Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and headed for church for both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.I also did a reading from the Holy Bible in front of the congregation this morning as well.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I got out of my suit.I did my personal PC work after all of that.When I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.I also caught up on some reading today.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and I ask him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to help get me through all the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed and that made my genitals start to soften.I walked around a little bit and when my genitals were fully soft,I went right back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.I did get tempted pretty much throughout the day,but to get my mind off of anything sexual,I started to help someone else that I just met that struggles with SSA.I requested that he be added to a group that I am a member of and I advised him that when approved,to introduce himself to the group.I also advised him to share his struggles with the group and to not be afraid to do so.I also advised him to start seeking out friendships with other men who worship with him and to have fellowship with other men before and after the worship service.I am hoping that he uses the advice that I gave him.Okay,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time in my life.I am also asking that all of you who follow my blog to please leave a word of encouragement in the comments section.Your prayers and your verbal encouragement both help me a lot.They both help keep me going in this struggle and they also strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also help motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,I am hoping to hear from the person who interviewed me for a job on Friday.I am hoping to hear from him,as he said he would,at 9:00am tomorrow morning.I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ