Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today,though last night,it was a rough night sleeping for me.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cps of coffee.I was still feeling tired and drowsy from my rough night sleeping.I went back to bed and slept for a few hours and when I got back up,I showered quickly and had my usual quick breakfast when I was finished showering.After that,I did my personal PC work and when I was finished,I got dressed and decided to head somewhere to see about a job and they advised me to do a search on Google for jobs at their particular company and go on from there.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day despite the hard night in bed trying to sleep.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I gave into temptation twice.On both of these occurrences,I manipulated my genitals to sexual images of men that clouded my mind,causing me to fantasize and lust after other men.I guess that I was still tired from the difficult night trying to get to sleep motivated both of these falls as I was still tired and groggy from the night before.On both of these occurrences,I stopped myself and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I confessed everything and I also accepted full and total responsibility for both of the falls.I prayed and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished,I felt better and I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both your prayers and your positive verbal support.I need them both desperately and every day.I want and need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this struggle.I need all the support that I can get in both the areas of prayer and positive verbal support.Your support in both of these areas helps me keep me going.They also help keep me strong in both my determination and motivation.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.
As for the weekend,with the exception of putting in more job applications online and church as usual on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ