Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,before jumping in the shower to clean up,I got the phone call that I expected regarding the job that I was interviewed for Friday and they told me that they didn't the much needed stuff,like contracts and other things,so the job can be started.After that phone call,I called the job placement counselor to share the bad news and he advised me to keep logging onto websites where I can fill applications for employment online and I managed to fill out four applications online today.I also called the guy who called me this morning and I told him that I still want to get started working and I really want to work and he said that it was great and we hung up.After that,I showered and had my quick breakfast alongside my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,though it took me a while,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed as I had a couple of things that I had to do.
I first went to the post office to mail something out.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I picked up you another job application from a local restaurant and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I had bought in the refrigerator and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negatives of this particular psychiatric double whammy that I struggle with and they both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a more calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and it does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by an erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed.I walked around for a while and this is what made my genitals get softened.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and to sleep.I was tempted,but minimally,throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.This time,I went right to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him,in the name of his son Jesus Christ,to give me the strength to fight and resist these urges as they were coming at me from all sides.I did feel better after that and also,I felt much stronger and I truly knew and believed that he gave me what I asked for.Though I did that today and will try to continue it every day,I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that all of you followers to please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words do help me in many ways.They both help keep my determination to over this terrible SSA strong.They also motivate me to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have are connected with the terrible SSA condition.Thanks in advance to all of you for all of your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ