Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
After a phone call from my job placement counselor,I headed over to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went great.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and also got some free food at the same time.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to get me through all the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in keeping me sustained and also,they help keep me on a calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I fell again into temptation early this morning by masturbating and while it was mostly emotional,there was a little lusting and fantasy involved as well.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I really poured out my soul to them.I felt much better and I went on with the rest of the day.I am really being tempted and the temptations keep coming at me from all sides.I really need to learn some more self control when it comes to this particular area of my SSA struggle.I really also need to be really tough on myself and really work on trying to be stronger than the urges that keep coming at me.I am again asking that all of my fellow followers who continually follow my blog and read the posts to please continue praying for me and also,please don't be shy and leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I am still going through a difficult emotional time at the moment and I am still in need of prayers and encouraging words.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also keep my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong and also,they motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ