Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first dropped off my turntable at a friend's place of business and after that,I headed over to the post office to buy a money order so my car insurance could be paid.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station to get some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I called DirecTV to pay my bill for them.After that,I relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that does make my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father by throwing it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in keep me sustained and also,on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular psychiatric disorder that I have and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks in advance to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made my genitals start to soften.I didn't lay back down and go back to sleep until my genitals were fully soft.Though I did escape this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in masturbation,though it was mostly on an emotional level today rather than sexual,though lustful thoughts and sexual fantasies can be a contributor to why I fall into masturbation at some times.I simply turned to my Heavenly Father and I asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist the urge to masturbate.I have to continually keep in mind that masturbation,though not specifically discussed nor mentioned in the Holy Bible,is still an unclean,dirty and impure habit.Masturbation is usually tied to lusting and fantasies of a sexual nature and it also involves self stimulation without paying the price of committing a sinful act that is connected with anything having to do with sexual matters or activity.Again,I asked my Heavenly Father to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges to masturbate and after each prayer,I felt much stronger and also,I truly knew and believed that my Heavenly Father gave me what I had asked for.I felt stronger and also,more at ease.I am again asking that all of you continue in prayer for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that none of you followers of my blog be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need both your prayers and your encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong.They also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected to the terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and lunch at a local kitchen afterwards,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ