Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed for the job placement agency to pick up some copies of my revised resume and I headed for home.
On the way home,I dropped off a job application at a place where I picked it up from a few days ago.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my dress clothes and I did my personal PC work.I also enjoyed some relaxation while listening to music and after that,went to the USA Jobs website to start an account and hopefully,get somewhere for employment.I still have to fill out another application online before the day ends or by tomorrow.After all of this,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I got dressed in casual clothes and I headed for a local supermarket to turn in some cans and bottles that I had collected and some that were given to me.After that,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a gallon of milk.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did some more personal PC work and relaxed for a while.I also started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,upon arising out of bed,I manipulated my genitals while sexual images of men clouded my mind and I fantasized and lusted after the images.Fortunately,I managed to stop myself and I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling into sin.I asked for this forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also accepted full and total responsibility for falling and I left nothing out.I prayed hard and when I was finished,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day without any more troubles with temptations.I really need to start getting tough with myself as I don't want to keep doing this sort of thing.I really need to start making it a habit of going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these sorts of temptations.I need to go to him constantly as I want to avoid falling into the trap of habitually sinning and going to my Heavenly Father and ask for forgiveness.I want to show my Heavenly Father that I am very serious about wanting to overcome and heal from this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I would love some positive verbal support alongside your continued prayerful support.I need to be constantly reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need to be reassured that there are people out there who understand what I struggle with and are willing to help by not just prayerful support,but positive verbal support.I want to be strong and I want to be understood as well as want to be helped.Your support in both of these areas helps keep me going and also,strengthens both my determination and motivation to keep going.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ