Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today is Satrurday.I really didn't have too much to do.After getting out of bed,I had a light breakfast and I did my personal PC work.This time,I didn't have too much PC work to do.It only took me an 1/2 hour to get it done.After finishing,I browsed the internet for a while looking at some videos on YouTube and visiting Wikipedia and Muppet Wiki.I closed off the internet and had a light lunch.
I had only one small errand to run.It was to get a couple of things that my mom needed.After purchasing them,I stopped at the local Salvation Army thrift shop in the area before heading straight home.
When I got home,I browsed the internet for a while and I bathed afterwards while mom prepared dinner.It was a light dinner and I bathed quickly so I could be out when it was ready.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I had a few e-mails and I posted a message to a Yahoo group that I am a member of.I just wanted to get the message in before the end of the month.It is now in the group archive and I am glad to have gotten it in.I am hoping for some wonderful feedback from the other men in the forum.
Tonight,I am going to be entertaining the crowd.I am hoping for a wonderful evening.I will also be out with a friend celeebrating his birthday.I am hoping for a blast.Though the nights are usually pretty good,I always hope for a wonderful evening as you never know what might happen.I do have the feeling that everything will work out tonight.Still,I hope.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode early this morning while still in bed.I had a craving to manipulate my sexuality while in bed and the images of a sexual liaison with another man.It is a sexual affair that happened previously.It just repeated itself.Fortunately,I was able to stop it.I simply prayed hard about it and the images faded and I was able to rest for another hour before getting up to start the day.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the rest of the weekend.FJ
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and when I was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I dropped off some stuff of mine and I headed back out again to withdraw some money from the bank for my mom and myself as well as cash my paycheck.I also had to hurry because I had to get this money home.After the transactions were finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills from my paycheck at the Where's George site and did some personal PC work while waiting for dinner to get done.
After eating,I registered some more of the bills at the Where's George site and did some more personal PC work.I am still not finished registering the bills.I am going to register the rest of the bills tomorrow.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.Not only that,a friend of mine is celebrating a birthday tomorrow night.I am looking forward to celebrating with him and I am hoping that the night is a blast.I am also hoping that my friend enjoys his birthday tomorrow night.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a couple of brief episodes today.The first episode happened while I was doing my personal PC work this morning when images of me and another guy crept up into my mentality and I immediately got off the internet and shut the computer down.The ultimate irony is that I wasn't even watching any pornography online nor was I tempted to visit any sites.But I felt that temptation would rear it's ugly head if I didn't get off the computer and so,I closed off the internet and shut the computer down.The second episode happened while I was on the job.I was waiting for loads of laundry to get dried when the same images from this morning reemerged.It was something from my past when I was engaging in a sexual liaison with another guy.On both occasions,I prayed really hard to have the images removed.I repeated to the creator to help me remove these immoral images from my mentality and after repeating that,I felt better because they faded.I even asked that the creator forgive me on both occasions.I am feeling better now and I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.It is scary when something like that creeps up into your mentality when you least expect it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the time that I had and when I was finished,I bagged everything and I dropped it off at the rehab center.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I dropped off some stuff of mine and I headed back out again to withdraw some money from the bank for my mom and myself as well as cash my paycheck.I also had to hurry because I had to get this money home.After the transactions were finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I registered the bills from my paycheck at the Where's George site and did some personal PC work while waiting for dinner to get done.
After eating,I registered some more of the bills at the Where's George site and did some more personal PC work.I am still not finished registering the bills.I am going to register the rest of the bills tomorrow.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am looking forward to entertaining the crowd tomorrow night.Not only that,a friend of mine is celebrating a birthday tomorrow night.I am looking forward to celebrating with him and I am hoping that the night is a blast.I am also hoping that my friend enjoys his birthday tomorrow night.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a couple of brief episodes today.The first episode happened while I was doing my personal PC work this morning when images of me and another guy crept up into my mentality and I immediately got off the internet and shut the computer down.The ultimate irony is that I wasn't even watching any pornography online nor was I tempted to visit any sites.But I felt that temptation would rear it's ugly head if I didn't get off the computer and so,I closed off the internet and shut the computer down.The second episode happened while I was on the job.I was waiting for loads of laundry to get dried when the same images from this morning reemerged.It was something from my past when I was engaging in a sexual liaison with another guy.On both occasions,I prayed really hard to have the images removed.I repeated to the creator to help me remove these immoral images from my mentality and after repeating that,I felt better because they faded.I even asked that the creator forgive me on both occasions.I am feeling better now and I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.It is scary when something like that creeps up into your mentality when you least expect it.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the new weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and after I was finished,I dropped everything off at the rehab center and headed straight home.
When I got home,I watched a little bit of TV and I laid down on my bed for over 1/2 an hour.After taking in the mail,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money.
After getting home and registering the bill that I withdrew,I tried to finish my personal PC work but I had an issue.The internet browser that I was using was constantly rebooting itself and I restarted my computer while I was eating.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work after it was finished restarting.Despite the issues,I managed to get it done.It was great to have finally gotten it done.I am going to do some browsing on the internet before turning in for the night.
Right now,weatherwise,it is raining.It isn't raining too hard.We started having a light rain shower but it turned heavy after a while.I am staying in for the night because there is no place to go when it is raining.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I have had no images nor cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and after I was finished,I dropped everything off at the rehab center and headed straight home.
When I got home,I watched a little bit of TV and I laid down on my bed for over 1/2 an hour.After taking in the mail,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money.
After getting home and registering the bill that I withdrew,I tried to finish my personal PC work but I had an issue.The internet browser that I was using was constantly rebooting itself and I restarted my computer while I was eating.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work after it was finished restarting.Despite the issues,I managed to get it done.It was great to have finally gotten it done.I am going to do some browsing on the internet before turning in for the night.
Right now,weatherwise,it is raining.It isn't raining too hard.We started having a light rain shower but it turned heavy after a while.I am staying in for the night because there is no place to go when it is raining.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I have had no images nor cravings creeping up into my mentality.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and I wound up taking only a little bit.I sorted out the laundry after I ate lunch and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Dairy Queen and bought an ice cream sandwich for a snack.I even ran into an old schoolmate of mine there and said hello.After finishing my snack,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I waited for my mom to get ready so we could go grocery shopping.
The grocery shopping went great.We managed to find everything that we were looking for with no problems.After the groceries were paid for,we headed straight home.We also wanted to get home because there was the possibility of a thunderstorm coming and we wanted to get the groceries home before it hit.Fortunately,the storm bypassed us but there is still the high possibility of rain tonight.My mom and I both relaxed for a while after we got home.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and also browsed the internet by visiting some pages for my own personal research.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no cravings or images creeping up into my mentality.I feel great as a result.I am also still hoping that the state of New York will uphold the traditional marriage bill and reject the Same-Sex Marriage bill.I even signed a few petitions online to urge my senators to keep marriage between a man and a woman.Why?Because there are no substitutes.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There were no messes to clean up and I wound up taking only a little bit.I sorted out the laundry after I ate lunch and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby Dairy Queen and bought an ice cream sandwich for a snack.I even ran into an old schoolmate of mine there and said hello.After finishing my snack,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I waited for my mom to get ready so we could go grocery shopping.
The grocery shopping went great.We managed to find everything that we were looking for with no problems.After the groceries were paid for,we headed straight home.We also wanted to get home because there was the possibility of a thunderstorm coming and we wanted to get the groceries home before it hit.Fortunately,the storm bypassed us but there is still the high possibility of rain tonight.My mom and I both relaxed for a while after we got home.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work and also browsed the internet by visiting some pages for my own personal research.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no cravings or images creeping up into my mentality.I feel great as a result.I am also still hoping that the state of New York will uphold the traditional marriage bill and reject the Same-Sex Marriage bill.I even signed a few petitions online to urge my senators to keep marriage between a man and a woman.Why?Because there are no substitutes.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and when I was finished,I dropped off the clean laundry and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a few places that I needed to go.Firstly,I dropped off a newspaper at a couple of houses and while doing that,I stopped at the same dude's house that I had yesterday to talk with him again.It was yet another great conversation and I felt pretty good to have talked with him.The conversation only lasted a few minutes.It probably would have lasted longer but it was starting to rain and I had to head back out.On the way to drop off the second newspaper,I stopped for some gas.I headed straight home after dropping off the paper.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I also took a nap for a little over 1/2 an hour.After I woke up,I started to finish my personal PC work.Before I did,I was having some issues with the internet browser and I restarted the computer while I sat down to eat.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work after the computer was finished restarting.It was a lot but I got it done.
I did go back out to run a couple of errands.My mom needed me to buy some coffee and a box of hot cereal.I also stopped at the nearby Salvation Army thrift shop and I bought a couple of things.I also had to hurry because they were getting ready to close.I headed straight home after that.
I am now relaxing and getting ready for the new day.Overall,today was a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping into my mentality today.This is great that I didn't have anything to deal with regarding SSA.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.I also have to take my mom grocery shopping tomorrow to get some more groceries in the house.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work day went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the amount of time that I had and when I was finished,I dropped off the clean laundry and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a few places that I needed to go.Firstly,I dropped off a newspaper at a couple of houses and while doing that,I stopped at the same dude's house that I had yesterday to talk with him again.It was yet another great conversation and I felt pretty good to have talked with him.The conversation only lasted a few minutes.It probably would have lasted longer but it was starting to rain and I had to head back out.On the way to drop off the second newspaper,I stopped for some gas.I headed straight home after dropping off the paper.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and took it easy.I also took a nap for a little over 1/2 an hour.After I woke up,I started to finish my personal PC work.Before I did,I was having some issues with the internet browser and I restarted the computer while I sat down to eat.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work after the computer was finished restarting.It was a lot but I got it done.
I did go back out to run a couple of errands.My mom needed me to buy some coffee and a box of hot cereal.I also stopped at the nearby Salvation Army thrift shop and I bought a couple of things.I also had to hurry because they were getting ready to close.I headed straight home after that.
I am now relaxing and getting ready for the new day.Overall,today was a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping into my mentality today.This is great that I didn't have anything to deal with regarding SSA.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow unscathed.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes smoothly.I also have to take my mom grocery shopping tomorrow to get some more groceries in the house.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, May 25, 2009
Happy Memorial Day,Everybody.
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
As stated,today is Memorial Day.A day to remember those who gave their lives to make sure that we have freedom.For me,I also use the day to remember those who were close to me who are no longer alive.I was actually remembering my grandfather today.He died when I was 6 years old.
Today,I went back to the community carnival and there were a lot more people there today then there were yesterday.I stopped there to get something to eat.After I ate the food that I got,I headed back out to a couple of stores to pick up a few more things that my mom needed.It was pretty easy finding what she needed and I was glad to be out in the community.I even stopped to talk with someone that I knew as he was busy painting his porch railings.He told me that he lost his job and that he was looking for another one.I wished him the best of success in his job search and I headed straight home.At the same time,I felt bad for him because he is out of work and I still have my job.Still,I meant it when I wished him the best of success in finding another job.I really hope that he does find a job and that he can find joy in working again.It was a pleasant conversation.
After I got home,I watched a little bit of a movie on a DVD that I have and I made my bed.I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get done after making my bed.
After eating,I did some last minute personal PC work and I also did some internet browsing.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today,I didn't have no cravings nor did any images creep up into my mentality.I guess that by keeping myself occupied,I kept my mind off of sexual images of men.Still,I need to focus on forming healthy relationships with other guys.I did give another guy my phone number and I am hoping to hear from him soon.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
As stated,today is Memorial Day.A day to remember those who gave their lives to make sure that we have freedom.For me,I also use the day to remember those who were close to me who are no longer alive.I was actually remembering my grandfather today.He died when I was 6 years old.
Today,I went back to the community carnival and there were a lot more people there today then there were yesterday.I stopped there to get something to eat.After I ate the food that I got,I headed back out to a couple of stores to pick up a few more things that my mom needed.It was pretty easy finding what she needed and I was glad to be out in the community.I even stopped to talk with someone that I knew as he was busy painting his porch railings.He told me that he lost his job and that he was looking for another one.I wished him the best of success in his job search and I headed straight home.At the same time,I felt bad for him because he is out of work and I still have my job.Still,I meant it when I wished him the best of success in finding another job.I really hope that he does find a job and that he can find joy in working again.It was a pleasant conversation.
After I got home,I watched a little bit of a movie on a DVD that I have and I made my bed.I relaxed for a bit while waiting for dinner to get done after making my bed.
After eating,I did some last minute personal PC work and I also did some internet browsing.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems today,I didn't have no cravings nor did any images creep up into my mentality.I guess that by keeping myself occupied,I kept my mind off of sexual images of men.Still,I need to focus on forming healthy relationships with other guys.I did give another guy my phone number and I am hoping to hear from him soon.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling really good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was a great day to be out in the community.The city that I live in was having a carnival and I decided to go and check it out.After finishing my personal PC work,which included listening to another wonderful radio sermon online,I got cleaned up and dressed and I headed over there.
When I got there,I had a little lunch.I bought a slice of pizza,a bottle of water and a small serving of cheese fries.I even found a picnic table nearby so I could finish my food without walking around with it.I even had a talk with a guy who came to join me.It was wonderful to be out in the community and just be around others.Plus,the weather was nice and sunny with only a light breeze.I am going to go back there tomorrow and have lunch there again.Tomorrow,which will be Memorial Day,will be the last day for the community carnival.The weather tomorrow is also supposed to be nice and sunny.I hope that it will just as wonderful as it was today.
I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed to round out the day.I was also fortunate to find everything that she had asked me to get.After paying for the items,I headed for home.I only made one more stop along the way and that was to get some gas in my gas tank.
When I got home,I waited for dinner to get done and while I was doing that,I browsed the internet and I watched some classic Sesame Street clips over on YouTube.I also watched a few other varied videos that were on there.
After eating a light dinner,I watched 60 Minutes.After doing that,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.While I was typing this,the phone rang and it was a friend of mine from out of town.It was a brief but great conversation.We talked for about a few minutes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another aweome night.I also had a friend who came to join me and that even made it even more wonderful.I had a blast entertaining the crowd and I got some positive responses from the crowd.It was really neat and I am looking forward to next week.I am even thinking of going out to have a drink or two with the gang over at the place where I entertain and I am also hoping for some great talks with the gang there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have no problems to report.I did not have any images nor cravings creeping up into my mentality today.I guess that just being out in the community today was what took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I feel great as a result.I am hoping to get through the new week unscathed.
Tomorrow is Memorial Day.I hope that the day turns out wonderful.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
Today was a great day to be out in the community.The city that I live in was having a carnival and I decided to go and check it out.After finishing my personal PC work,which included listening to another wonderful radio sermon online,I got cleaned up and dressed and I headed over there.
When I got there,I had a little lunch.I bought a slice of pizza,a bottle of water and a small serving of cheese fries.I even found a picnic table nearby so I could finish my food without walking around with it.I even had a talk with a guy who came to join me.It was wonderful to be out in the community and just be around others.Plus,the weather was nice and sunny with only a light breeze.I am going to go back there tomorrow and have lunch there again.Tomorrow,which will be Memorial Day,will be the last day for the community carnival.The weather tomorrow is also supposed to be nice and sunny.I hope that it will just as wonderful as it was today.
I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed to round out the day.I was also fortunate to find everything that she had asked me to get.After paying for the items,I headed for home.I only made one more stop along the way and that was to get some gas in my gas tank.
When I got home,I waited for dinner to get done and while I was doing that,I browsed the internet and I watched some classic Sesame Street clips over on YouTube.I also watched a few other varied videos that were on there.
After eating a light dinner,I watched 60 Minutes.After doing that,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.While I was typing this,the phone rang and it was a friend of mine from out of town.It was a brief but great conversation.We talked for about a few minutes.Overall,a pretty good day.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was yet another aweome night.I also had a friend who came to join me and that even made it even more wonderful.I had a blast entertaining the crowd and I got some positive responses from the crowd.It was really neat and I am looking forward to next week.I am even thinking of going out to have a drink or two with the gang over at the place where I entertain and I am also hoping for some great talks with the gang there.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have no problems to report.I did not have any images nor cravings creeping up into my mentality today.I guess that just being out in the community today was what took my mind off of anything sexual with men.I feel great as a result.I am hoping to get through the new week unscathed.
Tomorrow is Memorial Day.I hope that the day turns out wonderful.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
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