Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I went to work and the work day went pretty well.After it was over,I headed straight home and I took my grand-niece to work.After that,I did a little bit of shopping at the local Super Wal-Mart and bought a small thing at a local Dollar Tree.I headed straight home after that.

When I got home,I did some dishes and cleaned up a little bit.I did my personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and ate a light evening meal.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I later retired for the evening.A very good day overall.

In the last two posts,I shared that I was sexually abused by other guys,both physically and verbally.I was used and abused by other guys for their own pleasure and I endured a lot of verbal abuse by being inundated by repeated sexual innuendos by other guys.I was also harassed by many guys when they kept repeatedly bothered me to have sex with members of the opposite gender,but refused due to the teachings of a religious cult,which is what I will discuss here right now.

When I was in my early 20's,I jumped on the bandwagon of a religious cult.I abandoned my previous church affiliation to do so as per their requirement.I was planning to make this a lifelong commitment,but I dropped out after only two brief years.At first,I was love bombed by many in the cult,but after that first year passed,it all stopped.I became the victim of lies when a few young ladies made up stories about me to their elders and though I proclaimed my innocence repeatedly,they took the young ladies words over mine.I was also the victim of relentless criticisms by my last study conductor and that made me feel worse.He lambasted me repeatedly.When I appealed to him to lay off of me and let me work on one thing at a time,he simply refused to do so.He also saw notebooks of things that I wrote and he even severely criticized me for that as well.He was always on my case and never laid off.He didn't care whether he was hurting my feelings by his relentless criticisms of me.They taught me that sex out of wedlock was wrong and sinful,but eight years after drooping out,I learned that they condone pedophilia.They simply hide and protect the child predators and do little if nothing top help their victims.They also forbid their followers to get the proper authorities involved and to leave them handle it and put it "in the Lord's hands". The thing is that this made me angry because I too am a victim of child sex abuse in my own right and I know the pain and the hurt that goes with being abused in that way.How can they teach that sex is strictly for married people,but condone the evil of pedophilia?This really made me angry.I too am a victim of child sex abuse and I know the pain that goes with it.I also know the hurt that goes with it.I am still in healing from it and I am hoping to fully recover.

I still need prayerful support from y'all.I also still need some positive verbal support from y'all.I need both encouraging words and spiritual upbuilding.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is a work day and I hope that it all goes well.FJ