Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
I really didn't have too much to do today.I simply started the day off by doing my personal PC work and eating breakfast.Despite an issue with the internet browser,I managed to get my work done.I simply closed the browser and restarted the computer so I could increase the speed.It worked and I got the work that I needed to get done accomplished.
I only ran a couple of errands today.I went and got some gas in my tank and I also turned in some bottles that had accumulated in the backseat of my 4x4.I got a little over a couple of bucks but it was great to finally get them to the store and also help the environment a little.
When I got home,I took a bath while mom heated up some homemade soup for dinner.I also did some more personal PC work before even taking my bath,including registering a few more bills at the Where's George site.I am going out tonight and I wanted to be sure that I was cleaned up before anything else.I am going to be doing my usual singing tonight and I am hoping that the evening goes well.Though I rarely have a bad night,I still hope for things to go well.
After eating,I did some more last minute personal PC work.Weatherwise,the wind is blowing and we just had a passing rain shower.We are supposed to get some more rain before the evening is through.I will just have to be more careful while driving home tonight because of the rain.I am going to have a friend with me tonight because he called while I was bathing and said that he would like to go out.Again,I will just have to be careful while I am driving home tonight.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.Nothing crept up into my mentality today.I had no images,cravings nor any desire to act out.I guess that keeping myself busy today was what kept me from thinking of anything sexual with men as well as anything sexual in genral.I am feeling pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the weekend unscathed.
As for the rest of the weekend,I have no plans made but whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for tonight and the rest of the weekend ahead.FJ
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Friday, April 24, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly,including the laundry pick up.Before I began my job,I had lunch and socialized for a while.After eating,I sorted the laundry out and did the work.
After I was finished,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.
I made a few stops on the way home.I first went to the bank to cash my paycheck and I went to the local K-Mart.I was looking for pain relieving patches but couldn't find the ones that I was looking for.I then headed over to the local Wal-Mart and I found the ones that I was looking for.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some e-mail checking before having dinner.I only had a few e-mails and after reading them,I ate.
After eating,I went out and ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up one last thing for her before the day was through.I went to the local supermarket to pick up a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and headed for home.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am going to go out and sing tomorrow night for my friends.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I kept busy to try and keep my mind off of sex with other men and I had no problems.There were no cravings nor any images creeping up in my mind.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly,including the laundry pick up.Before I began my job,I had lunch and socialized for a while.After eating,I sorted the laundry out and did the work.
After I was finished,I bagged everything and dropped it off at the rehab center before heading for home.
I made a few stops on the way home.I first went to the bank to cash my paycheck and I went to the local K-Mart.I was looking for pain relieving patches but couldn't find the ones that I was looking for.I then headed over to the local Wal-Mart and I found the ones that I was looking for.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and did some e-mail checking before having dinner.I only had a few e-mails and after reading them,I ate.
After eating,I went out and ran an errand for my mom.I had to pick up one last thing for her before the day was through.I went to the local supermarket to pick up a 1/2 gallon of ice cream and headed for home.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am glad that the weekend is here.I am going to go out and sing tomorrow night for my friends.I am hoping that the evening goes well for me.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.I kept busy to try and keep my mind off of sex with other men and I had no problems.There were no cravings nor any images creeping up in my mind.I am hoping that I can get through the weekend unscathed.
That was my day today and my hopes for the start of the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the small amount of time that I had.There were also no messes to clean up during the laundry pick-up this morning.After lunch,I bagged the clean laundry that was already done,drooped it off at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some gas in my tank and I headed straight home.
When i got home,I decided to take a nap.I slept for over an hour.This time,I slept soundly with no problems with images or cravings.I actually felt refreshed after the nap and when I got out of bed,I decided to finish my personal PC work,but put it off when dinner was ready.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I also browsed the internet for a while.I did run into some issues with the internet browser while doing that.It froze for about 10 seconds and rebooted itself.It did this about 3 times before I decided to just close the browser off and restart the computer.
While the computer was restarting,I ran a couple of errands for my mom.My mom wanted me to pick up a few things that she needed for dinner tomorrow night.I went out to get the things.I had to go to 2 different stores to get the stuff but I was glad to have gotten the errands done.I headed for home and didn't stop for anything on the way home.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems with any images,cravings nor did I have anything creeping up into my mind.As stated,even my nap today was pretty smooth with no images nor cravings.I guess the way things went contributed to me not having to deal with the feelings.They do make me feel uncomfortable when the occur and I just have to deal with them whenever they happen or creep up.But again,no problems and I am glad for that.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
The work shift went smoothly.I simply did what I had to do in the small amount of time that I had.There were also no messes to clean up during the laundry pick-up this morning.After lunch,I bagged the clean laundry that was already done,drooped it off at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a nearby gas station to get some gas in my tank and I headed straight home.
When i got home,I decided to take a nap.I slept for over an hour.This time,I slept soundly with no problems with images or cravings.I actually felt refreshed after the nap and when I got out of bed,I decided to finish my personal PC work,but put it off when dinner was ready.
After eating,I finished my personal PC work and I also browsed the internet for a while.I did run into some issues with the internet browser while doing that.It froze for about 10 seconds and rebooted itself.It did this about 3 times before I decided to just close the browser off and restart the computer.
While the computer was restarting,I ran a couple of errands for my mom.My mom wanted me to pick up a few things that she needed for dinner tomorrow night.I went out to get the things.I had to go to 2 different stores to get the stuff but I was glad to have gotten the errands done.I headed for home and didn't stop for anything on the way home.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems with any images,cravings nor did I have anything creeping up into my mind.As stated,even my nap today was pretty smooth with no images nor cravings.I guess the way things went contributed to me not having to deal with the feelings.They do make me feel uncomfortable when the occur and I just have to deal with them whenever they happen or creep up.But again,no problems and I am glad for that.
Tomorrow is another work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.After that,it's the weekend.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was simply a laundry pick-up day.The pick-up went well.There were no messes to clean up and everything worked out for the better.After having lunch at work,I sorted out the laundry and headed for home.
On the way home,I mailed out an important letter for my mom and I also dropped something off at my sister's house.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a nap for about an hour.I was feeling a little tired and I felt that a nap would be good.After the nap,I got dressed and ran an errand for my mom.
I had to pick up a small thing at a local Dollar General that my mom needed and I went to get that before dinner.On the way home,I stopped briefly to pick up a bag full of empty soda cans that someone left on the street.When I get a chance,I am going to take back the whole bunch of cans that I have in the back seat of my 4X4.I need to free up some room in the back.
When I got home,I ate dinner and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
With the exception of the errand,I stayed home for much of the day because we had non-stop rain throughout the day.There is nothing to do in my hometown when it is raining.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as far as today went,I had a brief episode.I haven't acted out with someone else as a partner in a long time.But today,I did get cravings.While trying to take a nap,I had a dream where I was being pursued by other guys for sexual favors and even though I tried to escape,I would always wind up stuck in the middle where I would be surrounded by guys with their erections sticking out and them asking me to perform oral sex.Fortunately,I did wake up briefly during my nap and that stopped it.I went back to sleep and nothing happened.I did have a craving to masturbate but didn't do it.I need advice on how I can handle something like that in the near future so it won't lead me to acting out,such as masturbating to these images.I know the root of the issues that I am struggling with but I do need a more better way of coping and escaping.If anyone out there has any advice for me out,I want to hear it.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was simply a laundry pick-up day.The pick-up went well.There were no messes to clean up and everything worked out for the better.After having lunch at work,I sorted out the laundry and headed for home.
On the way home,I mailed out an important letter for my mom and I also dropped something off at my sister's house.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took a nap for about an hour.I was feeling a little tired and I felt that a nap would be good.After the nap,I got dressed and ran an errand for my mom.
I had to pick up a small thing at a local Dollar General that my mom needed and I went to get that before dinner.On the way home,I stopped briefly to pick up a bag full of empty soda cans that someone left on the street.When I get a chance,I am going to take back the whole bunch of cans that I have in the back seat of my 4X4.I need to free up some room in the back.
When I got home,I ate dinner and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
With the exception of the errand,I stayed home for much of the day because we had non-stop rain throughout the day.There is nothing to do in my hometown when it is raining.
Regarding my SSA struggles,as far as today went,I had a brief episode.I haven't acted out with someone else as a partner in a long time.But today,I did get cravings.While trying to take a nap,I had a dream where I was being pursued by other guys for sexual favors and even though I tried to escape,I would always wind up stuck in the middle where I would be surrounded by guys with their erections sticking out and them asking me to perform oral sex.Fortunately,I did wake up briefly during my nap and that stopped it.I went back to sleep and nothing happened.I did have a craving to masturbate but didn't do it.I need advice on how I can handle something like that in the near future so it won't lead me to acting out,such as masturbating to these images.I know the root of the issues that I am struggling with but I do need a more better way of coping and escaping.If anyone out there has any advice for me out,I want to hear it.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty busy day today.
Today was a work day.I went to work and I did my job.It was quite a lot to do.The laundry pick-up also went smoothly as there were no messes to clean up.The work took me nearly five hours to complete.I also hung out at the social club next door to my work for a while during the morning and for the rest of the day,I concentrated more on my work and I after it was done,I simply dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I had to make a stop at a local supermarket to pick up some thin breads for dinner tomorrow night.I also bought a 1/2 gallon of orange juice that my mom asked me at the last minute to get while I was at the supermarket.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took the garbage out to the curb and I decided to stay home for the rest of the day.The weather was very rainy and dull and there was no place to go.There is never really anything to do in my hometown when it's raining.The only thing that I did do was that I went for a short walk after I had dinner.It was just a stroll in my neighborhood.After I went back into the house,I chose not to go out anymore.
After eating and going for that aforementioned walk,I finished my personal PC work.It was great to be online and getting the necessary work done.Overall,a pretty busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping up.If I can get through tomorrow well enough,great.But for tonight,nothing new to report.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was a work day.I went to work and I did my job.It was quite a lot to do.The laundry pick-up also went smoothly as there were no messes to clean up.The work took me nearly five hours to complete.I also hung out at the social club next door to my work for a while during the morning and for the rest of the day,I concentrated more on my work and I after it was done,I simply dropped off the clean laundry at the rehab center and headed for home.
On the way home,I had to make a stop at a local supermarket to pick up some thin breads for dinner tomorrow night.I also bought a 1/2 gallon of orange juice that my mom asked me at the last minute to get while I was at the supermarket.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I took the garbage out to the curb and I decided to stay home for the rest of the day.The weather was very rainy and dull and there was no place to go.There is never really anything to do in my hometown when it's raining.The only thing that I did do was that I went for a short walk after I had dinner.It was just a stroll in my neighborhood.After I went back into the house,I chose not to go out anymore.
After eating and going for that aforementioned walk,I finished my personal PC work.It was great to be online and getting the necessary work done.Overall,a pretty busy day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.There were no images nor cravings creeping up.If I can get through tomorrow well enough,great.But for tonight,nothing new to report.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick-up goes well with no messes to clean up.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, April 20, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I had quite a bit to do.Before I did anything,I did my personal PC work and I also had something to eat.After that,I got ready to do what I had to do.
Today,weatherwise,it was raining.Plus,my legs were really hurting me as a result of the weather.But I didn't let the rain stop me from doing what I had to do.I had to get out and do what I had planned and I am glad to have gotten it done.
Firstly,I went to the post office to mail out some bills that needed to be paid.I had only a week to get the payments out so I mailed them out today by three day Priority Mail.They are now on their way and I am hoping that they get to their destination soon.
Second,I ran an errand for my mom.I had to stop at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed to make homemade bean soup tomorrow.It took a bit of looking around but I managed to get all the things that my mom needed for the soup so she could make it tomorrow.After getting all of that,I headed straight home.
I relaxed for a bit when I got home while my mom prepared dinner.While relaxing,I watched a little bit of TV and I also browsed the internet for a while.I even visited the YouTube site for a while and watched some more animated shorts that I hadn't seen in years.They were Tales of the Wizard of Oz shorts that I used to watch when I was a kid.I used to watch them in the early Saturday morning hours and on various weekday shows.It was wonderful to watch these after all of these years and they did bring back some positive memories.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I also registered some more bills at Where's George.
Right now,the only thing that I heard regarding what the governor of New York is trying to make Same-Sex Marriage a law in NY is that in a recent scientific poll,NY state residents were asked if they favored Same-Sex Marriage and 53% said that they did.Of course,this is only a scientific poll and it is not very accurate.Still,the NY state senate are working their hardest to try and keep traditional marriage the way it is and not have it be perverted by the Same-Sex Marriage bill.I am hoping that they succeed in keep this bill from becoming law.There is no need for Same-Sex Marriage to even exist anywhere because it is not what was intended for marriage.Marriage is between a man and a woman and it should be kept that way.Today,I received soem encouraging words from Miss California that she also believes the same thing.All I can say is more power to you and "You Go,Girl".
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images or cravings crept into my mind.I simply kept busy all day and didn't even let my mind wander.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today was my day off.I had quite a bit to do.Before I did anything,I did my personal PC work and I also had something to eat.After that,I got ready to do what I had to do.
Today,weatherwise,it was raining.Plus,my legs were really hurting me as a result of the weather.But I didn't let the rain stop me from doing what I had to do.I had to get out and do what I had planned and I am glad to have gotten it done.
Firstly,I went to the post office to mail out some bills that needed to be paid.I had only a week to get the payments out so I mailed them out today by three day Priority Mail.They are now on their way and I am hoping that they get to their destination soon.
Second,I ran an errand for my mom.I had to stop at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that my mom needed to make homemade bean soup tomorrow.It took a bit of looking around but I managed to get all the things that my mom needed for the soup so she could make it tomorrow.After getting all of that,I headed straight home.
I relaxed for a bit when I got home while my mom prepared dinner.While relaxing,I watched a little bit of TV and I also browsed the internet for a while.I even visited the YouTube site for a while and watched some more animated shorts that I hadn't seen in years.They were Tales of the Wizard of Oz shorts that I used to watch when I was a kid.I used to watch them in the early Saturday morning hours and on various weekday shows.It was wonderful to watch these after all of these years and they did bring back some positive memories.
After eating,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I also registered some more bills at Where's George.
Right now,the only thing that I heard regarding what the governor of New York is trying to make Same-Sex Marriage a law in NY is that in a recent scientific poll,NY state residents were asked if they favored Same-Sex Marriage and 53% said that they did.Of course,this is only a scientific poll and it is not very accurate.Still,the NY state senate are working their hardest to try and keep traditional marriage the way it is and not have it be perverted by the Same-Sex Marriage bill.I am hoping that they succeed in keep this bill from becoming law.There is no need for Same-Sex Marriage to even exist anywhere because it is not what was intended for marriage.Marriage is between a man and a woman and it should be kept that way.Today,I received soem encouraging words from Miss California that she also believes the same thing.All I can say is more power to you and "You Go,Girl".
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.No images or cravings crept into my mind.I simply kept busy all day and didn't even let my mind wander.I am hoping that I can get through the rest of the week unscathed.
Tomorrow is a work day and I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a good day today.
When I woke up this morning,I had something to eat and I also did my personal PC work.While doing that,I listened to a radio sermon online via the website that it originated from.It was wonderful.It was about accepting the truth about Christ's resurrection.It was a wonderful sermon to listen to and I am looking forward to next week's.I am hoping that it's as wonderful as today's was.I also registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.
After doing that,I had to get ready for the day.I had another small errand to run and I needed to get it done.I needed a few personal things for myself and I also had to pick up a prescription from the local drugstore.It was a medication that I needed to get filled immediately because I had only one pill left.After doing all of these things that needed to get done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down relaxing on my bed.I also read from a book that I have until dinner was ready.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a few classic animated shorts on YouTube for a while.The shorts that I watched were from The New Adventures of Pinocchio that were developed by Rankin Bass when their company name was called Videocraft.It was wonderful to watch several of these animated shorts again after all of these years.I used to watch them a lot when I was a little boy and it was great to revisit my childhood for a short time.I have been visiting YouTube quite a bit to revisit my childhood days and I am planning on visiting YouTube quite often in the near future.
Last night,I my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a blast singing up a storm.I also got a lot of positive responses from the crowd and it made me feel good.I am looking forward to singing next Saturday night.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had another brief episode this morning.I was still feeling rather tired even after having a good noght's sleep.I guess that it's the side effect of the medication that I am taking while under the supervision of a medical practioner at the local hospital.I was playing with myself and images of men with erections were creeping into my mind.Fortunately,it didn't lead to any masturbatory activity but I still felt pretty down-trodden as a result of it.I am feeling better right now but this episode really got me down for a while this morning.I am just hoping that I can get through the new week unscathed.
I am also thinking of going out tonight and having a drink or two with some of the gang over at the place where I entertain.I am hoping for any really good talks with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.The only thing on my agenda is that I have to mail out a few payments on bills that I need to pay.I am hoping to get through the day pretty well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
When I woke up this morning,I had something to eat and I also did my personal PC work.While doing that,I listened to a radio sermon online via the website that it originated from.It was wonderful.It was about accepting the truth about Christ's resurrection.It was a wonderful sermon to listen to and I am looking forward to next week's.I am hoping that it's as wonderful as today's was.I also registered a few more bills at the Where's George site.
After doing that,I had to get ready for the day.I had another small errand to run and I needed to get it done.I needed a few personal things for myself and I also had to pick up a prescription from the local drugstore.It was a medication that I needed to get filled immediately because I had only one pill left.After doing all of these things that needed to get done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I laid down relaxing on my bed.I also read from a book that I have until dinner was ready.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and watched a few classic animated shorts on YouTube for a while.The shorts that I watched were from The New Adventures of Pinocchio that were developed by Rankin Bass when their company name was called Videocraft.It was wonderful to watch several of these animated shorts again after all of these years.I used to watch them a lot when I was a little boy and it was great to revisit my childhood for a short time.I have been visiting YouTube quite a bit to revisit my childhood days and I am planning on visiting YouTube quite often in the near future.
Last night,I my night of entertaining the crowd went great.I had a blast singing up a storm.I also got a lot of positive responses from the crowd and it made me feel good.I am looking forward to singing next Saturday night.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had another brief episode this morning.I was still feeling rather tired even after having a good noght's sleep.I guess that it's the side effect of the medication that I am taking while under the supervision of a medical practioner at the local hospital.I was playing with myself and images of men with erections were creeping into my mind.Fortunately,it didn't lead to any masturbatory activity but I still felt pretty down-trodden as a result of it.I am feeling better right now but this episode really got me down for a while this morning.I am just hoping that I can get through the new week unscathed.
I am also thinking of going out tonight and having a drink or two with some of the gang over at the place where I entertain.I am hoping for any really good talks with them.
Tomorrow is my day off.The only thing on my agenda is that I have to mail out a few payments on bills that I need to pay.I am hoping to get through the day pretty well.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ
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