Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my coffee.I did my personal PC work and later on,I got dressed,washed my hair and shaved.I then headed out to run a few errands.After they were done,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and had a light evening meal.I did some more personal PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement as I was very tired.A pretty fair day overall.

I will share more stuff hopefully after the weekend.I still need prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section.My only thing tomorrow is church in the morning.Thanks to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.

Today,i woke up in the early to mid morning and I had my usual coffee.After that,I did my personal PC work and after that,I showered and shaved.After that,I got dressed and paid a bill that needed to be paid.After that,I went home to pick up a few things and I headed back out.

Since it was Black Friday today,I went thrift shop hopping and bought a pair of second hand jeans.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and did more personal PC work.I also went back out to get something to eat.I headed for home.

When I got home,I ate what I bought for dinner and also had a few snacks.I did some more personal PC work and when I was getting sleepy,I retired for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

I will post more about my struggles soon.All I ask is that y'all continue praying for me and also,leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section in the forms of encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding.FJ

Happy Thanksgiving to all of my readers who are living in the USA.

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues onward.

Today,I woke up in the morning and had my coffee and I did my personal PC work.I later showered and did some vacuuming in the house.

Later on,in the early afternoon,I went over to my nephew's house for a wonderful dinner and after that,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple of things.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did some more personal PC work.Later on,I retired for the evening as I was really tired.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

I will post more about my struggles after the holiday.The only thing that I ask is that you all continue praying for me and continue to leave me some encouraging words and spiritually upbuilding posts.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

As for the rest of the holiday weekend,I have no plans,but I hope that it all goes well for me.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a work day,which went okay.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and took it easy while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to get a few things at the local Super Wal-Mart and a small thing at a local Dollar Tree.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I relaxed and had my evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I later prepared to retire for the evening.a very good day overall.

I will post some more things after the Thanksgiving holiday.I will report about how the holiday went for me tomorrow and hopefully by Friday,I will post more.

Please continue praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be words of encouragement and spiritual upbuilding.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a work day and it went okay.After it was over,I headed for home and relaxed for a bit while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things for dinner and after that,I went to a local Dollar Tree to pick up one more thing before heading back home.

When I got home,I showered and cleaned the bathtub.I then had my evening meal and I did a little vacuuming.I also did some more personal PC work,which included some recommended Holy Bible reading.I later prepared for my evening retirement.A very good day overall.

In my last blog posts,I talked about being sexually abused in both physical and verbal senses.It wasn't grand nor pretty being sexually abused in any of these cases.As I said,sexual abuse can be the ultimate brainwash and make people think differently about themselves,especially if they've been abused in a Homosexual/Gay way by another man,such as myself.As i also said,I'm still recovery and I don't know if I'll ever fully recover,but only time will tell.

I will now talk about spiritual abuse.Yes,I too was abused in a spiritual sense.First,my father who claimed to be "Christian" physically and emotionally abused me.He also forcefully tried to indoctrinate me into believing his agenda.The thing is that I didn't believe in this sort of thing that he believed in.At that time,I was still a child and didn't really have a set or system of beliefs at that time.Though my mother rescued me,it was already too late as the damage was already done and I suffered a lot more abuse when I was rejected by my fellow peers and wasn't accepted.Then,when I was in my early 20's,I endured more spiritual abuse at the hands of the religious cult that I followed for two brief years.They too forcefully tried to indoctrinate me.Though I was enthusiastic and zealous for what I was learning from them,it all died when I was the victim of lies and other things,especially when someone poked their nose in my business in regards to things that I wrote in notebooks that I had written in and was the victim of false accusations and misunderstandings.Though I pleaded my innocence and tried to tell them that it wasn't what they thought,my pleas fell on death ears and that drove me away.I haven't followed them for twenty-three years,though I did almost rejoin nearly eight years later,I changed my mind when I heard about them hiding and protecting child molesters from authorities and doing nothing to protect their victims.This really angered me as how can they tell me that sexual activity out of wedlock is wrong,but condone pedophilia.Plus,since I too was the victim of a pedophile at three separate intervals of my life,this only made me even more angry.Thank goodness that I no longer follow any cults and have now found a wonderful Christian spiritual home.I made that a lesson learning experience about jumping on bandwagons without doing research first.I also now help other victims of that particular cult and it does make me feel a little good.

I still need prayers by every one of you.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to post something encouraging and spiritually upbuilding in the comments section.Thanks to y'all and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it goes well.After that,a four day holiday weekend that I will so truly need after some hectic days over the last few weeks.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I went to work and the work day went pretty well.After it was over,I headed straight home and I took my grand-niece to work.After that,I did a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and bought a small thing at a local Dollar Tree.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I did some dishes and cleaned up a little bit.I did my personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and ate a light evening meal.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

In the last two posts,I shared that I was sexually abused by other guys,both physically and verbally.I was used and abused by other guys for their own pleasure and I endured a lot of verbal abuse by being inundated by repeated sexual innuendos by other guys.I was also harassed by many guys when they kept repeatedly bothered me to have sex with members of the opposite gender,but refused due to the teachings of a religious cult,which is what I will discuss here right now.

When I was in my early 20's,I jumped on the bandwagon of a religious cult.I abandoned my previous church affiliation to do so as per their requirement.I was planning to make this a lifelong commitment,but I dropped out after only two brief years.At first,I was love bombed by many in the cult,but after that first year passed,it all stopped.I became the victim of lies when a few young ladies made up stories about me to their elders and though I proclaimed my innocence repeatedly,they took the young ladies words over mine.I was also the victim of relentless criticisms by my last study conductor and that made me feel worse.He lambasted me repeatedly.When I appealed to him to lay off of me and let me work on one thing at a time,he simply refused to do so.He also saw notebooks of things that I wrote and he even severely criticized me for that as well.He was always on my case and never laid off.He didn't care whether he was hurting my feelings by his relentless criticisms of me.They taught me that sex out of wedlock was wrong and sinful,but eight years after drooping out,I learned that they condone pedophilia.They simply hide and protect the child predators and do little if nothing top help their victims.They also forbid their followers to get the proper authorities involved and to leave them handle it and put it "in the Lord's hands". The thing is that this made me angry because I too am a victim of child sex abuse in my own right and I know the pain and the hurt that goes with being abused in that way.How can they teach that sex is strictly for married people,but condone the evil of pedophilia?This really made me angry.I too am a victim of child sex abuse and I know the pain that goes with it.I also know the hurt that goes with it.I am still in healing from it and I am hoping to fully recover.

I still need prayerful support from y'all.I also still need some positive verbal support from y'all.I need both encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it all goes well.FJ

Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today was a day to go to church.I went to church and both the Holy Bible study class and the worship service were wonderful.Though they were,we did have a couple of men who had to be taken to the hospital,which was the only setback.After some wonderful fellowship,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I did some much needed cleaning work in the house and when that was finished,I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was finished,I went out to a local Denny's for lunch and did some shopping at a few stores.I headed straight home when I was done.

When I got home,I did some more cleaning up and I ate my evening meal.I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed for the rest of the evening and did some more PC work before preparing to retire for the evening.A wonderful and eventful day overall.

In my last post,I shared that I was sexually abused by other guys,including a rape episode that happened to me when I was 16 years old.This was sexual abuse in a physical and psychological sense.It messed me up and confused me as to what it was.To put it a better way,I was brainwashed by the sexual abuse and that is where the confusion and messing me up was instigated.I learned the hard way that sexual abuse can be the ultimate brainwash as it can make you think and feel some thing(s) that isn't/aren't legit.It made me think that I was "Homosexual/Gay" and that is what my purpose in the world was,but I later learned that it was wrong and that the acts themselves were wrong.Good thing I woke up and started to distance myself from that terrible and destructive life before I wound up with something that I wouldn't want.

Now,I want to share another type of sexual abuse that I endured.It was verbal sexual abuse.I was called very sexist type names when I was growing up.Most of these was when I wouldn't give people what they wanted in a sexual sense.No,it wasn't refusing to give them sexual favors,but there were a few of those that did happen.I was called names like "faggot", "Homo", "dickhead",(reference to oral sex), "fag whore", "fag slut" and "male bitch" as a result of my refusal to fool around with sexual stuff when I was studying the bible with a religious group that turned out to be nothing more than a cult.They taught me man-made doctrines and twisted Holy Bible scripture around to emotionally manipulate and brainwash me into believing that they were "THE only true Christian congregation/organization on Earth." I suffered verbal sexual abuse repeatedly during my life growing up and into adulthood and I never heard the end of it.At one time,I was disowned by a friend all because I refused to indulge in sinful activity with a prostitute,although this so called "Friend" was footing the bill.This only made this worse as the name calling continued and that I was rejected as a result of this guy not getting what he wanted from me.These things still plague my mentality and I would like for that not to anymore.I don't know how to go about stopping these things from plaguing my mind.If anyone can offer any advice,please share in the comments section.I also still need both prayerful and positive verbal support as well.Thanks to all of you and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of another work week.I hope that the day goes well.FJ