Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I decided to lay down for a while as I had a terribly pounding headache.I felt better after that and I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and watch it.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I did get tempted minimally to indulge in fantasies and lusting after other men,but today,it wasn't too much.I simply went about my morning rituals at home and got dressed up for church.I went to church and I enjoyed it.I always enjoy going to church each and every Sunday and the holy days when they come around.The next holy days to come will be when the Lenten weeks and Easter holidays come around,which will be only a few months away once the new year starts.It is hard to believe that 2013 and the holiday season of this year is almost over.I am simply going to continue seeking healing from SSA and also,I am also going to continue in my resolve to overcome SSA.The SSA struggle is a very difficult one indeed and my struggles with the psychiatric double whammy that I have makes the SSA struggle,for me,even more difficult to handle.I wish that at times that I didn't struggle with SSA and the struggle is not only a very difficult one,but also a terrible thing to struggle with.The thing with SSA is that it only works to destroy lives rather than enhances them.The sexual desires that are connected with the SSA struggle are unnatural and not the way that our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,intended for us to be as it makes sexuality look dirty,debasing and disgusting.Our Heavenly Father created and gave us sexuality as a gift,but the rest of the world is abusing the gift to the point where it is being used and abused by the rest of the world for all the wrong reasons and excuses.The way that it is being used by the rest of the world isn't they way that our Heavenly Father intended for it to be used.It is terrible the way that it is being used by our modern world.It really makes me sad and angry because if it wasn't for the sexual abuse that I endured at the hands of older and trusted men,which was one of the contributors of why I struggle,I wouldn't be struggling with SSA.Of course,the physical and emotional abuse at the hands of my "non-denominated" father,alongside his legalistic ways,was the root cause of my struggles with SSA as I never received his love and affirmation,only his emasculation and his abusive ways.I am just hoping that one day,I will be fully healed from SSA.Fellow blog followers,please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Tomorrow,a friend and I have plans to go to an AMVETS thrift store in another area in the next county and we are hoping for some wonderful things to find,which is what I have planned for tomorrow.I am going to relax for the rest of the day when I got home.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ