Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and before showering,I had a talk with the job placement counselor from the job placement agency to inform him of my placing four more applications online.He also informed me that he will be e-mailing my resume to temp agencies and see where that will lead.After talking with him,I showered quickly.After the shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to finish up my grocery shopping and after that was done,I stopped at a local McDonald's to have myself a vanilla ice cream cone.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I started to do some much needed cleaning up around the house.After that was done,I relaxed for a while before doing some more personal PC work.I also watched a DVD that I put into the DVD player.
After eating,I had to make a quick errand again before settling in for the night.When I got home,I relaxed and did some last minute personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way to overwhelming for me to handle.I simply take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ's name to get me through the negative affects of this psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with.They both help in not only sustaining me,but they also help keep me on a calmer and much more level plain.I feel a little bit better knowing that they are getting me through all of this.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and since I had to use the bathroom,I headed for the bathroom and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft.I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted,though again,minimally,to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.I simply kept busy with what I had to get done and I got through the day unscathed for once.I was out of the house for much of the day and being out of the house did help take my mind off of sexual stuff.Though I did get through with nothing to be sorry about,I am still in need of prayers by all of you who follow my blog and read the posts.Please continue in prayer for me.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both prayers and encouraging words desperately.They both help keep me going in this particular struggle and they also help strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and for your positive encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of paying a coupe of bills,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ