Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and chose to stay home today and relax.The only thing that I did was that I put in a few more job applications.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I listened to some music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation again by manipulating my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind as I was doing this.With this,I fantasized and lusted after men as I did this.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him.I asked for his forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and also,I left nothing out.I prayed real hard and I pleaded with my Heavenly Father to show me his undeserved mercy and forgive me for sinning against him.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to go to my Heavenly Father regularly in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to overcome this terrible habit of genital manipulation and also,I need to show him that I am serious about wanting to overcome the fantasizing and lusting after other men.I also need to show him that I am very serious about wanting to heal from SSA and also,serious about wanting to overcome SSA.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need the support of prayers and positive verbal.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual and putting in a few more job applications online,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Saturday, June 28, 2014
Friday, June 27, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today,though last night,it was a rough night sleeping for me.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cps of coffee.I was still feeling tired and drowsy from my rough night sleeping.I went back to bed and slept for a few hours and when I got back up,I showered quickly and had my usual quick breakfast when I was finished showering.After that,I did my personal PC work and when I was finished,I got dressed and decided to head somewhere to see about a job and they advised me to do a search on Google for jobs at their particular company and go on from there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day despite the hard night in bed trying to sleep.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation twice.On both of these occurrences,I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after other men.I guess that I was still tired from the difficult night trying to get to sleep motivated both of these falls as I was still tired and groggy from the night before.On both of these occurrences,I stopped myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I confessed everything and I also accepted full and total responsibility for both of the falls.I prayed and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal support.I need them both desperately and every day.I want and need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this struggle.I need all the support that I can get in both the areas of prayer and positive verbal support.Your support in both of these areas helps me keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.
As for the weekend,with the exception of putting in more job applications online and church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cps of coffee.I was still feeling tired and drowsy from my rough night sleeping.I went back to bed and slept for a few hours and when I got back up,I showered quickly and had my usual quick breakfast when I was finished showering.After that,I did my personal PC work and when I was finished,I got dressed and decided to head somewhere to see about a job and they advised me to do a search on Google for jobs at their particular company and go on from there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day despite the hard night in bed trying to sleep.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation twice.On both of these occurrences,I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after other men.I guess that I was still tired from the difficult night trying to get to sleep motivated both of these falls as I was still tired and groggy from the night before.On both of these occurrences,I stopped myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I confessed everything and I also accepted full and total responsibility for both of the falls.I prayed and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal support.I need them both desperately and every day.I want and need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this struggle.I need all the support that I can get in both the areas of prayer and positive verbal support.Your support in both of these areas helps me keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.
As for the weekend,with the exception of putting in more job applications online and church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered real quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I went through my personal PC work and for most of the day,I tried to get in an online job application for the local Target store.I went to the store and an assistant manager helped get me through the obstacle and when I got home,I finished the rest of the application and after that,I called a friend up to see how they were doing and after a few minutes talking with them,I finished some more personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and I headed for a friend's house for a BBQ.
The BBQ was wonderful as I did eat a lot of food and enjoyed some wonderful music and conversations.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I actually managed to get through the day without any problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted to act out by fantasies or lusting and I also wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals in any way.While that is good that I escaped unscathed today,I must say that there is tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to continue working on getting tough with myself and going to my Heavenly Father and asking him for strength to fight and resist the urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to make that a habit and not let the unnatural sexual desires that I have own me as I want to own them.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still would appreciate it if you would continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate it if you would leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both these types of support.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of trying get more job applications in online,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered real quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I went through my personal PC work and for most of the day,I tried to get in an online job application for the local Target store.I went to the store and an assistant manager helped get me through the obstacle and when I got home,I finished the rest of the application and after that,I called a friend up to see how they were doing and after a few minutes talking with them,I finished some more personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed and I headed for a friend's house for a BBQ.
The BBQ was wonderful as I did eat a lot of food and enjoyed some wonderful music and conversations.After it was all over,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did a little bit more personal PC work and I prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a very good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I actually managed to get through the day without any problems with temptations.I wasn't tempted to act out by fantasies or lusting and I also wasn't tempted to manipulate my genitals in any way.While that is good that I escaped unscathed today,I must say that there is tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.I still need to stay on guard and be watchful as Satan and his minions can strike at any time.I need to continue working on getting tough with myself and going to my Heavenly Father and asking him for strength to fight and resist the urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to make that a habit and not let the unnatural sexual desires that I have own me as I want to own them.Fellow blog followers and readers,I still would appreciate it if you would continue to keep me in your prayers.I also would appreciate it if you would leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both these types of support.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of trying get more job applications in online,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.Since there was a possibility for rain today,which never came to pass,I stayed home to catch up on some much needed work that I had to do and when I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player to watch it.After that was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and enjoyed some music and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,while still in bed,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and sexual images of men clouded my mind.Yes,I fantasized and lusted after those images.Fortunately,I was able to stop myself before it went to far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out as I did.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and I asked to be forgiven.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and I went on for the rest of the day with no problems.In the ensuing days,I am hoping that I can get the strength to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these terrible urges when they come.I need to really get tough and tell Satan and his minions that they have no power over me.I need to show these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I need to really work on going to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist when these temptations come around.I don't want to have these terrible and unnatural sexual desires that I have own me and not let them dictate nor define who I am and how I will act out.I am a man and my body is biologically hard-wired for compatibility with a woman as our Heavenly Father created man and woman and there are no substitutes nor exceptions.I have to continually keep that in mind.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support each and every day and desperately.I need to reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also want to be stronger than the unnatural sexual desires that I struggle with on a daily basis.I don't want them defining who I am nor dictating to me how I will be or act.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my evening study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work.Since there was a possibility for rain today,which never came to pass,I stayed home to catch up on some much needed work that I had to do and when I was finished with that,I relaxed and popped a DVD into the DVD player to watch it.After that was over,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and enjoyed some music and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,while still in bed,I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and sexual images of men clouded my mind.Yes,I fantasized and lusted after those images.Fortunately,I was able to stop myself before it went to far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed hard and left nothing out as I did.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and I asked to be forgiven.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly believed that I was forgiven and I went on for the rest of the day with no problems.In the ensuing days,I am hoping that I can get the strength to go to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these terrible urges when they come.I need to really get tough and tell Satan and his minions that they have no power over me.I need to show these unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I need to really work on going to my Heavenly Father and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist when these temptations come around.I don't want to have these terrible and unnatural sexual desires that I have own me and not let them dictate nor define who I am and how I will act out.I am a man and my body is biologically hard-wired for compatibility with a woman as our Heavenly Father created man and woman and there are no substitutes nor exceptions.I have to continually keep that in mind.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both of these types of support each and every day and desperately.I need to reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also want to be stronger than the unnatural sexual desires that I struggle with on a daily basis.I don't want them defining who I am nor dictating to me how I will be or act.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my evening study group,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I went to my bank to work out some difficulties that I had with them in regards to my account and when I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I eagerly awaited for my caseworker to show up and when she did,we talked about some things and when we finished and she left,I headed back out.
On the way to the Best Buy that was in the next county,I got some gas and after that,I headed to Best Buy to pay a bill and bought a few nice things.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket and picked up something that I needed.After that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few other things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and when that was done,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I report that I had no problems nor issues with temptations today.I guess staying busy and simply doing what I had to do kept my mind off of those negative things that at times start clouding my mind when least expected.I stayed busy by doing my personal PC work and just keeping me occupied with things that were necessary.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to be prepared for that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support in many ways as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I need your positive verbal support as much as I need your prayerful support.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.You support in both of these areas is very important to me and I really need it.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned mainly because it's going to rain tomorrow.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I showered quickly and when I was finished with that,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was finished,I went to my bank to work out some difficulties that I had with them in regards to my account and when I was finished,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I eagerly awaited for my caseworker to show up and when she did,we talked about some things and when we finished and she left,I headed back out.
On the way to the Best Buy that was in the next county,I got some gas and after that,I headed to Best Buy to pay a bill and bought a few nice things.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket and picked up something that I needed.After that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few other things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and when that was done,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Though it is,I report that I had no problems nor issues with temptations today.I guess staying busy and simply doing what I had to do kept my mind off of those negative things that at times start clouding my mind when least expected.I stayed busy by doing my personal PC work and just keeping me occupied with things that were necessary.Though I did escape today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after tomorrow.Satan and his minions can strike at any time and I need to be prepared for that.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support in many ways as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time right now.I need your positive verbal support as much as I need your prayerful support.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments are rarely left in the comments section.You support in both of these areas is very important to me and I really need it.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also both reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned mainly because it's going to rain tomorrow.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Monday, June 23, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to pick up some copies of my revised resume and I headed for home.
On the way home,I dropped off a job application at a place where I picked it up from a few days ago.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.I also enjoyed some relaxation while listening to music and after that,went to the USA Jobs website to start an account and hopefully,get somewhere for employment.I still have to fill out another application online before the day ends or by tomorrow.After all of this,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed for a local supermarket to turn in some cans and bottles that I had collected and some that were given to me.After that,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for a while.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising out of bed,I manipulated my genitals while sexual images of men clouded my mind and I fantasized and lusted after the images.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling into sin.I asked for this forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for falling and I left nothing out.I prayed hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any more troubles with temptations.I really need to start getting tough with myself as I don't want to keep doing this sort of thing.I really need to start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these sorts of temptations.I need to go to him constantly as I want to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father and ask for forgiveness.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am very serious about wanting to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would love some positive verbal support alongside your continued prayerful support.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need to be reassured that there are people out there who understand what I struggle with and are willing to help by not just prayerful support,but positive verbal support.I want to be strong and I want to be understood as well as want to be helped.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going and also,strengthens both my determination and motivation to keep going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to pick up some copies of my revised resume and I headed for home.
On the way home,I dropped off a job application at a place where I picked it up from a few days ago.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.I also enjoyed some relaxation while listening to music and after that,went to the USA Jobs website to start an account and hopefully,get somewhere for employment.I still have to fill out another application online before the day ends or by tomorrow.After all of this,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed for a local supermarket to turn in some cans and bottles that I had collected and some that were given to me.After that,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for a while.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising out of bed,I manipulated my genitals while sexual images of men clouded my mind and I fantasized and lusted after the images.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling into sin.I asked for this forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for falling and I left nothing out.I prayed hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any more troubles with temptations.I really need to start getting tough with myself as I don't want to keep doing this sort of thing.I really need to start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these sorts of temptations.I need to go to him constantly as I want to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father and ask for forgiveness.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am very serious about wanting to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would love some positive verbal support alongside your continued prayerful support.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need to be reassured that there are people out there who understand what I struggle with and are willing to help by not just prayerful support,but positive verbal support.I want to be strong and I want to be understood as well as want to be helped.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going and also,strengthens both my determination and motivation to keep going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
Sunday, June 22, 2014
Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as always.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I headed over to my sister's house to help her clean up some stuff around her backyard after the party that was there yesterday.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for a bit while enjoying some music.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed a little bit more and enjoyed some more music.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I didn't get any temptations to act out on the unnatural desires that I have.I went through the day with no problems.Though I did,this isn't a time for rejoicing or dancing around happily.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can tempt me to do anything that is sinful in the eyes of my Heavenly Father and I have to show them that I own the desires that I have and that they don't own me.I have to show them,with help from my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am stronger than they are and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I still really need them.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Your support in both of these areas is very important to me.It helps me in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this struggle.Yes,both types of support from y'all helps keep me strong in terms of my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach tomorrow to pick more copies of my resume,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
Both the class and the worship service were wonderful as always.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into casual clothes.I headed over to my sister's house to help her clean up some stuff around her backyard after the party that was there yesterday.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and I relaxed for a bit while enjoying some music.
After eating,I watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I also did some more personal PC work.I relaxed a little bit more and enjoyed some more music.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,though it is,I didn't get any temptations to act out on the unnatural desires that I have.I went through the day with no problems.Though I did,this isn't a time for rejoicing or dancing around happily.I still have to continue to stay on guard and be watchful.Satan and his minions can strike at any time.They can tempt me to do anything that is sinful in the eyes of my Heavenly Father and I have to show them that I own the desires that I have and that they don't own me.I have to show them,with help from my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ,that I am stronger than they are and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I still really need them.I also ask that y'all leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.Your support in both of these areas is very important to me.It helps me in a lot of ways.They both help keep me going.They also help reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this struggle.Yes,both types of support from y'all helps keep me strong in terms of my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with my job placement counselor/coach tomorrow to pick more copies of my resume,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ
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