sexual stuff.I was out for much of the day and I kept busy with other pursuits.It kept my mind off of the lusts and the cravings of sexual things and I did feel better as a result.I had a pretty good day just being out in the community and doing things that kept my mind on positive things.While the day went by pretty well,I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follow my blog and read the posts.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I value any positive verbal encouragement.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going.They help me in keeping my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong.They also motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hoped that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and after a few early morning phone calls,I showered quickly and after my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money to pay a bill at a local supermarket.Before the payment was made,I headed back home to register the bills at the Where's George site and after that,I headed back out to pay the bill at a local supermarket.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work while doing so.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure the negative effects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also,they help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I started to get up out of bed and that is what made my genitals start to soften.After staying up for a period of time,I went right back to bed and to sleep once my genitals were fully soft.Though I escaped this particular episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men.I was also tempted to "near masturbate" with them as well.I chose to stay busy throughout the day as I went through the day.I stayed outside and also kept my fingers busy.I also cleaned up a little bit around the house and tried to keep things orderly.This took my mind off of anything sexual with other men.I also even managed to do some praying as well.I prayed to him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help me fight and resist these urges that were coming at me from all sides and after that,I felt much stronger and also,I knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I am also again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read the posts here to please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rare.Please leave me an encouraging word or two.You never know how good both of these can do.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going and also,they strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA and they also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
After a phone call from my job placement counselor,I headed over to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went great.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and also got some free food at the same time.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in keeping me sustained and also,they help keep me on a calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell again into temptation early this morning by masturbating and while it was mostly emotional,there was a little lusting and fantasy involved as well.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I really poured out my soul to them.I felt much better and I went on with the rest of the day.I am really being tempted and the temptations keep coming at me from all sides.I really need to learn some more self control when it comes to this particular area of my SSA struggle.I really also need to be really tough on myself and really work on trying to be stronger than the urges that keep coming at me.I am again asking that all of my fellow followers who continually follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I am still going through a difficult emotional time at the moment and I am still in need of prayers and encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also keep my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong and also,they motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first dropped off my turntable at a friend's place of business and after that,I headed over to the post office to buy a money order so my car insurance could be paid.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I called DirecTV to pay my bill for them.After that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that does make my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father by throwing it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in keep me sustained and also,on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular psychiatric disorder that I have and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks in advance to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made my genitals start to soften.I didn't lay back down and go back to sleep until my genitals were fully soft.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in masturbation,though it was mostly on an emotional level today rather than sexual,though lustful thoughts and sexual fantasies can be a contributor to why I fall into masturbation at some times.I simply turned to my Heavenly Father and I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist the urge to masturbate.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation,though not specifically discussed nor mentioned in the Holy Bible,is still an unclean,dirty and impure habit.Masturbation is usually tied to lusting and fantasies of a sexual nature and it also involves self stimulation without paying the price of committing a sinful act that is connected with anything having to do with sexual matters or activity.Again,I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges to masturbate and after each prayer,I felt much stronger and also,I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I had asked for.I felt stronger and also,more at ease.I am again asking that all of you continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you followers of my blog be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong.They also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected to the terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and before showering,I had a talk with the job placement counselor from the job placement agency to inform him of my placing four more applications online.He also informed me that he will be e-mailing my resume to temp agencies and see where that will lead.After talking with him,I showered quickly.After the shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to finish up my grocery shopping and after that was done,I stopped at a local McDonald's to have myself a vanilla ice cream cone.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I started to do some much needed cleaning up around the house.After that was done,I relaxed for a while before doing some more personal PC work.I also watched a DVD that I put into the DVD player.
After eating,I had to make a quick errand again before settling in for the night.When I got home,I relaxed and did some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way to overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ's name to get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but they also help keep me on a calmer and much more level plain.I feel a little bit better knowing that they are getting me through all of this.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and since I had to use the bathroom,I headed for the bathroom and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though again,minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.I simply kept busy with what I had to get done and I got through the day unscathed for once.I was out of the house for much of the day and being out of the house did help take my mind off of sexual stuff.Though I did get through with nothing to be sorry about,I am still in need of prayers by all of you who follow my blog and read the posts.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and encouraging words desperately.They both help keep me going in this particular struggle and they also help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of paying a coupe of bills,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,before jumping in the shower to clean up,I got the phone call that I expected regarding the job that I was interviewed for Friday and they told me that they didn't the much needed stuff,like contracts and other things,so the job can be started.After that phone call,I called the job placement counselor to share the bad news and he advised me to keep logging onto websites where I can fill applications for employment online and I managed to fill out four applications online today.I also called the guy who called me this morning and I told him that I still want to get started working and I really want to work and he said that it was great and we hung up.After that,I showered and had my quick breakfast alongside my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,though it took me a while,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a couple of things that I had to do.
I first went to the post office to mail something out.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I picked up you another job application from a local restaurant and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought in the refrigerator and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a more calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and it does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed.I walked around for a while and this is what made my genitals get softened.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and to sleep.I was tempted,but minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.This time,I went right to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I did feel better after that and also,I felt much stronger and I truly knew and believed that he gave me what I asked for.Though I did that today and will try to continue it every day,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you followers to please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words do help me in many ways.They both help keep my determination to over this terrible SSA strong.They also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have are connected with the terrible SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did a reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation this morning as well.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I got out of my suit.I did my personal PC work after all of that.When I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.I also caught up on some reading today.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help get me through all the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed and that made my genitals start to soften.I walked around a little bit and when my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.I did get tempted pretty much throughout the day,but to get my mind off of anything sexual,I started to help someone else that I just met that struggles with SSA.I requested that he be added to a group that I am a member of and I advised him that when approved,to introduce himself to the group.I also advised him to share his struggles with the group and to not be afraid to do so.I also advised him to start seeking out friendships with other men who worship with him and to have fellowship with other men before and after the worship service.I am hoping that he uses the advice that I gave him.Okay,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time in my life.I am also asking that all of you who follow my blog to please leave a word of encouragement in the comments section.Your prayers and your verbal encouragement both help me a lot.They both help keep me going in this struggle and they also strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to hear from the person who interviewed me for a job on Friday.I am hoping to hear from him,as he said he would,at 9:00am tomorrow morning.I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ