Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and after showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.When I was done eating,I got dressed and did my personal PC work,which took me a while to get done.After I was finished with that,I headed out to go out for some air and stopped at a local Salvation Army thrift store to look around and I bought a used ice scraped that can be heated up by plugging it into the car's cigarette lighter socket while the car is running to scrape ice off of the windshield.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a little bit of TV and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I wasn't tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.I kept busy by doing my personal PC work and going out for a while.It was great that I managed to get out and be in the community for a while and not have these unnatural sexual desires tempt me to sin.Still,I am again asking for your continued prayerful support and your positive verbal support.I am always in need of prayers and positive verbal support.They both help keep me going in this particular struggle and make me even more determined to continue in the process of overcoming and healing from this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Friday, February 21, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly showered.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and took it easy while listening to music.I also read a little bit as well.
In the mid afternoon,I had to go out and buy a few things at a local Dollar Tree store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed and took it easy for a while after that.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also later prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,struggling with the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was actually tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men.I went to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to fight and resist these terrible temptations.I prayed real hard for this strength and I even asked that my Heavenly Father to keep both my mind and my heart pure.I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father and I really prayed real hard for this strength.After I was finished praying,I felt better and also,much stronger.I also felt that my Heavenly Father gave me exactly what I asked for and it felt really good.I also managed to keep busy by being out in the community and also,keeping my mind on the tasks at hand and that was great.Fellow blog followers,I still need y'all to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that y'all leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section because I also need that to help keep me going in this particular struggle of SSA.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to church on Sunday as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I quickly showered.After my shower,I got dressed and had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and took it easy while listening to music.I also read a little bit as well.
In the mid afternoon,I had to go out and buy a few things at a local Dollar Tree store.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I did some more personal PC work.I relaxed and took it easy for a while after that.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also later prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,struggling with the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was actually tempted to fantasize and lust after other men and to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men.I went to my Heavenly Father and I prayed for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to fight and resist these terrible temptations.I prayed real hard for this strength and I even asked that my Heavenly Father to keep both my mind and my heart pure.I didn't want to sin against my Heavenly Father and I really prayed real hard for this strength.After I was finished praying,I felt better and also,much stronger.I also felt that my Heavenly Father gave me exactly what I asked for and it felt really good.I also managed to keep busy by being out in the community and also,keeping my mind on the tasks at hand and that was great.Fellow blog followers,I still need y'all to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also asking that y'all leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section because I also need that to help keep me going in this particular struggle of SSA.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of going to church on Sunday as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ
Thursday, February 20, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a day with mixed emotions and quite a few complicated things.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed in a hurry as my locally living sister was going to take me to my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.
The session with her went well and I got my new prescription for my current medication.I called my locally living sister to pick me up,which she did and she headed to drop me off at home.
On the way,she stopped at the drug store so I could drop off my prescription and pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for the items,she dropped me off at home and I went into the house.I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed back out again to do what I had to do and pick up a few slices of pizza for a late lunch.I headed straight home and when I got home,I relaxed and ate my late lunch and did some more personal PC work when I was done eating it.I also relaxed and listened to a little bit of music.
In between these things,the mechanic came over to see what he could do in regards to my car's shifter problem.He directed me to a covered hole near the shifter on the right and he simply instructed me to put the tip of a screwdriver into that hole very deeply and push the button to shift into either drive or reverse.After he showed me that,I tried it,but still had some difficulty trying to get it to work,but after a few tries,I finally got it and I parked the car into the driveway.Later on,I did all the aforementioned things that I had to do.
After eating a light evening meal,I was hoping to head over to the usual Thursday night study group,but learned earlier in the evening that they were canceling the study group tonight due to the weather.I simply relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I still also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well and it was great.I then prepared for my evening retirement.
Today,as I said,was a day of mixed emotions and complications,with the problems involving my car being the main contributor and root cause of the mixed emotions that I was feeling and the complications that I had endured today.I have been feeling really stressed as a result of these things.My mind was rambling and I was also talking to myself so much and regarding my difficulties in regards to my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation by lusting and fantasizing with sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also manipulated my genitals to the point where I reached orgasm and I finished it off by masturbation to ejaculation.I really felt miserable when I did this and after washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also begged for his mercy as I prayed because I really felt terrible for sinning against my Heavenly Father.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I poured out everything to him and I begged for his mercy and for his forgiveness.When I was finished,I felt a lot better and I knew that I was forgiven.I am still working on trying to say to these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I own them and not the other way around.I have to show them that I am not a slave to them anymore.I also have to show them that these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I won't let them dictate nor define who I am as a person.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am going through this rough emotional time and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support from all of you as I am really going through a very difficult emotional time.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.I am just hoping that tomorrow isn't the day like I had today.I am afraid that I really won't know whether I am coming or going if it is.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed in a hurry as my locally living sister was going to take me to my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital.
The session with her went well and I got my new prescription for my current medication.I called my locally living sister to pick me up,which she did and she headed to drop me off at home.
On the way,she stopped at the drug store so I could drop off my prescription and pick up a couple of things that I needed.After paying for the items,she dropped me off at home and I went into the house.I put the stuff that I bought away and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed back out again to do what I had to do and pick up a few slices of pizza for a late lunch.I headed straight home and when I got home,I relaxed and ate my late lunch and did some more personal PC work when I was done eating it.I also relaxed and listened to a little bit of music.
In between these things,the mechanic came over to see what he could do in regards to my car's shifter problem.He directed me to a covered hole near the shifter on the right and he simply instructed me to put the tip of a screwdriver into that hole very deeply and push the button to shift into either drive or reverse.After he showed me that,I tried it,but still had some difficulty trying to get it to work,but after a few tries,I finally got it and I parked the car into the driveway.Later on,I did all the aforementioned things that I had to do.
After eating a light evening meal,I was hoping to head over to the usual Thursday night study group,but learned earlier in the evening that they were canceling the study group tonight due to the weather.I simply relaxed and watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I still also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well and it was great.I then prepared for my evening retirement.
Today,as I said,was a day of mixed emotions and complications,with the problems involving my car being the main contributor and root cause of the mixed emotions that I was feeling and the complications that I had endured today.I have been feeling really stressed as a result of these things.My mind was rambling and I was also talking to myself so much and regarding my difficulties in regards to my SSA struggles,I again gave into temptation by lusting and fantasizing with sexual images of men clouding my mind and I also manipulated my genitals to the point where I reached orgasm and I finished it off by masturbation to ejaculation.I really felt miserable when I did this and after washing my hands,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also begged for his mercy as I prayed because I really felt terrible for sinning against my Heavenly Father.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I poured out everything to him and I begged for his mercy and for his forgiveness.When I was finished,I felt a lot better and I knew that I was forgiven.I am still working on trying to say to these unnatural desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I own them and not the other way around.I have to show them that I am not a slave to them anymore.I also have to show them that these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I won't let them dictate nor define who I am as a person.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am going through this rough emotional time and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support from all of you as I am really going through a very difficult emotional time.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have really nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.I am just hoping that tomorrow isn't the day like I had today.I am afraid that I really won't know whether I am coming or going if it is.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair,but stressful,day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had a couple cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda today.I first had lunch at a local kitchen and after that,I went to a nearby Dollar Tree store and picked up a couple of things.After that,I headed over to the Wednesday afternoon study group,which went well.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
After I dropped something off at a neighbor's house,my shift lever quit working on me.I couldn't shift the lever into drive as the button on the lever wasn't working as it wouldn't go in so I could shift into drive.I had to leave the car parked on the street and I took everything out of the car that I bought and carried it to the house.I put everything away the minute that I went in and waited for someone to come and check and see what was wrong,which was my nephew and he told me that the plastic in the shift lever was broken.After he left,I went back into the house.While waiting,I had my evening meal and just decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair,but stressful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I wound up giving into temptation by fantasies and lusting and also,manipulating my genitals to the images and masturbating also.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness and I asked him to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also begged for my Heavenly Father's mercy as I prayed and after I was finished,I felt better.I really need to start relying on my Heavenly Father now and ask him to get me through this negative thing that I am going through with my car being out of commission for now.I am just hoping that they problem can be fixed without having to get anything new for the shifter.Fellow blog followers,please continue in prayer for me and please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word of two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now more than ever as I am now going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had a couple cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda today.I first had lunch at a local kitchen and after that,I went to a nearby Dollar Tree store and picked up a couple of things.After that,I headed over to the Wednesday afternoon study group,which went well.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After that,I headed straight home.
After I dropped something off at a neighbor's house,my shift lever quit working on me.I couldn't shift the lever into drive as the button on the lever wasn't working as it wouldn't go in so I could shift into drive.I had to leave the car parked on the street and I took everything out of the car that I bought and carried it to the house.I put everything away the minute that I went in and waited for someone to come and check and see what was wrong,which was my nephew and he told me that the plastic in the shift lever was broken.After he left,I went back into the house.While waiting,I had my evening meal and just decided to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair,but stressful,day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I wound up giving into temptation by fantasies and lusting and also,manipulating my genitals to the images and masturbating also.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father for forgiveness and I asked him to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also begged for my Heavenly Father's mercy as I prayed and after I was finished,I felt better.I really need to start relying on my Heavenly Father now and ask him to get me through this negative thing that I am going through with my car being out of commission for now.I am just hoping that they problem can be fixed without having to get anything new for the shifter.Fellow blog followers,please continue in prayer for me and please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word of two for me in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support right now more than ever as I am now going through a very difficult emotional time right now.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of seeing the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.My niece called me and asked me to pick her kids up at school,which I did.After dropping them off at home,I made a couple of phone calls to the bank to check my account balance and also,to make an appointment with a eye doctor for Monday afternoon.After that,I got some gas and I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I went and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light evening meal,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,in regards to my SSA struggles,there were no problems.I had no temptations to lust and fantasize with sexual images of men.I simply stayed busy by doing what I had to do.I did get tempted to look up online pornography,but chose to simply close off the internet and get off the computer.I stayed busy by being out in the community and doing what needed to be done.It took my mind off of anything sexual and that was good.While I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.It is not that I am worried about tomorrow,which I am not,but I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptations to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA can come around when least expected.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of attending the Wednesday afternoon Holy Bible study group at the usual meeting place.I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I had only a few things on my agenda for today.My niece called me and asked me to pick her kids up at school,which I did.After dropping them off at home,I made a couple of phone calls to the bank to check my account balance and also,to make an appointment with a eye doctor for Monday afternoon.After that,I got some gas and I went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I went to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I went and did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating a light evening meal,I watched a classic TV episode on a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.I then prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still struggling daily with BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,in regards to my SSA struggles,there were no problems.I had no temptations to lust and fantasize with sexual images of men.I simply stayed busy by doing what I had to do.I did get tempted to look up online pornography,but chose to simply close off the internet and get off the computer.I stayed busy by being out in the community and doing what needed to be done.It took my mind off of anything sexual and that was good.While I escaped today unscathed,there is always tomorrow and the days after that.It is not that I am worried about tomorrow,which I am not,but I have to stay on guard and be watchful as the temptations to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA can come around when least expected.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of attending the Wednesday afternoon Holy Bible study group at the usual meeting place.I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, February 17, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had a coups of coffee.After that,I showered and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and watched a classic TV episode on DVD.As the afternoon wound down,I got a call from the garage that my car was done.It was only a minor problem and that relieved me.After picking my car up,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to see if the vision center there could fix my glasses,but they couldn't and advised me to call the eye doctor that had these made to see what he could do.After leaving there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was about to sit down and watch another classic TV episode when my next door neighbor called me and said she needed to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few things she needed.I took her there and she got everything that she needed and after that was done,I dropped her off and I headed back into the house to relax and I watched another classic TV episode on DVD.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.The SSA struggle is my most difficult one.I have to continuously put up with sexual images of men clouding my mind and repeated temptations to act out on these images.It is a very difficult thing to deal with and it is never an easy thing to struggle with.I am always at odds with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Day after day,it gets even more difficult to deal and struggle with.I am now making a new resolve to start praying regularly to my Heavenly Father to give me strength to fight and resist these terrible urges.I am going to ask for this strength each and every day whenever these terrible temptations rare their ugly heads at me.These urges get stronger with each resistance.I need to ask for this strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of my Heavenly Father's son Jesus Christ.That way,I will have the strength to help me fight and resist these urges every day and I can go on with the rest of the day.Fellow blog followers,while I am doing that,I am still asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support to help keep me going.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had a coups of coffee.After that,I showered and had my usual quick breakfast.After that,I got dressed and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I relaxed and watched a classic TV episode on DVD.As the afternoon wound down,I got a call from the garage that my car was done.It was only a minor problem and that relieved me.After picking my car up,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to see if the vision center there could fix my glasses,but they couldn't and advised me to call the eye doctor that had these made to see what he could do.After leaving there,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I was about to sit down and watch another classic TV episode when my next door neighbor called me and said she needed to go to a local supermarket to pick up a few things she needed.I took her there and she got everything that she needed and after that was done,I dropped her off and I headed back into the house to relax and I watched another classic TV episode on DVD.
After eating,I decided to do a little bit more personal PC work and started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.The SSA struggle is my most difficult one.I have to continuously put up with sexual images of men clouding my mind and repeated temptations to act out on these images.It is a very difficult thing to deal with and it is never an easy thing to struggle with.I am always at odds with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Day after day,it gets even more difficult to deal and struggle with.I am now making a new resolve to start praying regularly to my Heavenly Father to give me strength to fight and resist these terrible urges.I am going to ask for this strength each and every day whenever these terrible temptations rare their ugly heads at me.These urges get stronger with each resistance.I need to ask for this strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of my Heavenly Father's son Jesus Christ.That way,I will have the strength to help me fight and resist these urges every day and I can go on with the rest of the day.Fellow blog followers,while I am doing that,I am still asking that y'all continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support to help keep me going.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't be afraid to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, February 16, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I waited for a ride to church as my car is in the shop waiting to get looked at to see what is wrong with it.When my ride showed up,I got into the van and we headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,my ride took me home and the person wanted me to let them know what is up with my car once I hear something.I told them that I would and after he dropped me off,I got into the house to get out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and I decided to catch up on some much needed cleaning work in my old upstairs room.After that was done,I relaxed and took it easy.
After eating,I decided to watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I relaxed.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitalia to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I lusted and fantasized with these images,but I managed to stop myself before it went too far.When I did stop myself,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins.I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I prayed.I opened up everything to my Heavenly Father and I left nothing out.After I was finished,I felt much better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.After what happened today,I really need to get tough on myself and be on guard.I also must be watchful as Satan and his minions are out there trying to get anyone who worships the sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,to sin grievously against him.Satan and his minions are responsible for getting people to sin and also,they are responsible for getting those with SSA to sin by acting out on the unnatural desires that they have that are connected with SSA.He also tries to get people who struggle,such as myself,to surrender to those unnatural sexual desires that we have that are connected with SSA and Satan and his minions will stop at nothing until they get what they want.As stated,I need to get tough on myself and work on staying on guard and being watchful for Satan's tricks.I need to really start praying for strength whenever these temptations come around when least expected.I do need to get tough and say to myself "I won't act out.I must pray to strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I must go to my Heavenly Father and ask him for that strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ."The thing is that there are man ways that anyone who struggles with SSA can act out aside from searching out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,such as watching pornography,fantasies,lusting and masturbating to the images of men that at times can cloud minds,which is the lusting and fantasizing part.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult time and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.They both help keep me going and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.They really both help in a lot of ways.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of finding out what is wrong with my car,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I got dressed up in a suit real quickly and I waited for a ride to church as my car is in the shop waiting to get looked at to see what is wrong with it.When my ride showed up,I got into the van and we headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,my ride took me home and the person wanted me to let them know what is up with my car once I hear something.I told them that I would and after he dropped me off,I got into the house to get out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I did my personal PC work and I decided to catch up on some much needed cleaning work in my old upstairs room.After that was done,I relaxed and took it easy.
After eating,I decided to watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I relaxed.I also prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I gave into temptation by manipulating my genitalia to sexual images of men clouding my mind and I lusted and fantasized with these images,but I managed to stop myself before it went too far.When I did stop myself,I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins.I asked him for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out as I prayed.I opened up everything to my Heavenly Father and I left nothing out.After I was finished,I felt much better and I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.After what happened today,I really need to get tough on myself and be on guard.I also must be watchful as Satan and his minions are out there trying to get anyone who worships the sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,to sin grievously against him.Satan and his minions are responsible for getting people to sin and also,they are responsible for getting those with SSA to sin by acting out on the unnatural desires that they have that are connected with SSA.He also tries to get people who struggle,such as myself,to surrender to those unnatural sexual desires that we have that are connected with SSA and Satan and his minions will stop at nothing until they get what they want.As stated,I need to get tough on myself and work on staying on guard and being watchful for Satan's tricks.I need to really start praying for strength whenever these temptations come around when least expected.I do need to get tough and say to myself "I won't act out.I must pray to strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.I must go to my Heavenly Father and ask him for that strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ."The thing is that there are man ways that anyone who struggles with SSA can act out aside from searching out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them,such as watching pornography,fantasies,lusting and masturbating to the images of men that at times can cloud minds,which is the lusting and fantasizing part.Fellow blog followers,please continue praying for me as I am going through this difficult time and also,please don't forget to leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.They both help keep me going and make me even more determined to continue in my journey to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.They really both help in a lot of ways.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of finding out what is wrong with my car,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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