Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and chose to stay home today and relax.The only thing that I did was that I put in a few more job applications.After that,I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I did some more personal PC work and I listened to some music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I did give into temptation again by manipulating my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind as I was doing this.With this,I fantasized and lusted after men as I did this.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him.I asked for his forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and also,I left nothing out.I prayed real hard and I pleaded with my Heavenly Father to show me his undeserved mercy and forgive me for sinning against him.When I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to go to my Heavenly Father regularly in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to show my Heavenly Father that I am serious about wanting to overcome this terrible habit of genital manipulation and also,I need to show him that I am serious about wanting to overcome the fantasizing and lusting after other men.I also need to show him that I am very serious about wanting to heal from SSA and also,serious about wanting to overcome SSA.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support day in and day out.My blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any kind are rarely left.I need the support of prayers and positive verbal.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual and putting in a few more job applications online,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ