Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as there were a few things that I needed to do.
I went today to run a couple of errands.I first went to the bank to withdraw a little bit of money.After that,I went to a nearby Salvation Army thrift store to look around and after that,I went over to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those things,I went to another local supermarket to pick up a few more things.After paying for those things,I headed for the drug store to pick up a few prescriptions and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I watched a DVD.I relaxed while doing so.
After eating,I watched another DVD and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I still struggle with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I almost gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men,but before I could do this,I went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed for the strength to help me fight and resist this overwhelming urge.I prayed real hard.After I was finished,I felt stronger and I also felt better as I knew that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.I went on with the rest of the day just staying busy and keeping my mind occupied with the important things that I had to do.It was wonderful that I managed to get out into the community and do what I had to do.It was great.I stayed out for much of the day as it was a nice sunny day.It was a little windy and cold,but the sun was shining and it wasn't as cold as it was the last few days.I enjoyed being out and it was wonderful.I even ran into an old schoolmate of mine that I haven't seen in a while and we talked for a few minutes.While I escaped unscathed today,there is tomorrow and the days after that.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I have to stay on guard and try not to make any sort of temptation consume me.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I would appreciate both of these things as I truly need both prayerful and positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, January 04, 2014
Friday, January 03, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had two cups of coffee.Despite that,I was still tired and drowsy and I went back to bed and wound up falling asleep again,but when I got back up,I showered quickly and I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I went out to do some shopping today.Before that,I shoveled the walk for the mail people and also did some shoveling in my driveway so I could get out and do my shopping.
I first stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some stuff and after paying for those things,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy some more things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had to do some more shoveling as I couldn't get into my driveway with my car.I shoveled for about ten minutes and after that,I proceeded to get the car into the driveway and managed to get it in despite a couple of setbacks.I also made sure to make tracks in the driveway so that way I could get out and get in.After that,I went onto the house to put the groceries away and after that,I decided to do some more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a DVD in the DVD to watch it.After that,I watched another one.When that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,since I managed to get out and do things,I didn't have much of a problem.I was tempted,but the temptation was minimal.I simply went through the day and didn't have any negative effects of my struggle to deal with.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful and alert.I have to keep in mind that temptation can come around when least expected.I have to keep in mind that when they come,I have to choose to rely more on My Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to keep me strong and help me to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I still need both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had two cups of coffee.Despite that,I was still tired and drowsy and I went back to bed and wound up falling asleep again,but when I got back up,I showered quickly and I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I went out to do some shopping today.Before that,I shoveled the walk for the mail people and also did some shoveling in my driveway so I could get out and do my shopping.
I first stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up some stuff and after paying for those things,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy some more things that I needed.After paying for those things,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had to do some more shoveling as I couldn't get into my driveway with my car.I shoveled for about ten minutes and after that,I proceeded to get the car into the driveway and managed to get it in despite a couple of setbacks.I also made sure to make tracks in the driveway so that way I could get out and get in.After that,I went onto the house to put the groceries away and after that,I decided to do some more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a DVD in the DVD to watch it.After that,I watched another one.When that was over,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,since I managed to get out and do things,I didn't have much of a problem.I was tempted,but the temptation was minimal.I simply went through the day and didn't have any negative effects of my struggle to deal with.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.I still have to stay on guard and be watchful and alert.I have to keep in mind that temptation can come around when least expected.I have to keep in mind that when they come,I have to choose to rely more on My Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ to keep me strong and help me to fight and resist these overwhelming urges.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I still need both of these things.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, January 02, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.I sat up in a chair for a while,but was still feeling sleepy and decided to lay down in bed for much of the morning to ease off the drowsiness.When I got back up again a few hours later,I showered and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work and when I was done with that,I slipped on a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt to head outside to do some snow shoveling on the walk so the way will be clear for the mail people to come.
I didn't go to my usual Thursday morning Holy Bible study group as a result of the weather today.The area where I am living is under a Winter Storm Warning until 6:00pm tomorrow morning and starting at 4:00pm today,we will be under a Wind Chill Advisory until 12:00pm tomorrow afternoon.I stayed home and only went out to shovel the walk for the mail people and to also turn my car over to warm it up so it won't stall on me when I really need it to go somewhere in this really COLD weather.After I was done with both of these things,I went back into the house and simply relaxed while watching a couple of DVD's.I stayed inside and only went back out again to bring the recycling bins back to the back porch once the recycling trucks came to take the recyclables away.After that,I stayed in for the rest of the day.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and get ready to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.While struggling with the psychiatric double whammy that I have is difficult in itself,the SSA struggle is the most difficult for me as I have to struggle with temptations to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.At times,the psychiatric double whammy that I have makes the struggle even more difficult.I have to put up with hearing things,such as voices telling me to do things wrong or I hear them calling out my name and when I turn to see who it might be,there is nobody there.I also hear sounds like footsteps while I am walking and as usual,when I turn around,there is nobody nor nothing there.It really gets to me so much that I don't know whether I am coming or going at times.The thing with SSA is that I hate the temptations that come around wanting me to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but when that latter temptation comes around,I simply choose to stay home rather than feed that particular temptation.I have to keep in mind that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have will never give me the fulfillment that I need to grow and function like a man.They will never fulfill my needs authentically nor will the make me feel like a man is supposed to feel.Acting out on the unnatural desires that I have will only reaffirm the false identity of Homosexual/Gay,which is the identity that I am trying to distance myself from as I hate that false identity with a passion.I don't want to feel sexual feelings for men anymore and I am tired of feeling them.I want these unnatural sexual feelings to go away.Fellow blog followers,I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately.The encouragement can be anything,such as scriptural upbuilding or just a comment to boost both my self confidence and self esteem.I am always in need of a confidence boost as my self confidence is pretty low and my self esteem is just as low.I would appreciate both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.I sat up in a chair for a while,but was still feeling sleepy and decided to lay down in bed for much of the morning to ease off the drowsiness.When I got back up again a few hours later,I showered and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I did my personal PC work and when I was done with that,I slipped on a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt to head outside to do some snow shoveling on the walk so the way will be clear for the mail people to come.
I didn't go to my usual Thursday morning Holy Bible study group as a result of the weather today.The area where I am living is under a Winter Storm Warning until 6:00pm tomorrow morning and starting at 4:00pm today,we will be under a Wind Chill Advisory until 12:00pm tomorrow afternoon.I stayed home and only went out to shovel the walk for the mail people and to also turn my car over to warm it up so it won't stall on me when I really need it to go somewhere in this really COLD weather.After I was done with both of these things,I went back into the house and simply relaxed while watching a couple of DVD's.I stayed inside and only went back out again to bring the recycling bins back to the back porch once the recycling trucks came to take the recyclables away.After that,I stayed in for the rest of the day.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work and get ready to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.While struggling with the psychiatric double whammy that I have is difficult in itself,the SSA struggle is the most difficult for me as I have to struggle with temptations to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men.At times,the psychiatric double whammy that I have makes the struggle even more difficult.I have to put up with hearing things,such as voices telling me to do things wrong or I hear them calling out my name and when I turn to see who it might be,there is nobody there.I also hear sounds like footsteps while I am walking and as usual,when I turn around,there is nobody nor nothing there.It really gets to me so much that I don't know whether I am coming or going at times.The thing with SSA is that I hate the temptations that come around wanting me to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men and also,to go out and seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,but when that latter temptation comes around,I simply choose to stay home rather than feed that particular temptation.I have to keep in mind that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have will never give me the fulfillment that I need to grow and function like a man.They will never fulfill my needs authentically nor will the make me feel like a man is supposed to feel.Acting out on the unnatural desires that I have will only reaffirm the false identity of Homosexual/Gay,which is the identity that I am trying to distance myself from as I hate that false identity with a passion.I don't want to feel sexual feelings for men anymore and I am tired of feeling them.I want these unnatural sexual feelings to go away.Fellow blog followers,I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things desperately.The encouragement can be anything,such as scriptural upbuilding or just a comment to boost both my self confidence and self esteem.I am always in need of a confidence boost as my self confidence is pretty low and my self esteem is just as low.I would appreciate both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
Happy New Year to everyone everywhere.
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed out for church for the New Year's Day service.
The service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store too pick up something that I needed.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I ate a light lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I watched a few DVD's and relaxed while doing so.
After eating,I watched another DVD and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,while I was tempted to do things,it wasn't too much of a problem as I stayed busy watching a few DVD's and relaxing.I also prepared myself a delicious pasta meal and I enjoyed it.The temptations today were not as overwhelming as they have been in the last several days,which made me feel a little bit better.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is tomorrow and the days after that.I understand that I shouldn't worry nor dwell about tomorrow,but I am really not worried about it.I just want to stay on guard and watch out for any temptations that might come my way.Tomorrow,we are going to be under a Winter Weather Advisory for the next couple of days and I know that temptations can come anytime as I won't be doing much of anything as I will be staying home during much of that time as I don't want to leave the house for anything unnecessary.I am simply going to stay home for much of the period and simply go out to shovel the walk for the mail people and make sure that my car is warmed up so it won't stall on me when I really need it.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I am going to need both of these things as I will be held up in my house for much of the next two days due to the Winter Weather Advisory that is currently in effect right now.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Since there is a Winter Weather Advisory in effect for the next couple of days,I am simply going to stay home and take it easy and go out only to shovel the walk for the mail people and turn my car over and let it warm up for a few minutes so it won't stall on me when needed.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed out for church for the New Year's Day service.
The service was wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store too pick up something that I needed.After paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I ate a light lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I watched a few DVD's and relaxed while doing so.
After eating,I watched another DVD and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,while I was tempted to do things,it wasn't too much of a problem as I stayed busy watching a few DVD's and relaxing.I also prepared myself a delicious pasta meal and I enjoyed it.The temptations today were not as overwhelming as they have been in the last several days,which made me feel a little bit better.Though I escaped today unscathed,there is tomorrow and the days after that.I understand that I shouldn't worry nor dwell about tomorrow,but I am really not worried about it.I just want to stay on guard and watch out for any temptations that might come my way.Tomorrow,we are going to be under a Winter Weather Advisory for the next couple of days and I know that temptations can come anytime as I won't be doing much of anything as I will be staying home during much of that time as I don't want to leave the house for anything unnecessary.I am simply going to stay home for much of the period and simply go out to shovel the walk for the mail people and make sure that my car is warmed up so it won't stall on me when I really need it.Fellow blog followers,please keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.I am going to need both of these things as I will be held up in my house for much of the next two days due to the Winter Weather Advisory that is currently in effect right now.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Since there is a Winter Weather Advisory in effect for the next couple of days,I am simply going to stay home and take it easy and go out only to shovel the walk for the mail people and turn my car over and let it warm up for a few minutes so it won't stall on me when needed.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had myself a couple cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was done eating,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and I went outside to clean off my car and shovel the walk.After that was done,I headed out to do a few errands that needed to be done.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After that,I stopped in a nearby local supermarket to pick up something that the Dollar Tree didn't have.After that,I went to a gas station to get some gas.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my niece's house to pick up my laundry and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away quickly and I headed back out to do a little more shoveling of the walk for the mail people.I was hurrying as a friend of the family invited me out to lunch and I worked at speed to get the shoveling done.After putting the snow shovel away,the family friend arrived and we headed for a local restaurant for lunch.
It was a wonderful lunch.After we were done,she dropped me off at home and when I got in,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also relaxed and watched a few classic TV show episodes on DVD.
After eating a light dinner,I was hoping to go to a New Year's Eve get together,but the householder wound up getting sick and the get together was cancelled.Since this change of events happened,I decided to attend the New Year's Eve service at church,which was what I was initially going to do until the New Year's Eve get together invitation came to me.
It was a wonderful service and after some fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed out of my dress clothes and into my night clothes.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of my struggles.Today,I gave into temptation yet again by manipulating my genitals and I wound up ejaculating while I was doing this.Yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind as I did this,and I did immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and I moved on with the rest of the day.Fellow blog followers,I need some advice on how I can stop this unclean,dirty and impure practice of genital manipulation.This has become a serious habit with me and I do want to stop this habit and overcome it.Please fellow blog followers,if anyone out there has any helpful advice,please share it in the comments section.I would really appreciate that.I also would appreciate that y'all continue prayerful and positive verbal support for me.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of things day in and day out and also,desperately.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of attending the New Year's Day church service,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had myself a couple cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly.After showering,I had my usual quick breakfast and when I was done eating,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and I went outside to clean off my car and shovel the walk.After that was done,I headed out to do a few errands that needed to be done.
I first went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things.After that,I stopped in a nearby local supermarket to pick up something that the Dollar Tree didn't have.After that,I went to a gas station to get some gas.After that,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing.After a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at my niece's house to pick up my laundry and after that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away quickly and I headed back out to do a little more shoveling of the walk for the mail people.I was hurrying as a friend of the family invited me out to lunch and I worked at speed to get the shoveling done.After putting the snow shovel away,the family friend arrived and we headed for a local restaurant for lunch.
It was a wonderful lunch.After we were done,she dropped me off at home and when I got in,I decided to do some more personal PC work.I also relaxed and watched a few classic TV show episodes on DVD.
After eating a light dinner,I was hoping to go to a New Year's Eve get together,but the householder wound up getting sick and the get together was cancelled.Since this change of events happened,I decided to attend the New Year's Eve service at church,which was what I was initially going to do until the New Year's Eve get together invitation came to me.
It was a wonderful service and after some fellowship,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed out of my dress clothes and into my night clothes.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the worst of my struggles.Today,I gave into temptation yet again by manipulating my genitals and I wound up ejaculating while I was doing this.Yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind as I did this,and I did immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I did feel better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and I moved on with the rest of the day.Fellow blog followers,I need some advice on how I can stop this unclean,dirty and impure practice of genital manipulation.This has become a serious habit with me and I do want to stop this habit and overcome it.Please fellow blog followers,if anyone out there has any helpful advice,please share it in the comments section.I would really appreciate that.I also would appreciate that y'all continue prayerful and positive verbal support for me.Please continue in prayer for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of things day in and day out and also,desperately.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of attending the New Year's Day church service,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, December 30, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.I had a few things planned and I was looking forward to the day.
I went over to a friend's house and I picked him up.We headed for the AMVETS thrift store within another area of the next county and we both had a blast.I bought some great things,including an extra heavy Blanket for those cold winter nights.I bought a few tapes and some more records.After paying for those items,we headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas for the return trip and after that,we had lunch at a nearby restaurant and we had a personal pizza each and some fries,along with a drink.After we were finished eating,we headed out to return home to our home city.
Before dropping my friend off at home,I showed him where I worship each Sunday and he said that the church building was beautiful.After that,I dropped him off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and sorted the records out.After that,I registered some bills that I got in change at the Where's George site and headed back out again to buy some needed things at a local Dollar Tree.I also got some gas with the rest of the change.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a few classic TV episodes on DVD and relax.I also prepared for my evening meal.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.My struggles with SSA are much more difficult because of my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia.At times,I hear voices telling me to do things and also,I hear them call out my name or say things for no random reason.At times,I hear footsteps,but when I turn around,I see nobody there.It really stuns me at times.I also have to put up with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD as my moods fluctuate at times daily or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I still attend my therapy sessions and I continue to take my medication as directed.Today,I wasn't tempted very much by SSA as I was out in the community for much of the day.I was out and enjoying myself and didn't have much problems.It was wonderful that I didn't have to worry about anything.It took my mind off of the SSA and anything connected with it.Though I escaped unscathed today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ fr everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,in the evening,I am going to be attending a New Year's Eve get together at the house of a couple who attend the Thursday night Holy Bible study group that I attend,which is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC quickly and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.I had a few things planned and I was looking forward to the day.
I went over to a friend's house and I picked him up.We headed for the AMVETS thrift store within another area of the next county and we both had a blast.I bought some great things,including an extra heavy Blanket for those cold winter nights.I bought a few tapes and some more records.After paying for those items,we headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas for the return trip and after that,we had lunch at a nearby restaurant and we had a personal pizza each and some fries,along with a drink.After we were finished eating,we headed out to return home to our home city.
Before dropping my friend off at home,I showed him where I worship each Sunday and he said that the church building was beautiful.After that,I dropped him off at home and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and sorted the records out.After that,I registered some bills that I got in change at the Where's George site and headed back out again to buy some needed things at a local Dollar Tree.I also got some gas with the rest of the change.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a few classic TV episodes on DVD and relax.I also prepared for my evening meal.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.My struggles with SSA are much more difficult because of my struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia.At times,I hear voices telling me to do things and also,I hear them call out my name or say things for no random reason.At times,I hear footsteps,but when I turn around,I see nobody there.It really stuns me at times.I also have to put up with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD as my moods fluctuate at times daily or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.I still attend my therapy sessions and I continue to take my medication as directed.Today,I wasn't tempted very much by SSA as I was out in the community for much of the day.I was out and enjoying myself and didn't have much problems.It was wonderful that I didn't have to worry about anything.It took my mind off of the SSA and anything connected with it.Though I escaped unscathed today,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ fr everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,in the evening,I am going to be attending a New Year's Eve get together at the house of a couple who attend the Thursday night Holy Bible study group that I attend,which is all that I have planned for tomorrow.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I decided to lay down for a while as I had a terribly pounding headache.I felt better after that and I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I did get tempted minimally to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,it wasn't too much.I simply went about my morning rituals at home and got dressed up for church.I went to church and I enjoyed it.I always enjoy going to church each and every Sunday and the holy days when they come around.The next holy days to come will be when the Lenten weeks and Easter holidays come around,which will be only a few months away once the new year starts.It is hard to believe that 2013 and the holiday season of this year is almost over.I am simply going to continue seeking healing from SSA and also,I am also going to continue in my resolve to overcome SSA.The SSA struggle is a very difficult one indeed and my struggles with the psychiatric double whammy that I have makes the SSA struggle,for me,even more difficult to handle.I wish that at times that I didn't struggle with SSA and the struggle is not only a very difficult one,but also a terrible thing to struggle with.The thing with SSA is that it only works to destroy lives rather than enhances them.The sexual desires that are connected with the SSA struggle are unnatural and not the way that our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,intended for us to be as it makes sexuality look dirty,debasing and disgusting.Our Heavenly Father created and gave us sexuality as a gift,but the rest of the world is abusing the gift to the point where it is being used and abused by the rest of the world for all the wrong reasons and excuses.The way that it is being used by the rest of the world isn't they way that our Heavenly Father intended for it to be used.It is terrible the way that it is being used by our modern world.It really makes me sad and angry because if it wasn't for the sexual abuse that I endured at the hands of older and trusted men,which was one of the contributors of why I struggle,I wouldn't be struggling with SSA.Of course,the physical and emotional abuse at the hands of my "non-denominated" father,alongside his legalistic ways,was the root cause of my struggles with SSA as I never received his love and affirmation,only his emasculation and his abusive ways.I am just hoping that one day,I will be fully healed from SSA.Fellow blog followers,please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,a friend and I have plans to go to an AMVETS thrift store in another area in the next county and we are hoping for some wonderful things to find,which is what I have planned for tomorrow.I am going to relax for the rest of the day when I got home.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I decided to lay down for a while as I had a terribly pounding headache.I felt better after that and I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I did get tempted minimally to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,it wasn't too much.I simply went about my morning rituals at home and got dressed up for church.I went to church and I enjoyed it.I always enjoy going to church each and every Sunday and the holy days when they come around.The next holy days to come will be when the Lenten weeks and Easter holidays come around,which will be only a few months away once the new year starts.It is hard to believe that 2013 and the holiday season of this year is almost over.I am simply going to continue seeking healing from SSA and also,I am also going to continue in my resolve to overcome SSA.The SSA struggle is a very difficult one indeed and my struggles with the psychiatric double whammy that I have makes the SSA struggle,for me,even more difficult to handle.I wish that at times that I didn't struggle with SSA and the struggle is not only a very difficult one,but also a terrible thing to struggle with.The thing with SSA is that it only works to destroy lives rather than enhances them.The sexual desires that are connected with the SSA struggle are unnatural and not the way that our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,intended for us to be as it makes sexuality look dirty,debasing and disgusting.Our Heavenly Father created and gave us sexuality as a gift,but the rest of the world is abusing the gift to the point where it is being used and abused by the rest of the world for all the wrong reasons and excuses.The way that it is being used by the rest of the world isn't they way that our Heavenly Father intended for it to be used.It is terrible the way that it is being used by our modern world.It really makes me sad and angry because if it wasn't for the sexual abuse that I endured at the hands of older and trusted men,which was one of the contributors of why I struggle,I wouldn't be struggling with SSA.Of course,the physical and emotional abuse at the hands of my "non-denominated" father,alongside his legalistic ways,was the root cause of my struggles with SSA as I never received his love and affirmation,only his emasculation and his abusive ways.I am just hoping that one day,I will be fully healed from SSA.Fellow blog followers,please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,a friend and I have plans to go to an AMVETS thrift store in another area in the next county and we are hoping for some wonderful things to find,which is what I have planned for tomorrow.I am going to relax for the rest of the day when I got home.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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