Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
When I went out,I stopped a few yard sales to look around and after that,I headed out to see how a friend of mine was doing.
On the way there,I stopped by a Salvation Army thrift store and bought a few things.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a car wash to check and see if they had any cans and bottles to be collected.I found a few and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate by the day,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply throw this particular struggle on my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me endure through the negative affects of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but also,they help keep me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this particular psychiatric double whammy struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and since I sensed that I had to use the bathroom,I headed for there.My genitals started to soften as I headed for there and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Thought I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies with other men.I kept busy throughout the day to get my mind off of sexual stuff.I was out for much of the day and I kept busy with other pursuits.It kept my mind off of the lusts and the cravings of sexual things and I did feel better as a result.I had a pretty good day just being out in the community and doing things that kept my mind on positive things.While the day went by pretty well,I am again asking for prayers by everyone who follow my blog and read the posts.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I value any positive verbal encouragement.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going.They help me in keeping my determination to overcome this terrible SSA strong.They also motivate me to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hoped that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ